Buying your first gay porn - hot or not?

[gloriholeluvr]

What was it like for you, when you were perhaps struggling to admit to yourself the growing hunger you felt for a sexual encounter with another man or still telling yourself that you were straight but had this gnawing desire to look at cocks and balls? How did it feel when you finally screwed up enough courage to choose that all-male hardcore magazine at some sleazy adult bookstore, or a copy of INCHES or MANDATE magazine at a local news & magazine and walked it to the counter to actually BUY it? Did it make you hot and excited or scare you shitless when you placed your obviously homosexual treasure on the counter so the clerk could ring it up and you fumbled with your money and they asked if you wanted in a bag? Was it a male or female clerk? Did they smirk, look disgusted or give you a knowing or disapproving glance as you made your small and wordless, but none the less obvious declaration of the awakening homosexual desire that you had long kept secret? What did you feel as you drove home or to some secluded spot to get naked and feast your eyes on the luscious men inside and their equally delicious-looking cocks and low-slung balls, the smooth curves of a man's muscular butt or the tight, brown pucker of a masculine asshole that somehow seemed to make your mouth water? Did you continue to fight the attraction or did you give in and begin to masturbate, finally saying to yourself, "His cock is soooo beautiful...I wonder what it would be like to feel it, take it into my mouth, to suck it?" Did you find yourself thinking, "Oh how I'd love to be in HIS position!" Or, "He's soooo good-looking...I'd do THAT for him, too!"? Please share with us what you did and how you felt with ALL of this, as it is such a turn-on!

 

[bike10]

First gay porn video was Bulging Jockstraps found in catalog.

 

[jensu846]

i was scared shitless.. I would pick up a hetero magazine/video and pretend I was looking at that all the while glancing at the man section out of the corner of my eye. I would watch other guys and see if they could actually stand and look at the gay section. I always regretted chickening out when I got home. Finally I just got fed up or horny enough, and just made myself look at the mags and vids and finally buying one. I swallowed my pride and felt so embarrassed, but it was worth it in the end. It got so much easier after that. I was on cloud 9 the whole drive home and couldn't wait to jack off to my new porn!

 

[jft245]

I would travel 30-40 miles to buy my porn figuring nobody would know me. Would take a long time to work up the courage to pick some mags off the shelf and stand in line to pay. The store I went to had several different clerks and the only one who made me feel at ease was an older lady who would chitchat while I checked out. All the male clerks made me feel like some sleaze bag, they never said anything, it was just the way they looked at me after they saw what I was buying.

 

[medic1]

God , what a memory , i was 15 and it was a local newsagent , i went in and bought a copy of Playgirl.....I KNOW!!
with my School-lunch money .
Cmon i was only 15 , i can remember sitting in my Latin class , JUST , looking at the clock and waiting for that bloody bell to go .

I can tell you that i had a GREAT time , the only time in my life that i managed to shoot 5 consecutive loads , now i am lucky if i can manage 3 .
Great memory , Great Thread...................

 

[dukemike]

When I was a young teenager, the local NYC newsstands had a magazine called TM "Tomorrow's Man". It was young athletic guys in posing straps, with no nudity, but I would travel to a totally different neighborhood from where I lived, and look around to be sure no one I knew saw me, and purchase my copy. The clerk would put it in a plain brown paper bag, and as I walked to the subway to go home, I felt certain that everyone was staring at me, and knew what was inside that brown paper bag, as if they had x-ray vision.

 

[gloriholeluvr]

My first time, I had just turned 19 (April, 1972) and my new male lover, the guy who introduced me to the joy of man-to-man sex and was training me as his cock-slut bottom, was to pick me up for our second weekend together in the parking lot of the Allentown, PA bus depot. It was Friday afternoon and as soon as I finished my classes, I hitchhiked to the center of A-town. I was early, so I went across the street to the old-fashioned news & magazine store where I had purchased girlie mags previously. I knew they carried some hardcore "adults only" stuff there, too...up on the top racks and off to the corner. I had a few bucks and I thought it would be nice to take something to our little weekend sex-feast that my lover, Eddie, and I could enjoy together. I was a bit nervous, but I had purchased stuff here before...just not the type I was looking for now!

Well, I went in and looked at sports magazines while the last guy or two in there made their purchases and left before I went over to the "adults only" corner. I let my eyes scan across the group of straight hardcore stuff, taking a few off the shelf and examining both covers before putting the back. I could feel the grumpy old clerk, a guy in his 60's, watching me like a hawk, and could feel my embarrassment rising! But then, as I neared the far end of the rack, my heart skipped a beat and I found myself in front of a small group of all-male sex magazines! THIS was what I had come looking for and, now that I had found it, I felt like I was paralyzed! I was shaking with a mixture of cold fear and very hot desire and it was a struggle to get my had up to look at one of these forbidden magazines! But, I felt my cock getting hard as I perused these openly gay offerings, so I got up my courage and determined to purchase my first homosexual sex magazine! And I'll never forget my choice either...a hardcore mag entitled, "Secret Hunger - Young men who crave sex with with Real Men." Of course all these magazines were taped shut, but the cover was startling and I can still picture it today! The full-color photo was shot looking up and showed two very muscular and obviously mature studs standing side by side and looking down at a third guy, a young man about my age who was obviously on his knees! Of course, they were all completely naked, the young man on his knees had a look of feverish, but shy, excitement on his face, almost as if licking his lips, while he had the thumb and forefinger of each hand wrapped around the base of one of the men's big, hairy cock...holding them as if the would explode! Those beautiful cocks were "70's style" soft, but did they look great...and made my hunger for cock begin to grow! But best of