Mirage
The JUB Illusion
It's been a while that I've put a blog here on JUB. After my breakup I got a bit too busy with school and other activities. It made me feel bad towards all people I know here on JUB and who have become online buddies.
The time between my breakup and the moment that I'm writing this blog has been a difficult period for me. When I wasn't busy for school or the students association, I was doing things for my family or friends. The last category has a new member in it; my ex-boyfriend.
During this period I've had long conversations with him, so I could hopefully forget my love towards him. Instead it grew stronger each time. It even made me crazy when I didn't talked with him over a month. We both have big problem on this and sometimes we both wished we just could hate each other a lot. This would make it a lot easier for both of us. However this proves that we can't continue our lives seperated and give love a second chance with someone else.
I've made a deal with myself that I don't go into a new relationship this year (which I've wrote in my last blog) and I think this may take a lot longer. As long as I still love him the way I do now, I can't go on with my life. This wouldn't be fair for the other and for me.
Until the day comes that we both can continue our lives, we both are forced to live together seperated or he has the guts to come out of his shell and show the world our love. Something I still dream about when I think of him.
The time between my breakup and the moment that I'm writing this blog has been a difficult period for me. When I wasn't busy for school or the students association, I was doing things for my family or friends. The last category has a new member in it; my ex-boyfriend.
During this period I've had long conversations with him, so I could hopefully forget my love towards him. Instead it grew stronger each time. It even made me crazy when I didn't talked with him over a month. We both have big problem on this and sometimes we both wished we just could hate each other a lot. This would make it a lot easier for both of us. However this proves that we can't continue our lives seperated and give love a second chance with someone else.
I've made a deal with myself that I don't go into a new relationship this year (which I've wrote in my last blog) and I think this may take a lot longer. As long as I still love him the way I do now, I can't go on with my life. This wouldn't be fair for the other and for me.
Until the day comes that we both can continue our lives, we both are forced to live together seperated or he has the guts to come out of his shell and show the world our love. Something I still dream about when I think of him.