Am I possibly Transgendered? (so confused...)

[JayQueer]

Okay, I am honestly confused and I would appreciate your input. This is kind of really embarrassing, so please don't laugh or use this against me.

As you all probably know, I've had my struggles trying to accept myself and be comfortable with being gay.

I know that I'm attracted to men. That is not in question. But I do wonder sometimes if I might be transgendered.

I don't think I fit the criteria for having "gender identity disorder" in that I have never really worn "female" clothing, and I have never worn women's makeup or shaved my legs. I don't recall feeling as a child that I should have been a girl. I think my childhood would have shared a lot of similarities with those of other gay men.

But I do have some "feminine" habits and traits that most gay men don't have. I have a pretty small penis (smaller than average), and I would frequently "spill" when I would stand up to pee, so I almost always sit down when I go pee.

I am still a virgin, but I have absolutely no interest or desire in ever inserting my penis into anybody else -- I only want to be f*cked by another man's cock. I also don't really have much of a desire for another guy to give me a blowjob -- but it turns me on a lot, to give a blowjob to another man.

Lastly, when I do masturbate, I don't usually stroke myself off (like almost all guys do) -- I find that it feels awkward and uncomfortable to tug and pull at my penis. I prefer to hump myself against the bed, or if I am sitting up, I find that I can often cum when I massage, rub, and press down on my groin near my penis.

Again, I know this might sound bizarre, and it's pretty embarrassing for me to share this.

But I would appreciate your thoughts.

 

[Seasoned]

It sounds to me like you are a 100% gay bottom. You have to understand that while I know some transgendered people I know nothing of their inner process or awareness.

Perhaps you may want to Google therapists in your area and start making some phone calls to find someone you could comfortably confide in.

 

[bankside]

Having had some good straight female friends who were open about their sexuality as you have just been, I don't hear a lot of similarities.

Humping the bed is actually a very common way of masturbating and one that's probably less common in women than men.

And women don't identify themselves by not wanting their penis sucked and preferring to suck off a guy (of course!). They identify themselves by wanting a penis in their vaginas, wanting a guy to go down on their vaginas, and generally enjoying that vagina.

 

[justsimon]

You sound like a femme bottom, not a transperson. Regardless, it seems like therapy would be beneficial to you.

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

You know JayQueer, the only one who can answer those questions are you.

Find yourself.

 

[Telstra]

Interesting. Always something new to read and its a good thing.

Maybe you are a transgender.
You are 110% bottom tho.

 

[rareboy]

What are you paying your therapist for, anyway? You said you have one. And that they've already branded your sexual identity dysfunctionality.

This is something you need to discuss with a professional.

 

[Shawn1]

I have a good friend who is a trans man and he finds a lot of support and comfort in the radical faerie camp Destiny up in VT.

http://www.faeriecampdestiny.org/joomla/index.php

Good luck, it will come clear to you in time.

 

[rareboy]

^This place looks like a hoot!!!

I think that we'll have to drop in the next time we are in Vermont!!