Let me start by saying I'm on various antibiotics so I'm in a rambling train of thought mood. Bare with me.
I've been sick for about two weeks now and can't seem to knock this sinus infection. The antibiotics end Wednesday and I'm already seriously considering calling for another appointment to request the strongest pills I can get... I don't care how badly they knock me on my ass.
Anyway, Friday I started thinking and realized it was an anniversary of sorts for me. January 20, 1986 was a turning point in my life. I had decided to end my life that day, cause the thought of being gay was so scary/depressing/etc for a 16 year old loner teen going to a private school. I spent much of the day avoiding everyone and everything... made excuses to cut class, etc. which really wasn't like me -I'd do my thing and forget about everyone else.
Luckily I did have one friend that caught on that something was bugging me. She managed to get me to talk. I'm not sure how many classes we cut, but no one seemed to care that we were sitting on the middle of the stage most of the afternoon. We both opened up about a number of things. I finally admitted to someone that I was gay and it didn't freak either of us out (okay, maybe I was some). Lisa and I continued talking well after school was over. She made me promise several things, which I did over the weekend.
I thank God that Lisa was there for me during my time of pain and loneliness. She kept me from doing something stupid and helped me to see I was a decent person that had things to offer others. It's because of her that I'm here today and that I'm in a field where I can hopefully reach others, or that my example may aid/inspire others.
Thank you Lisa. Wherever you are, you were and continue to be a guardian angel watching over me.
mikey
I've been sick for about two weeks now and can't seem to knock this sinus infection. The antibiotics end Wednesday and I'm already seriously considering calling for another appointment to request the strongest pills I can get... I don't care how badly they knock me on my ass.
Anyway, Friday I started thinking and realized it was an anniversary of sorts for me. January 20, 1986 was a turning point in my life. I had decided to end my life that day, cause the thought of being gay was so scary/depressing/etc for a 16 year old loner teen going to a private school. I spent much of the day avoiding everyone and everything... made excuses to cut class, etc. which really wasn't like me -I'd do my thing and forget about everyone else.
Luckily I did have one friend that caught on that something was bugging me. She managed to get me to talk. I'm not sure how many classes we cut, but no one seemed to care that we were sitting on the middle of the stage most of the afternoon. We both opened up about a number of things. I finally admitted to someone that I was gay and it didn't freak either of us out (okay, maybe I was some). Lisa and I continued talking well after school was over. She made me promise several things, which I did over the weekend.
I thank God that Lisa was there for me during my time of pain and loneliness. She kept me from doing something stupid and helped me to see I was a decent person that had things to offer others. It's because of her that I'm here today and that I'm in a field where I can hopefully reach others, or that my example may aid/inspire others.
Thank you Lisa. Wherever you are, you were and continue to be a guardian angel watching over me.
mikey