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it's the obvious place to start!
I'm in my early 30s, married, bisexual, and closeted. I've just moved from Australia to the USA, and so I haven't got a job yet. this leaves me with a lot of time on my hands to think, and so I decided to write some blog entries here and clear my head a little.
when did I know I liked guys? oh when I was very young. I remember being a kid and having the neighbour and his friend (who were older than me and teenagers) show their dicks to each other and me... it's one of my earliest memories. I don't think that's the defining reason though, I know this is how I was born. I like girls and I'm attracted to some, but I'm definitely more attracted to guys.
I love my wife but I know for sure that if the world was a different, more tolerant place that I would be in a relationship with a guy. the world's not going to change any time soon, and besides, I made a commitment to my wife and I'm happy to stick by it.
it gets hard to live as a different person than who I really am. my wife is a great and generous and kind woman, but she is homophobic and religious in a way that she would not react well if I expressed who I really am. it's something I knew would happen when I went into the marriage, but it doesn't make it any easier on me.
I've been in a bit of a down period recently. I've gained a little extra weight that I never had before - partly due to the fatty and sugary foods here in the USA, partly because I've had a lot more free time on my hands. I know one of the reasons is because I needed an outlet like JUB to post my thoughts, so they don't just bounce around in my head and send me crazy.
to put it bluntly: I love cocks. I have to say it. from the few experiences I had as a teenager I know I love cocks, love cum, and just the intimacy between myself and another male. I'm afraid that I can't help but look at a lot of gay porn. I need the outlet to be able to watch other guys doing stuff... I hunger for it.
I love solo jack-offs. I love mutual masturbation. I love the odd self-fucking (with their own dicks) vids. I like looking at pics of guys bulges, because I frequently check out other guys crotches and try to figure out how big their dicks are. I love the occasional arse fucking vid. I also get off on watching vids with guys in restrooms, for some reason. I like a lot of different varied stuff.
I also like talking to others in similar situations as me. if you wanna chat, don't hesitate to drop me a line or a comment! I'm looking to chat or message or swap pics with other guys
I'm in my early 30s, married, bisexual, and closeted. I've just moved from Australia to the USA, and so I haven't got a job yet. this leaves me with a lot of time on my hands to think, and so I decided to write some blog entries here and clear my head a little.
when did I know I liked guys? oh when I was very young. I remember being a kid and having the neighbour and his friend (who were older than me and teenagers) show their dicks to each other and me... it's one of my earliest memories. I don't think that's the defining reason though, I know this is how I was born. I like girls and I'm attracted to some, but I'm definitely more attracted to guys.
I love my wife but I know for sure that if the world was a different, more tolerant place that I would be in a relationship with a guy. the world's not going to change any time soon, and besides, I made a commitment to my wife and I'm happy to stick by it.
it gets hard to live as a different person than who I really am. my wife is a great and generous and kind woman, but she is homophobic and religious in a way that she would not react well if I expressed who I really am. it's something I knew would happen when I went into the marriage, but it doesn't make it any easier on me.
I've been in a bit of a down period recently. I've gained a little extra weight that I never had before - partly due to the fatty and sugary foods here in the USA, partly because I've had a lot more free time on my hands. I know one of the reasons is because I needed an outlet like JUB to post my thoughts, so they don't just bounce around in my head and send me crazy.
to put it bluntly: I love cocks. I have to say it. from the few experiences I had as a teenager I know I love cocks, love cum, and just the intimacy between myself and another male. I'm afraid that I can't help but look at a lot of gay porn. I need the outlet to be able to watch other guys doing stuff... I hunger for it.
I love solo jack-offs. I love mutual masturbation. I love the odd self-fucking (with their own dicks) vids. I like looking at pics of guys bulges, because I frequently check out other guys crotches and try to figure out how big their dicks are. I love the occasional arse fucking vid. I also get off on watching vids with guys in restrooms, for some reason. I like a lot of different varied stuff.
I also like talking to others in similar situations as me. if you wanna chat, don't hesitate to drop me a line or a comment! I'm looking to chat or message or swap pics with other guys