just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[xbuzzerx]

as strange as this sounds, i'm scared that these pills will change the core person of who i am personality wise. i would say that i'm so used to being a certain way with the ocd that this new adjustment is scaring me. i am not used to this. it's like what i am used to is gone and i have nothing to fall on to. it's making me upset. yes, it is a relief but it brings about new fears that are bothering me. it's like i want someone to reassure me that everything is okay but life goes on and i have to face this scary change. these side effects are not helping either.

That's a common fear Refuji but while there's an adaptation period to psych meds-- trust me what makes people different (and for the worse) is when they're going on and off meds that they either need to stay on or stay off. It's ugly.

 

[refujiunderground]

I felt the same way when I took Prozac. It didn't change me or my OCD or turn me into a Stepford Wife zombie like I feared it would. It didn't even keep me from getting angry .

did it have any side effects that really bothered you?

 

[refujiunderground]

That's a common fear Refuji but while there's an adaptation period to psych meds-- trust me what makes people different (and for the worse) is when they're going on and off meds that they either need to stay on or stay off. It's ugly.

should have never popped these meds but what's done is done.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Same as you... I couldn't JO as much as I was used to. I expected it to make me "happy". It did help level me out and not stress over petty shit.

 

[xbuzzerx]

should have never popped these meds but what's done is done.

Well my 2 cents is, the right psych med never 'changes who someone is.' I hear that fear all the time but I've never seen someone "totally changed" unless they were on something they really needed to get them out of severe depression or psychotic states, or crippled by anxiety. I think you should stay on them, but I don't know what all is going on side effects wise and I'm not an expert to comment even if you told me about your side effects. The discussion should be with your doctor.

However if the main thing is you're having "second thoughts/buyers remorse" about doing meds at all-- then I think you should stick it out. That's just irrational fear. You're not going to turn into Willie Wonka.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Think of them as a placebo. I am taking this pill and I am better. I can do the things I was scared to before. You're way over analyzing the effects in this stage of the game, prematurely.

 

[Lefty]

Fuji,

Take your fucking prescribed pills...
You don't need to abuse yourself 7-11 times a day.
2 or 3 goodies a day is more than enough.
If they give you zombie shit they don't let you out in public.

Try to conceptualize this, proper med, used properly are like
5th gear...You can run in four but the extra gear makes the
trip a little easier. If something comes up (like a steep hill)
you can downshift for whats necessary.

If they don't work you can drop them, if they do...life just
got a bit more manageable...

 

[hylas]

ok rant NOW:

this morning i took a shower. it flooded, because the drain was clogged. there probably is going to be damage and a potentially high bill. dont know yet how much. and my landlord wants to blame it all on me.

the thing is, i live with 3 other people, one of which has 1-3 people staying over for more than a week now. so basically, ive been living with 4-6 people these past few days. the drain has been getting clogged more and more, and nobody has done anything about it. yes, i too should have done something about it yet didnt... but neither did they.

so basically, im now at the mercy of my roommates, whether or not theyre gonna share the responsibility, and the bill. they seem nice enough, but i dont really know them yet.

i also just found out i dont have liability insurance, which i thought i had. yeah, my own fault for being such a moron about these things.

basically, im now waiting for my roommates to get back, and see how they react. if theyre gonna try to hang it all on me, or if theyre gonna agree that we all made this mess by ignoring the increasingly clogged up drain for more than a week now. aaaaarrrrgh.

 

[maxpowr9]

I don't know what's wrong with me the past couple of days, but I've been extremely concerned about my weight. I'm not overweight by any means...but I just keep looking at myself and thinking I just look flabby and out of shape. As I've said before--I did get a bit "extra" with the eating during the holidays...but even still the scale only shows that I've not gained much at all.

It's weird when you *know* nothing is wrong with you, but you can't stop being hard on yourself about weight.

I even looked online, checked medical websites--and I'm right where I need to be. I hope this is all a phase and that it passes soon.

OMFG I have been thinking the same thing too. It feels like I gained 15 lbs but in reality it is only like 4lbs. I am gonna whip out my DDR pad and start playing again tomorrow and that will be my real sign how out of shape I have gotten.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

ok rant NOW:

this morning i took a shower. it flooded, because the drain was clogged. there probably is going to be damage and a potentially high bill. dont know yet how much. and my landlord wants to blame it all on me.

the thing is, i live with 3 other people, one of which has 1-3 people staying over for more than a week now. so basically, ive been living with 4-6 people these past few days. the drain has been getting clogged more and more, and nobody has done anything about it. yes, i too should have done something about it yet didnt... but neither did they.

so basically, im now at the mercy of my roommates, whether or not theyre gonna share the responsibility, and the bill. they seem nice enough, but i dont really know them yet.

i also just found out i dont have liability insurance, which i thought i had. yeah, my own fault for being such a moron about these things.

basically, im now waiting for my roommates to get back, and see how they react. if theyre gonna try to hang it all on me, or if theyre gonna agree that we all made this mess by ignoring the increasingly clogged up drain for more than a week now. aaaaarrrrgh.

A $5. plunger from Wal-Mart can do wonders.

I recommend this one:

But I know how you feel... My BF and I had the same problem at our house a couple months ago. We couldn't fix it ourselves and had to have a plumber come out and root out the drain to the sewer near the street with a plumber's snake. The best $85 spent EVER.

 

[hylas]

oh, these problems arent that hard to fix, and its totally our fault for ignoring it and letting it come so far. but its our fault, not my fault.

 

[xbuzzerx]

oh, these problems arent that hard to fix, and its totally our fault for ignoring it and letting it come so far. but its our fault, not my fault.

If your roommates refuse to share the bill because you were the guy who took the shower the moment the drain clogged over, they're jerks imho.

 

[Lefty]

I'm not sure how it works there,
but I have insurance for that. My
renters would be liable for the bill
from the plumber (extraordinary
living expense) my liability would
cover on site repairs.

 

[refujiunderground]

Exercise can help with anxiety and depression.

i go to the gym regularly and have been doing so for almost 4 years now. it really hasn't helped much with the anxiety and depression to tell you the truth. even doing cardio hasn't made much of a difference either.

 

[maxpowr9]

A $5. plunger from Wal-Mart can do wonders.

I recommend this one:

But I know how you feel... My BF and I had the same problem at our house a couple months ago. We couldn't fix it ourselves and had to have a plumber come out and root out the drain to the sewer near the street with a plumber's snake. The best $85 spent EVER.

That reminds me of the sexism at my work. Only the male bathroom has a plunger.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

That reminds me of the sexism at my work. Only the male bathroom has a plunger.

Is that sexism ? Men are usually known for being messier, using more toilet paper, and pooping more then females...

... although females often put those Tampon things down the toilet too ?

Is there some study that shows which gender plugs up more toilets?

 

[Lefty]

Oh my God Borgie...

Tell me you did not say/ask that.

Okay...that's your ONE free pass for the quarter

and my inner smart ass hurts.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

... it was kind of a Telstra moment, wasn't it.

 

[xbuzzerx]

You can put this stuff on a stale piece of bread and it would taste good. I call it the rooster sauce. Not really venting or anything but I felt like posting this lol.

Sriracha is so good.

 

[refujiunderground]

FUCK ME!!!!! i'm not really mad right now but i have to vent. i was trying to go for the goal just now with masturbating. i was trying to take myself to the promise land, stroking for about an hour and a half. i took you know what today and I. COULDN'T. GET. OFF. i felt it coming. i felt that orgasm about to kick in BUT I WAS DENIED!!!!! MOTHERFUCKING MEDS!!!! FUCK THESE MEDS. TAKING ME AWAY FROM MY FAVORITE FUCKING PASTTIME. MY HAND AND ME WILL NOT BE SEPERATED. for real, i'm about to join into some guinea pig shit to get me some cash and i'm going to BUY me one of those fleshlight things or one of those special devices to help me get off. i WILL not be denied of my dick. i will get off. when i come back from the gym and walmart, depending on how i feel, i will jerk off again and i WILL get myself to the promise land. all skeeting all over the place, all over myself, the computer and everything. i have the youtube video i was trying to get off to with this guy and his sexy pecs. DAMNIT.. i would think that i might be able to bust a nut from having sex BUT i don't think that would help either.

FUCK ME! FUCK ME!! FUCK ME!! and i do NOT mean it like that either. i don't want to have sex. i just hate myself for having this shit while i have to put myself through this in order to be well again. what the fuck is wrong with me? for real, i hate myself. i feel like a fucking failure BUT i'll stand up and take the asswhipping. i'll survive and i will masturbate where i fucking jizz all over myself. zoloft will NOT stop the jerk off king from wearing his fucking sticky crown. i labeled myself the jerk off king for a reason and i don't care if i catch carpel tunnel syndrome in my right hand, if i have to hump the bed in the dark or the floor, buy me lotion that gets my dick extra hot and horny to help me get off, i WILL masturbate. some people will say damn, you need a life and i agree. i need a life and a job. i need to get cracking with my life BUT regardless, i love masturbation and i will NEVER be stopped from it. THE JERK OFF KING! i don't care if i get a boyfriend. it's not going to stop me from masturbate. i might not masturbate as much if i have sex regularly and can get off to that BUT i'll never stop masturbating. zoloft, doctor issued break or whatever. i don't care if my dick breaks. the doctor will fix it back to where it was and i'll pleasure myself like how i am supposed to.