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So I went to the bookstore today to study. I finished up some of my reading and decided I should head home. I usually check out some of the magazines before heading out (my version of current events). So I browse and peruse the usual: Newsweek, Times, etc. Previously, I found an Out Magazine in the current events and I ended up reading it.
So this time I went to the Men's Interest section and conveniently all the gay-related magazines were at the bottom. I noticed a guy standing in front of the section and was really in deep concentration on an article so I didn't really make the gesture of grabbing a magazine since I did not want to bother him. Naturally, I check him out and realize he is hot as hell. I felt a little self-conscious since I was bummin' it in a college hat, t-shirt, basketball shorts, and some tennis shoes with some black tube socks.
So I'm checkin the dude out pretending to flip through a magazine. (I think I ended up flipping through Details). Curious, I look over his shoulder and see what he is reading. I see the big quotes about HIV and something about gay men. So I start thinking to myself "Dude he's totally flipping through a gay magazine". I then start getting excited, but I'm not too overly excited as I am still not "out" to the world.
Then someone walks around the corner and stands next to him and he flips the page and a gay-oriented ad comes up (ex. two guys in their undies holding each other and advertising I think underwear). So he gets sort of embarrassed and sits on the bench a few feet away. I then confirm the fact that he is reading a gay magazine. So I try my luck and I put Details away and bend down to the "gay" section of the magazine rack and pick up Out magazine. Hoping that he notices that I pick up a gay mag too. I don't see him do anything cause he is still absorbed in the mag. Then a guy next to him leaves the bench and I think yes what a great opportunity to sit next to him and hopefully he gets the hint.
So I casually stroll to the bench and sit next to him. I think he got uncomfortable and he gets up and stands back in front of the mens interest section. DAMMIT! I'm stuck cause then I'm thinking maybe I'm reading him wrong, maybe he's embarrassed or in the closet too, or even worse he really is not interested in me or obviously thinks i'm not attractive. So I pretend to flip through the magazine too and he ends up leaving.
I'm frustrated so I go upstairs (Cause I know he didn't leave yet) hoping to find him. Low and behold he's in the sexuality and Love/sex section. By then I'm dying to find out what he's reading. So I walk by the stacks but pass his section cause i'm sweatin' bullets. I pretend to look through the politics section and biographies etc etc. I then position myself to where I'm in the next stack over and look at a Maya Angelou biography. Then some flamboyant guys come up next to him and I think he gets embarrassed again and goes downstairs. But he flashes me a look before he leaves, but he turned his head too quickly for me to smile or wink. AY YI YII!
So the stalker that I am, I go downstairs and end up buying that damn Maya Angelou book cause I felt like a punk picking it up and putting it back down (plus she has some damn good inspirational quotes). But curiously I wonder if he is back in the magazines. So before I leave I go back to the magazines and low and behold he's back there readin' another gay magazine. Now I have one of two choices I go and grab a magazine next to him and risk looking like a big stalker or stand back and hope he notices me and still look like a stalker. By now I can't get over how masculine and cute he looks and how much he is my type (well if I really knew what my type is).
So I choose the former and I end up just looking at some lame magazine about the best high schools in LA (actually it was a pretty interesting article, but I was more interested in something else). So I start reading the article cause he obviously isn't looking around or at me. I look up and he's gone, but I see him leaving and he walks by me on the other side of the storefront where my back is facing. I know he looks at me, but i'm too much of a pussy to turn around.
Defeated I head to my car, but I hear the rumble of a old Chevy Blazer and I turn to take a quick glance and it's him driving past me, but again I freak and don't do anything. I end up passing by him on the road (well I did speed a little to get side by side him) but I didn't really do anything. Sigh. So I have this huge crush on what I'm gonna call the "bookstore guy" and the circumstances just sucked.
Ah well, just needed to get that off my chest but i'm totally having this sort of moment:
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Would it be weird if I went back the same time next week hoping he's back? Or am I just pushing my luck and/or being very stalker like?









