THIS is all you need to know. He was sexually attracted to you. You two got together sexually, and didn't click. Sometimes people are incredibly attracted to each other sexually, then have sex and realize they're not sexually compatible. Once it became common for straight couples to live with each other and have sex before marriage, divorce rates dropped. That's why it's a good thing to have sex before marriage. It doesn't mean that this guy was using you or some creep. No one pursues someone for years to give them one blow job. He probably was very interested in being more than a one night stand, but it didn't work out. That doesn't mean he couldn't turn out to be a very good friend. His interest in you, it seems to me, was more than sexual.
Exactly! This is why I am so hesitant about ending the friendship. I don't think Charles deliberately went out of his way to hurt me, I don't think he even realized what he doing. I don't think that he is a bad guy, I really don't. I don't know what happened. Maybe he feels awkward because of all the things he used to say to me? I'm not sure. I have been trying to stay patient. I don't want to lose my temper, tell him off and embarrass myself or do or say something I'll regret. I might just be over-thinking things and creating a problem that doesn't even exist.
Maybe we just need some space
I don't know what to make of all this. It's very confusing. I guess I could have feelings for him but I don't desire to get into a relationship with him. I guess I just miss all the attention he used to give me. It was nice having someone pay lots of attention to me and I did like when he flirted with me. But now I'm starting to wonder if this is all about me instead. I guess deep down inside, I'm insecure and crave attention? I'm not sure.
I am not originally from this area that Charles and I live in. He is one of the few friends that I have here. I remember on the first day of work, Charles had added me as a friend on Facebook and was one of the first people to try and get to know me. I think that's why I haven't cut him off.









