i am not gay- but why do i like gay porn?

[eyesforu]

i am straight.... i know cause i never think of kissing a guy, fucking him, giving him a blow job, sucking his hole... i don't think guys are hot well except the obvious, brad pitt etc. who obviously no guy can deny his hotness. Anyways... i'm not gay... i like girls, i just know it... but i fucking love to masturbate more to gay porn than straight porn...i get a boner faster with gay porn too. And i watch it like everyday that all i'm actually or always seeing is gay porn.... is this normal?

 

[Soilwork]

it's normal for a gay guy, yeah.

sorry.

I know how much the idea of being with a guy might freak you out, but if all you watch is gay porn... well... sounds to me like you're gay.

It's cool. there are a lot of us who are gay, didn't wanna be gay and thought that it was just this or that but not "GAY". But we got over it and so will you.

OH, and welcome to JUB. The world is a scary place for guys like us, and JUB can be your place to make some gay friends. We're not all so bad.

ok I am that bad, but most of the guys here are really nice.

(Oh, and for the record, I'm not really into Brad Pitt at all.. he's a good actor and I loved him in 12 monkeys, but I was much more interested in Bruce Willis. Go figure.)

 

[CGHJ]

Nope, your gay dude, you're just in denial. And my fellow JUBbers know me as the guy that's always standing up for a guy's straightness, saying you can experiment and not be gay.

But you, my friend, are gay.

Unless you can provide a reallly, reallly good answer to why you "just know" you like girls. Lots of gay men go through a phase just like yours where they hope beyond hope that they really like girls, if only they'd meet a cool one.

Here's the good news...once you learn to accept it, being gay is WAY more fun. In my opinion, and I actually do like girls.

 

[Soilwork]

Joe is right.

Being gay is a LOT more fun. Man, sitting around the hosue having some beers with your buddies can turn out ANY way.. you just have no idea til you get there. try THAT with your straight friends.

 

[CGHJ]

And Soil's right...there are many many people in your same situation, and this is a great place to talk about how you feel with like-minded persons.

What is it that you like best in gay porn when you do see it? Does it make you want to try that yourself?

 

[greenguy]

It is not normal to be straight and to masturbate to gay porn, since a straight person would have no interest to do so. It is normal to masturbate to gay porn and be bisexual or homosexual.

It sounds like you might be going through something similar to what I went through for the first few years after discovering that I prefered masturbating to gay porn over straight porn. I always used to think that I didn't want to have an intimate relationship with a man and that I was destined to get married with a woman. It was comforting to know that, while I was different than other boys, that I wasn't too different. Now looking back, I understand why I thought that way--but back then, I was deep in denial. Eventually, I overcame that and become more comfortable with the idea of becoming more romantically involved with men and I suspect that you may have a similar experience.

Good luck.

 

[KentuckyPython]

Soilwork & CGHJ where were you when I was grappling with this subject? It was years ago--before Al Gore invented the Internet.

I've been where you are. I understand. I knew my parents wouldn't disown me. I knew it would be okay. I watched the porn as human interest research. I was curious. Then I thought I might be bi. Now, I'm here. I'm queer.

First you need to come out to yourself. Then you can get your footing, and hey, this site is full of gay people who will be supportive of you.

And hey, welcome.

 

[eyesforu]

i understand how from (what i said) that you think i'm gay. But i'm seriously not.... i just love gay porn... that's it...

it's like i like beer, girls and gay porn

but if it's not normail in your opinions, than i guess i may be few of them.... i'm not gay... i have always known that, i like girls and there is no reason for me to be in denial. I'm not bi cause i seriously do not like guys. Like if i see a hot guy in the streets, i don't think of fucking his brains out...if i see a girl though, i do. Completely different. And then like in the showers.... i don't look at dicks and my dick is flat (flacid) but i stilll love gay porn. Probably it's a habit.... and then another thing.... thinking of giving a guy a blow job disgusts me, i mean sucking a dick cause i find dicks so disgusting and i'll never understand the whole reason between the gays and how much they love the cock.... i love the pussy, but i also love gay porn.... not dicks lol, gay porn

 

[Soilwork]

yeah.

It's a habit.

dude, I like beer and gay porn too.

Most of us do.

you're gay. Just the way it goes. You say you watch gay porn exclusively, and that pretty much means one thing.

we're ALL been where you are, and we got past it.

I always knew I was straight too. I was going to marry a girl.. fuck, I was planning on it from the time I was a kid. I KNEW I was straight because I knew gay guys and I wasnt' like them. I was like straight guys. I knew I wasn't gay because I liked beer and pussy.

er.. I liked beer anyway. And Hockey and Baseball and motorcycles and Heavy Metal, so I JUST KNEW I was straight. I never looked at any of the guys in my school. Of course.. I grew up in a farming village with lots of ugly guys, but that's beside the point.

I was straight.

until I got over it.

And you will too.

And we'll be here to talk about it when you're ready.

 

[sentirpromesas]

ok...so ur straight...and u dont find guys hot...u dont like dick...then what DO u find attractive about gay porn...cuz obviously there must be something stimulating about gay porn if u find it arousing...u really have to ask urself..."i dont know" doesnt cover it because u really do know...we have all been in this situation...we see what gay guys "are" and we dissociate ourselves from them because we are almost disgusted by the stereotypes...so instead we delve into the straight-acting gay porn because its "real" men doin "real" men not really a flamming homo doing another flamming homo...its totally understandable...but have to admit, there is SOMETHING that u find sexually arousing in gay porn...and it sure isnt the plots

 

[eyesforu]

i don't find it attracting at all... i infact find it disgusting, but i still watch it and a lot

 

[Soilwork]

but eyes, dont' you understand that we ALL found it disguting when we weren't ready to deal with it? We all found the whole thing gross... we'd never kiss a guy.. we'd never suck a dick.. we didnt' want to hold hands with a guy or wake up in the morning next to a guy and have a cup of coffee..

Until we did.

And you will too.

really.

 

[boredman321]

i think i just cracked my neck with the whole back and forth thing


opinion of me; i think your in denial i was the same way last year, and now you gotta KEEP IT GAY KEEP IT GAY KEEP IT GAY

 

[eyesforu]

yeah.

It's a habit.

dude, I like beer and gay porn too.

Most of us do.

you're gay. Just the way it goes. You say you watch gay porn exclusively, and that pretty much means one thing.

we're ALL been where you are, and we got past it.

I always knew I was straight too. I was going to marry a girl.. fuck, I was planning on it from the time I was a kid. I KNEW I was straight because I knew gay guys and I wasnt' like them. I was like straight guys. I knew I wasn't gay because I liked beer and pussy.

er.. I liked beer anyway. And Hockey and Baseball and motorcycles and Heavy Metal, so I JUST KNEW I was straight. I never looked at any of the guys in my school. Of course.. I grew up in a farming village with lots of ugly guys, but that's beside the point.

I was straight.

until I got over it.

And you will too.

And we'll be here to talk about it when you're ready.

i know what you are saying dude.... but no, i don't like guys... i am not in denial, i know that... and getting over it? i have nothing to get over with.... i don't like guys lol, i am not living in denial.... and no one thinks i'm gay... i mean they don't know that i can't stop watching gay porn.... but when you know your not gay, your not... and in my opinion, that is the obvious truth. I'm not gay, no one in my family is gay....and i certainly ain't. And now don't think that cause my family aren't, i shouldn't be or that's what i should think.... no cause i seriously don't care, if i was gay... i'd fucking never be in denial about it.... and i'm serious. But i never thought of myself as gay.... i mean you guys are gay (probably you aren't, i really don't care) but i mean ofcourse if i ask you a question, that's the first thing that'll come to your mind

 

[dumbnhung]

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dude, you're a mo!

 

[sentirpromesas]

ok...i find killing animals utterly disgusting...and i wont deliberately watch it...if u deliberately watch it (AND get aroused by it) u cant possibly consider it THAT disgusting...im sorry but i dont get a boner watching fear factor

 

[eyesforu]

but eyes, dont' you understand that we ALL found it disguting when we weren't ready to deal with it? We all found the whole thing gross... we'd never kiss a guy.. we'd never suck a dick.. we didnt' want to hold hands with a guy or wake up in the morning next to a guy and have a cup of coffee..

Until we did.

And you will too.

really.

are you trying to fucking hipnotize me.... you were like that... and i don't care if everyone in this forum are like that... i'm not.... the only reason i came to ask this question is cause i felt that the homosexuals (the gays, fags, etc.) knew better to understand.... but i seriously think that the whole gay thing has gotten to your heads.

 

[eyesforu]

ok...i find killing animals utterly disgusting...and i wont deliberately watch it...if u deliberately watch it (AND get aroused by it) u cant possibly consider it THAT disgusting...im sorry but i dont get a boner watching fear factor

lol...... but i get boners at everything... it pops out of nowhere... boners are never a way to actually find out if someone is arroused. Your situation relates exactly to me.... i mean you think it is disgusting right.... but you still watch it... maybe it's cause you see the same old same old, and new things interest you more (kinda like my situation) but i'm not gay. i'll never be

 

[eyesforu]

gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay

dude, you're a mo!

what's a mo?

 

[sentirpromesas]

hehehe...gay thing has gotten to our heads...have u heard of the suppression/rebound effect? well this is a psychological phenomenon that occurs when we try to suppress certain thoughts/aspects of ourselves...but instead, all that happens is we rebound these thoughts/aspects into everything else we do...kinda like a latent racist...if u call a latent racist a racist he will reply with even more racist tinged language...call someone gay and he will accuse u of letting gayness get to ur head...