Honestly for the longest while I have been wondering whether or not I should post here. But after seeing some of the other posts on the same subject and some of the good advice given, I just hope the same can be done for me.
Well, me and my best friend have known each other since grade 12, that would be around four years in total. When I first met him I just thought he was a really cool guy. I guess he thought the same thing because he started calling me often and we began to hang all the time. Before I knew it, we were pretty much best friends. Like sleepovers were very common. He used to get me to just massage his shoulders and such which I was very happy to do. I mean I was somewhat attracted to him but I thought that nothing would happen because he was fully straight. Then all of a sudden we stopped talking. For no particular reason. This went on for a good year. And then eventually we sort of found our way back to each other. This was about the time that I realized that I loved him. He is a very shy guy and doesn’t open up to anyone. Except me. Ever since that first one year hiatus we were very off an on. Like getting mad at each other and blocking the other off msn but somehow we knew we would always end up talking to each other again. Whenever we were fighting all of our friends would be like “oh you know you too will be talking very soon.” Many times I’ve heard that we fight like an old married couple. And people used to joke that we were boyfriends and I think that scared him and that’s why he kept running from me. Every time we stopped talking he was the one who ran first with no explanation and would always apologize for running but never with an explanation about why he did.
Well when we are best friends, you cant find any two people that are tighter. We would tell each other that we are the best friends we ever had. And in times of trouble we always tell each other that we have been through so much and we can get through anything. He has only had one girlfriend in his life and that really didn’t go to well for him. I know that he hasn’t seen a girl naked or any private part for a matter of fact. Kissing has been his limit. The thing is he is a really attractive guy that can get any girl he wants but for some reason he hasn’t had a lot of success. I can name 10 girls off the top of my head that think he is achingly sexy. Well we know each other better than we know ourselves. Even in times when we didn’t talk we have had such a connection.
A while ago I was on his computer and I noticed there was some gay porn on it. I felt something in the pit of my stomach but I always suspected that he was. This just confirmed it for me. He saw the same stuff on my computer one day and I know for a fact he saw it. I seriously felt my life crashed once he saw it. but he never said anything and just played it off. I was distant the whole day and he kept asking what was bothering me. Eventually his attitude made me cheer up.
I love him so much honestly I will do anything for him. And I just had to know. So one day I confronted him about what I saw on his computer and he wasn’t shy about it. at least when talking to me. He said that he considers himself straight but has had thoughts. I am bi myself which I told him and he said that that was cool. He said “both of us being honest just strengthened our relationship.” He asked if I would treat him different I told him of course not. Later in the conversation he admitted that later on he would probably want to start doing things with men. He told me “who knows, I’m keeping my mind open” he even asked me where which gay porn sites I go to and I gave him my password which I really never thought I would do.
Ever since then our relationship has been much stronger. I really love him and I really don’t know what to do next. Thanks for reading…im looking forward to the responses.
Well, me and my best friend have known each other since grade 12, that would be around four years in total. When I first met him I just thought he was a really cool guy. I guess he thought the same thing because he started calling me often and we began to hang all the time. Before I knew it, we were pretty much best friends. Like sleepovers were very common. He used to get me to just massage his shoulders and such which I was very happy to do. I mean I was somewhat attracted to him but I thought that nothing would happen because he was fully straight. Then all of a sudden we stopped talking. For no particular reason. This went on for a good year. And then eventually we sort of found our way back to each other. This was about the time that I realized that I loved him. He is a very shy guy and doesn’t open up to anyone. Except me. Ever since that first one year hiatus we were very off an on. Like getting mad at each other and blocking the other off msn but somehow we knew we would always end up talking to each other again. Whenever we were fighting all of our friends would be like “oh you know you too will be talking very soon.” Many times I’ve heard that we fight like an old married couple. And people used to joke that we were boyfriends and I think that scared him and that’s why he kept running from me. Every time we stopped talking he was the one who ran first with no explanation and would always apologize for running but never with an explanation about why he did.
Well when we are best friends, you cant find any two people that are tighter. We would tell each other that we are the best friends we ever had. And in times of trouble we always tell each other that we have been through so much and we can get through anything. He has only had one girlfriend in his life and that really didn’t go to well for him. I know that he hasn’t seen a girl naked or any private part for a matter of fact. Kissing has been his limit. The thing is he is a really attractive guy that can get any girl he wants but for some reason he hasn’t had a lot of success. I can name 10 girls off the top of my head that think he is achingly sexy. Well we know each other better than we know ourselves. Even in times when we didn’t talk we have had such a connection.
A while ago I was on his computer and I noticed there was some gay porn on it. I felt something in the pit of my stomach but I always suspected that he was. This just confirmed it for me. He saw the same stuff on my computer one day and I know for a fact he saw it. I seriously felt my life crashed once he saw it. but he never said anything and just played it off. I was distant the whole day and he kept asking what was bothering me. Eventually his attitude made me cheer up.
I love him so much honestly I will do anything for him. And I just had to know. So one day I confronted him about what I saw on his computer and he wasn’t shy about it. at least when talking to me. He said that he considers himself straight but has had thoughts. I am bi myself which I told him and he said that that was cool. He said “both of us being honest just strengthened our relationship.” He asked if I would treat him different I told him of course not. Later in the conversation he admitted that later on he would probably want to start doing things with men. He told me “who knows, I’m keeping my mind open” he even asked me where which gay porn sites I go to and I gave him my password which I really never thought I would do.
Ever since then our relationship has been much stronger. I really love him and I really don’t know what to do next. Thanks for reading…im looking forward to the responses.
