Am I Really...Gay?

[MartyyRobs21]

100% Fiction, First story, Sorry if it's too slow I'm still learning.




I've known Nick since the second grade. I kicked his ass at tether ball and then shared the snack I brought that day. We grew up within 5 minutes of each other for 7 years and I watched him grow up from that little kid with too much hair to the hot young man he is now. He's tall, about 5'11" and very pale, with longish black hair with an emo fringe. He has deep brown eyes amazing lips and slightly crooked teeth that only make him more attractive to me. he has a gut, not huge but a little bit rounded. He has hair on his stomach and whenever his shirt is off I go insane. My God his ass. It;s so perfect, round, squeezable, just fucking perfect.

So anyways, we were inseparable for 7 years until his mom decide to move to a new city, still close but we couldn't walk to each others house anymore. I was furious that Sarah could just decide to take away my best friend, no more staying the night on weekdays, no more after school hangouts, we were separated for the fist time in what felt like forever.

I was so excited when I got my license, I could go to Nick whenever I wanted and a month later when he got his he could reciprocate. Every weekend we would do SOMETHING. Go to a concert, see a movie, just walk around talking. I loved him. I didn't know it was so deep but I'll get to that later. He loved me too, we constantly said it, no matter where we were or who we were with. If we didn't have girlfriends, people would say we were gay and that never really bothered me. Nick however always got pissed and we ended up in a fight.

Things remained the same until our senior year. It was the night of my Homecoming and Nick went with my friend Tasha. I went with Maria, another friend and afterward Nick stayed over at my house. We were changing out of the formal gear and I decide to take a shower.

I showered quickly making sure I didn't smell like the cologne I borrowed from my older brother cleaning myself. I'm about 5'10" and mixed, Black, Native and German. I have hazel eyes and pretty much the same hair as Nick. We're pretty similar physically except for our skin tones, Nick being pale and me being a light brown with a red undertone. I got out and gave Nick a chance to shower before we could just hang out. We lounged around, Nick shirtless in black and red athletic shorts and me in a bright green v-neck and dark blue and light blue athletic shorts. We just hung out until about 1 AM when Nick fell asleep.

I turned off the lights and the TV and got in the make shift bed on the floor. Nick sleep talks. A LOT. It's annoying but so adorable, he prays sometimes, he laughs sometimes, always something unique. I guess the movie turned him on cuz he started moaning. I was chuckling until he said my name.

I froze, eyes wide just listening for it again.

"Martin..." my breathing hitched. Could he be dreaming about me like that?

"Yeah buddy, suck it, just like that."

I wasn't breathing anymore, afraid he would wake up and find me hard. I didn't sleep that night, I just lie there thinking about what I just learned.

Is Nick gay? Why the hell didn't he tell me? Why does it matter, I mean, I'm not gay. Am I? Shit I think I am. I've never felt anything for him have I? I mean there was that time on the 8th grade camping trip when we got drunk and jerked each other off but I mean, we were drunk so we had no idea what we were doing right? Fucking hell I really am gay.

The next morning when Nick woke up he jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. I heard the shower running and decided I was clean enough so I just got dressed, a black v-neck under a leather jacket Nick's mom got me the Christmas before, dark wash jeans and my favorite green high top converse. As I was walking out my bedroom door my shoelace untied so I dropped down to tie it. Nick walked in, in his boxers and ran into me knocking me on my ass

"Shit dude sorry, I didn't see you there" Nick was blushing and he wouldn't make eye contact.

"No problem dude, I shouldn't be on my knees so much anyways" we laughed at that but Nick's laugh sounded forced and insincere. "So what are we doing today? Are you leaving tonight or tomorrow morning?" I questioned him.

"Uh, probably tomorrow morning, my mom wants me to watch my niece so..." he trailed off still looking at the floor. I guess he realized he wasn't dressed because his eyes widened and he stared at me for a minute before walking over to his bag and taking out his usual clothing. Skinny jeans, my old DC's and a Bring Me The Horizon tee. Watching him bend over to tie his shoes got me hard. I was still staring when he turned back around.

"Dude? Dude!" my eyes snapped to his face and he was looking at me strangely. I smiled and told him I was gonna get some breakfast and asked if he wanted anything.

"Yeah, I'll go with you." we walked to the kitchen each of us making a bowl of cereal. We didn't do anything that day except hangout and watch movies, him showing me new bands he discovered and me throwing things at him when I really hated a song.

That night Nick got the bed again so I lied on the floor and got comfortable. A half hour later, Nick started moaning again.

"Mmm, yeah lick it bitch, get my big cock ready." FUCK! he's doing it again, and now that I've gotten used to the idea of being gay for Nick, it got me extremely hard.

"Yeah, my little cock slut. make me happy. Fuck I love you tongue baby." I can't do this, I need to touch myself.

I slowly started rubbing myself through my shorts, relieving some tension but not enough. I pulled out my cock, not huge but still pretty big, about 6 inches long and thick.

I didn't hear Nick's breathing change and didn't hear him move until I heard him gasp.

My eyes shot open, my hand stilling on my cock. Nick was staring at me, looking between my shocked face and my engorged prick.

"Martin..."

~To Be Continued~

(If anyone is at all interested of course, I don't wanna take up space for better writers)​

 

[blahster]

man...hot start . can't wait for the next part

 

[MartyyRobs21]

Part 2



Shit! he fucking caught me, what do I do? Don't panic, look him in the eye and explain that you've been really horny since Jackie broke up with you and you thought he was sleeping deeper than that. Why is my dick still cold... FUCK! I'm still holding myself, is my hand moving? NO! Stop that right now! Shit, dude sorry I, no fuck say it out loud. And put it away damn it!

"Hey dude sorry, I've got major blue balls since me and Jackie split up, I thought you were still sleeping and I couldn't help myself." I grinned shyly up at him, my junk securely in my shorts and slowly softening.

"Uh, yeah no problem, I totally understand man. I uh, didn't know you were uh, busy otherwise I wouldn't have um, yeah so uh..." Nick trailed off looking at me with unfocused eyes. I saw his hips rocking slightly and realized he was rutting against my bed, the same bed I sleep in every night he isn't here.

"No dude I shouldn't do that when you're here, sorry but I mean you were making these hot noises and you were saying all this stu-" all the blood left my face when I realized what I just said. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!! Now he knows you want him to ram you in the tailpipe. Way to go dipshit.

Nick's mouth was opening and closing rapidly an he was blushing clearly in the little light that came in from the window. Fuck me, I love that cute little blush, why did I ever make fun of him for it? God I was always such a dick to him, I need to be nicer, make sure he knows that I love him. Damn, I love him. Shit was he talking?

"...and I know you probably hate me for it but I had to let you know how I feel and if you want me to leave now I totally understand, just promise we can be friends one day?"" his eyes were tearing up. No, unacceptable. He is NOT leaving, he is NOT crying, especially because of me, and he damn sure IS going to be happy and soon.

"Nick?" I got on the bed, just sitting by him and opened my arms. He flinched when I first stood up but dove into my arms and sobbed quietly while I held him, stroking his hair and whispering to him.

"Nicky? Can I get in the bed with you, I promise I won't do anything but hold you." I needed to feel him against me, skin on skin. He nodded quickly and lifted the covers for me to snuggle up against his chest. His hairy body was tickling my back and I could barely control the urge to press my ass into his crotch.

"Martin, why are you being so accepting about this? I mean, you're straight aren't you? You've had girlfriends, you've had sex with a girl, what happened?" Nicks questions were understandable but I felt it would be best to talk about us in the morning.

"I could say the same about you Nicky, except umm, I haven't exactly had sex yet..." my cheeks colored at my admission and I thought I heard him sigh against my neck "C'mon, lets sleep now. We can talk tomorrow okay?" I turned slightly to see his face. He smiled at me and nodded, kissing my cheek.

We slept through the night and I woke up feeling Nick's obvious morning wood poking me in the thigh. I rubbed back against it until he woke up and pulled me tight against his chest.

"Mmm, I could get used to that." Nick kissed my neck softly and sat up. I turned to him and sat up as well, grabbing his hand and squeezing his fingers.

"So I think we have some things to discuss before we go any farther than this" I gestured to our joined hands.

Nick nodded and smiled at me. "So uh, are we gay now?"

I couldn't hep but chuckle at his phrasing. "Yeah Nicky, we're gay now. Or at least, I am. But only for you. I don't think I've ever liked any other guy but you." I lowered my face and smiled at our hands. He lifted my chin and looked me straight in the eye. He kissed me softly, slowly and we built momentum from there.

I pulled back and kissed him once more, chastely and sweetly. "So Nicky, how long have you been craving Martin cock?" I questioned him teasingly and was rewarded with that lovely blush. I kissed him again on the cheek and peppered his face with tiny closed mouth kisses.

He pulled back suddenly and I fell forward a little. "Martin, we really need to talk about us, and I can't do that while in nothing boxers." I huffed a little but complied and went to my closet to pull out that days clothes, an electric blue v-neck, my leather jacket, black jeans and hightop black converse. Nick dressed in a tight black shirt, blue jeans that made his ass look delicious, my green converse and one of my hoodies.

I liked seeing him wearing my clothes, we had been sharing since he filled out a bit 4 years ago but now that I knew I really wanted him, I felt like him wearing my clothes marked him in a way.

"Come on, I'm starving, lets go to Shari's, I want some after breakfast pie." Nick grinned at me and I may not may not have moaned, depending on which of us you asked.

We got to Shari's in no time and we soon found ourselves waiting for our food. "So what exactly should we talk about Nicky?" I asked softly, staring him.

He looked confused for a minute before asking "Why do you keep calling me Nicky? You haven't used that name since we were 12 and you met Nikki Jones at the mall."

I blushed, I didn't even realize I was calling him Nicky. I called all my girl friends by some kind of nickname, and he was my boyfriend now right? " Uh, you're my boyfriend now right?" He nodded yes before our waitress came around with our food. "Well every girlfriend I've had has had a nickname, and now you're my boyfriend so I guess I just uh..." I trailed off slightly embarrassed.

I looked up at Nick's grinning face. "I'm honored that I have a nickname Martin" Nick stroked my hand gently and lifted my hand to place a kiss on the only scar on my body, a crescent shape on my wrist where he bit me when we had our first fight.

I shuddered at the contact and we quickly finished our meal, paid and sped back to my house. We slammed through the house, charging up to my room. Nick beat me to it and did a little victory dance on my bed. I grabbed his foot and he landed on his back.

"What the fuck man?" I just smiled and crawled slowly up his body, kissing any sliver of skin exposed to me. I straddled his hips, grinding against his growing erection.

"Fuck yeah baby, can't wait to be inside you. Ahh!" he came with a loud cry seconds before I did. I could feel the moisture of his cum as I rubbed his slowly wilting cock and slid down to lick it. It didn't taste bad, just different and he seemed to like it a lot so i just kept licking until he pulled me up and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"You know Nicky, we can't do this whenever we want. We're extremely lucky my parents are out of town. So on that note I suggest we do this as much as physically possible, and then 2 more times for good measure. Whaddya say?" Nick just grinned and thrust his hips up.

~To Be Continued~​

 

[swmjck]

I like it too. Next part ought to be even hotter.

 

[King08]

Wooohooooo this story is HOT.

 

[blahster]

sweet and hot at the same time...lookin forward to the hot lovemaking in the next part

 

[MartyyRobs21]

Part 3




I feel like I should tell you something. Nick is fucking huge. I mean like HUGE. The Bulge practically ripped his jeans and I was anxious to get him in my mouth. We were both shirtless and still grinding when I slowly started moving down his body, following an invisible path, circling both his nipples, teasing them into peaks, down his belly, kissing him everywhere, tonguing his navel, encouraged by the loud moans escaping his mouth. I move to the edge of his jeans, licking a stripe across his lower abdomen before undoing his pants and kissing down his right leg before peeling off his socks and shoes, licking the bottom of his feet experimentally before kissing up his left leg, temporarily ignoring the tent in his boxers, the large wet spot indicating where the tip of his cock was. I reached up the bottom of his boxers and gently fondled his balls, licking the inside of his thighs.

"Dude fucking suck my cock god damn it! Please man, I'm begging you just please, you never have to do it again, just please this one time."

I paused causing him to groan in protest. "Nicky, I don't have to do anything. I can stop now but I won't because I want to taste you. And don't worry about this being the only time this happens, you know how I am in a relationship, I aims to please" I finished with a devious smirk, finally taking his cock out of his boxers. "Holy shit balls dude! How long have you been hiding that thing!? How have you been hiding that thing? I've seen you in your boxers plenty of times and I don't remember you being that big."

Nick blushed and looked almost... sad? Why is he sad? I fucking said no more sadness didn't I? "Uh, well I just, uh, um, I uh."

"Nicky, I wasn't saying that in a bad way, I was admiring you I promise. I'm not gonna be a total prick to you anymore OK? I'll be a prick sometimes but not as bad as I was before. And trust me, I will never make fun of your body because I love every inch of you, got it?" I need him to believe me, I can't let him be so self conscious when he's with me. He's fucking beautiful and smart and sensitive and it's probably all my fault for constantly making fun of him. At this point I had crawled back up to him and was whispering in his ear everything about him I loved.

"OK enough emotion Martin, are you gonna suck me or what?" Oh you have no idea what I have planned baby. I slid back down and wasted no time in worshiping the huge tool between his legs. I took the huge tip in my mouth swirling my tongue around a couple times before taking another inch into my mouth, slowly but surely getting all 9 inches down my throat, burying my nose in his pubes, inhaling deeply.

"Oh fuck Martin, I fucking love you so much, I swear to God I do. So good, sooo good, don't stop, yeah baby, whoa, too much teeth baby, mmmhmmm, keep going baby. FUCK!" I made sure to listen to him to make sure I was doing it right. I hummed around his cock, deep in my throat. "FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK! Shit, Martin, I'm gonna cum man, I'm cumming, I'm cumming" Nick trailed off into unintelligible sounds.

I could feel his balls tighten in my hands and knew it was coming but I couldn't pull off. I love all of him, pulling off seems like a waste and spitting would seem like a rejection to me. I had no other option, I had to swallow. Shit there's a lot of it. It tastes... different. I think I might like this, not now but maybe it's an acquired taste, and I do plan on acquiring it.

"OH. MY. GOD, Martin, I can't believe you actually swallowed, I mean, no one had ever done that to me before. It must have been awful if girls won't do it, why didn't you pull away when I said-" My lips crashed into his to cut off the annoying but cute rambling.

"Mmmmmmm" I moaned as his tongue invaded my mouth, tasting himself. He pulled away grinning at me. I fucking love him. I wonder what he's thinking about? "Nicky, what are you thinking about?"

He blushed and looked down, looking up at me through his eyelashes. "Thank you Martin, for everything. And uh... I uh, think I kinda liked tasting myself in your mouth." Nick looked back down avoiding eye contact.

I chuckled and kissed him quickly on the lips, squeezing his hand tightly. "Nicky, you don't need to thank me, I love doing things for you. I love you Nicky, you're my best friend, my boyfriend, you're practically my life now. I just wish you lived in your old house. Then we could be even closer,like we were when we were little. I'm gonna miss you Nicky". Tears started forming behind my eyes as I thought about just how far away he was gonna be from me.

He wiped the tear that spilled down my cheek, kissing it away before taking my fave in his hands. "Martin, don't cry, I hate seeing you cry. Please don't cry over me, I'm less than an hour away and we only have 7 months until graduation, then we're off to college, roommates, remember?"

I was about to respond when his cell rang. "Shit, hold on I gotta take this it's my mom." Nick pulled back and answered. The blood left his face, making him seem paler than usual. I could hear squealing, good news maybe? Or was this bad squealing? God, why are women so confusing with their sounds? I'm happy I'm gay.

Nick closed the phone and pulled me tight to him, rocking me back and forth. "Nicky what's the matter, you're scaring me." I couldn't raise my voice above a whisper.

"My Grandma just died Martin. We're moving again." Nick's strangled voice concerned me. So what, Lillian lived closer to me than she did to Nick, were they moving closer and he was in shock, happy?

"I don't get it, are you excited, I mean you're moving closer right?" When he didn't immediately respond I pulled away to look him in the eye. "Right Nicky?"

"Grandma Lil had a few houses. She left my mom the one in Tennessee. Mom wants us to move there in a couple months."

I gasped, my breathing becoming labored and erratic before the world went black as I heard Nicky yell my name.

~To Be Continued~​

 

[harry113]

Oh No!! Just as they admitted their feelings towards each other.
Thanks Marty
More please
Harry

 

[MartyyRobs21]

Thanks for all the support guys, and making me feel welcomed. I'm gonna try to get up the next chapter soon but life conspires against us all sometimes.

 

[DonQuixote]

Martyy,
First off, Welcome to JUB and the story board!

Second, I just found your story and got caught up - you have a nice writing style.
And, your character and plot development is good.

The lead up to the guys getting to where they both wanted to be was agonizing - which is good for a story.

Now, just as they finally get there, news, bad news.

It will be interesting to see how you continue to develop your story.

Thanks for sharing with us.