I stopped taking antidepressants this week. I guess I lasted for around 2 months and 2 weeks. I just felt there were more negative effects than positive ones. I also gained a lot of weight in just 2 months and my body would cramp all the time. I didn't like how lonely I felt when I was alone when I don't really feel lonely without medication. I also didn't like the feeling of not being myself.
I'll still try therapy but I really needed a break from the antidepressants. I guess I probably won't blog anymore. I seemed to want to write all the time when I was on medication. I think that was a positive aspect of the meds. My mind was able to focus more. Now, I'm back to having a bunch of random thoughts in my head which makes it hard to write since I keep thinking of other things while writing.
The day after I stopped taking the antidepressants, a guy from an app I barely use started messaging me a lot. He said he would be visiting the country later in August and really wanted to meet me. We chatted and talked on the phone most of the day. We're supposed to meet when he comes here. I guess if I was still taking medication, I don't know if I would have chatted with him all day and made plans to meet.
I really don't know what's better. I tend to do random things like that normally. It's fun and a distraction at the moment but maybe I do need to focus more on my issues. Maybe I'll try antidepressants again in September. If I don't, this will probably be my last blog and I'll just go back to observing and not really participating.
I'll still try therapy but I really needed a break from the antidepressants. I guess I probably won't blog anymore. I seemed to want to write all the time when I was on medication. I think that was a positive aspect of the meds. My mind was able to focus more. Now, I'm back to having a bunch of random thoughts in my head which makes it hard to write since I keep thinking of other things while writing.
The day after I stopped taking the antidepressants, a guy from an app I barely use started messaging me a lot. He said he would be visiting the country later in August and really wanted to meet me. We chatted and talked on the phone most of the day. We're supposed to meet when he comes here. I guess if I was still taking medication, I don't know if I would have chatted with him all day and made plans to meet.
I really don't know what's better. I tend to do random things like that normally. It's fun and a distraction at the moment but maybe I do need to focus more on my issues. Maybe I'll try antidepressants again in September. If I don't, this will probably be my last blog and I'll just go back to observing and not really participating.