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I know, no one can answer that question but me and labels don't matter.... but I'm seriously confused.
Okay... a very quick recap of my sexuality history. Up until I was 20, I thought I was completely straight. I remember wanting to kiss girls at the age of 4. The first time I masturbated, I hadn't even seen porn [I was 10 or 11 I think] and I was masturbating to the thought of having sex with a hot maid I saw on a movie. I got my first legit GF at the age of 12... and we were sexual with each other, but we never had sex... although I really wanted to. This relationship ended when I was 16. I was pretty devastated by the break up. I tried to get other GF's... but I suddenly became shy and insecure with my body. I remember obsessively googling "What size penis do girls like?" "Do girls only like guys that are really muscular?" Stuff like that.
By the age of 17, I started to watch porn pretty frequently. Like 5 times a week. By 18, it was almost every day. By 19, I watched porn like 10-12 times a week and would sometimes masturbate for 4 hours at a time. It got to the point where I couldn't even get 100% hard while watching porn... sometimes I would cum when I was like 70% hard.
So yeah... I was a porn addict. But I only watched straight porn and lesbian porn. Never really even had interest to look up gay porn. Then one day, before I turned 20, I came across Tranny porn. At first I was disgusted... but then I got intrigued. Then I noticed I was 100% erect and really turned on... This shocked the shit outta me... So I went back to the straight porn and took advantage of the good erection. Slowly though, I found myself going back to the tranny porn. I always made sure the tranny's looked very feminine.
Then a few months after that, I thought, "If I got so hard watching tranny porn, would I like gay porn?" And well... I got really hard again.
Now, I don't watch gay porn frequently... but I do on occasion and it really gets me off.
Does this mean that I was really gay/bi and just really deep in the closet this whole time?
Okay... a very quick recap of my sexuality history. Up until I was 20, I thought I was completely straight. I remember wanting to kiss girls at the age of 4. The first time I masturbated, I hadn't even seen porn [I was 10 or 11 I think] and I was masturbating to the thought of having sex with a hot maid I saw on a movie. I got my first legit GF at the age of 12... and we were sexual with each other, but we never had sex... although I really wanted to. This relationship ended when I was 16. I was pretty devastated by the break up. I tried to get other GF's... but I suddenly became shy and insecure with my body. I remember obsessively googling "What size penis do girls like?" "Do girls only like guys that are really muscular?" Stuff like that.
By the age of 17, I started to watch porn pretty frequently. Like 5 times a week. By 18, it was almost every day. By 19, I watched porn like 10-12 times a week and would sometimes masturbate for 4 hours at a time. It got to the point where I couldn't even get 100% hard while watching porn... sometimes I would cum when I was like 70% hard.
So yeah... I was a porn addict. But I only watched straight porn and lesbian porn. Never really even had interest to look up gay porn. Then one day, before I turned 20, I came across Tranny porn. At first I was disgusted... but then I got intrigued. Then I noticed I was 100% erect and really turned on... This shocked the shit outta me... So I went back to the straight porn and took advantage of the good erection. Slowly though, I found myself going back to the tranny porn. I always made sure the tranny's looked very feminine.
Then a few months after that, I thought, "If I got so hard watching tranny porn, would I like gay porn?" And well... I got really hard again.
Now, I don't watch gay porn frequently... but I do on occasion and it really gets me off.
Does this mean that I was really gay/bi and just really deep in the closet this whole time?















