So I have this friend named K that moved to Oklahoma 3 years ago, I live in Alabama and as did he at one point in time, i've known him for 4 years and he's the closest person i've ever had in my life besides my mom.
He knows im gay, and I told him I liked him 3 years ago when we were 16, when I told him this he reacted positively, he said that he was cool with it and that he didn't want it to make things awkward and that people couldn't help who they liked or fell in love with. He's just a genuinely cool person like that.
Strangely we got even closer after that, about 2 weeks after telling him that i liked him, he wanted to come down and stay with me for awhile to visit, so he stayed for about 2 weeks and left the day before christmas in 2006. During his visit he would be really flirty with me, come up behind me and put his arms around me, tell me he loved me and so on and so on. His body language was telling me that he loved me, but he wasn't telling me that himself, I flirted back but it never went to any level above flirting around.
After he left after that visit he met a girl named L that I really don't like, not because i'm jealous because i'm not a jealous person at all, but because she treats him like crap, she just testified against him in court and sent him to jail for 25 days over a fight he got into because of her 2 years ago. And they are still together, He says he doesn't know if he wants to be with her though, that he's still trying to figure things out.
Well that's the background, fast forward to now. 3 years later. he still comes down and stays with me for a couple of weeks every 6-8 months, I just got back from Oklahoma last week, it was my first time going up there to visit him, we both are now twenty and we act just the same as we did 4 years ago, he still has the same flirty behavior and I want so bad for things to go somewhere but I don't know if they will. He is still with L to, though he acts like he doesn't want to be but at the same time acts like he does want to be.
But i'm stuck, he wants me to move up there soon, he's getting his own place and said he would have me a job and everything whenever I wanted to come. I said I would at the time (only because i'm still in love with him) I just had to save up some money first and talk it out with the parents, well I did and it looks like i'm set to move up there within the next 5-6 months.
But I don't know if it would be the best thing for me, i'm already stuck on him enough and have spent the last 4 years with him in my dreams and would do anything to be with him because he's the sweetest person i've ever met. But as far as I know he's straight and he will remain that way untill I hear something otherwise coming from his mouth.
I just don't want to throw the rest of my life away by moving out to the middle of nowhere in Oklahoma when all I might get is hearbreak. It's really hard to say no though, it's like a dream come true, living out in the plains with the man of my dreams, but this could be emotionally devastating for me. Please give me some advice. I just really don't know what to do.
If anyone needs anymore details I will elaborate.
He knows im gay, and I told him I liked him 3 years ago when we were 16, when I told him this he reacted positively, he said that he was cool with it and that he didn't want it to make things awkward and that people couldn't help who they liked or fell in love with. He's just a genuinely cool person like that.
Strangely we got even closer after that, about 2 weeks after telling him that i liked him, he wanted to come down and stay with me for awhile to visit, so he stayed for about 2 weeks and left the day before christmas in 2006. During his visit he would be really flirty with me, come up behind me and put his arms around me, tell me he loved me and so on and so on. His body language was telling me that he loved me, but he wasn't telling me that himself, I flirted back but it never went to any level above flirting around.
After he left after that visit he met a girl named L that I really don't like, not because i'm jealous because i'm not a jealous person at all, but because she treats him like crap, she just testified against him in court and sent him to jail for 25 days over a fight he got into because of her 2 years ago. And they are still together, He says he doesn't know if he wants to be with her though, that he's still trying to figure things out.
Well that's the background, fast forward to now. 3 years later. he still comes down and stays with me for a couple of weeks every 6-8 months, I just got back from Oklahoma last week, it was my first time going up there to visit him, we both are now twenty and we act just the same as we did 4 years ago, he still has the same flirty behavior and I want so bad for things to go somewhere but I don't know if they will. He is still with L to, though he acts like he doesn't want to be but at the same time acts like he does want to be.
But i'm stuck, he wants me to move up there soon, he's getting his own place and said he would have me a job and everything whenever I wanted to come. I said I would at the time (only because i'm still in love with him) I just had to save up some money first and talk it out with the parents, well I did and it looks like i'm set to move up there within the next 5-6 months.
But I don't know if it would be the best thing for me, i'm already stuck on him enough and have spent the last 4 years with him in my dreams and would do anything to be with him because he's the sweetest person i've ever met. But as far as I know he's straight and he will remain that way untill I hear something otherwise coming from his mouth.
I just don't want to throw the rest of my life away by moving out to the middle of nowhere in Oklahoma when all I might get is hearbreak. It's really hard to say no though, it's like a dream come true, living out in the plains with the man of my dreams, but this could be emotionally devastating for me. Please give me some advice. I just really don't know what to do.
If anyone needs anymore details I will elaborate.
