Caught in the act

[19only]

I want to take some advices from you, specially from one who was im the same situation like mine.

I'm an Asia boy, now 25 years old and living and studying in Germany. I've been here for 3 years. Until last month I'm still a virgin.

I hadn't had a real relationship before, with both girls and guys. I think I'm gay, because when I masturbated, the images I had is always about guys, but on the other hand, I don't want to accept the truth that I'm homosexual.
I'm totally alone in here. Friends are all around but when I come back home, the loneliness was killing me.

And one day I took a look at gayromeo.de ( it's very boring for me at that time). I didn't really look for something, cause I don't believe in love in Internet, moreover what I read were all about murders and serial killers..., so I think all what I do there is finding someone to chat with, or he can simply listen to me and makes no comments.

And I met a man. He is 40 years old and seems to be honest. We chat, than I allowed him to see me through web cam. He looks not bad, but bold and a little conservative.
The day after we did it again. He introduced him self, about his life, family ( he is single and 's living with mom), work, hobbies...I did it either.

That weekend we had a date. We made a trip to the suburban and that's very nice.

 

[G-Lexington]

That's an odd story. Is there more?

>>>I didn't really look for something, cause I don't believe in love in Internet,

I met a guy online while playing video games. We started sending messages, then e-mails, then phone calls. He visited me, I visited him, we've been together almost ten years. It CAN happen.

What kind of advice are you looking for?

Lex

 

[luminum]

He's probably just stating that the irony of it is that he doesn't believe in love ont he internet, but found someone interesting via the internet anyway.

Just enjoy it and see where it goes

 

[19only]

He is not a talkative man. I'm a little disappointed. I said that I want to go home. He suggested that If I want to visit him. I talked to my self that this might be to fast to do something like this, but at last I said "yes ".

His home is old, but very clean and snug ( gemütlich ?). His mom was a warm hearted woman. I felt like to be home. We had dinner together and watched TV.

It's about 11'00 pm and he told me I should stay there ( It's about 20 km far from my accommodation ) until the day after. I asked him if his mom felt uncomfortable about that, and she said it's OK.

We didn't have sex that night ( I mean f**king), but this was the first time I kissed. it's very wonderful, then I gave him a bl**job and we jerked off together.

The next day's morning he drove me home. During this weak we've been keeping contact per chat, messages or per gayromeo.

 

[19only]

Everybody has to start somewhere. Where do you want it to go from here? What do you want in the future, to stay in Europe or to return home? Do you think he should have given you a blowjob in return? He sounds like he is holding all of the cards and the car keys and you are under his control. He didnt even buy you a meal in a restaurant. His mom is probably desperate to have him have someone in his life even if it is a man.
Search some more for variety before you decide on anything so limiting.

It's exactly what I'm wondering now. I wrote a long reply last night but lost it before I submit. Today is a busy day so I will come back later.

 

[rareboy]

Give me a fucking break. 13 or 15 years older is enough to question his intentions.????

Puleeeeze. At least old guy seems to be honest, which is more than I can get from 19 only who is 25 or 27.

 

[19only]

Give me a fucking break. 13 or 15 years older is enough to question his intentions.????

Puleeeeze. At least old guy seems to be honest, which is more than I can get from 19 only who is 25 or 27.

I always took my birthday is "01.01.1980" so I can remember it much easier . I'm 25 years old.

So come back to my story


The next time we met was about 2 weeks ago. He brought me to his home after my class . He led me visit his garden, the river near the house...

That night I had sex the first time. It's hurt, but he acted very gently and it was not a bad experience .

Last weekend we did it again. On Friday evening, when I was at home, he came to me unexpectedly ( because he had something to do with his work near my doom ) and asked If i want to be with him. Cause I have to share my room with my roommate so we can not do something right there. We arrived his home at about 11.00 pm. His mom went to bed already, we took shower and than go to sleep.

In the morning I became a hard on. He liked it very much and he gave me a bl**job. When we were pleasuring each other, his mom came in out of the blue. He forgot to lock the door.

I'm totally frozen. She went out immediately and he then followed her. I can not hear them so clearly but I'm sure they had to quarrel to much. And I heard she said " I'm not such a out- of- date people", then I heard my friend " Yes, that's the way it is, that's my life..."

I put my clothes on and want to back home immediately . I'm not mad at her cause I can understand what she was thinking. She is already 70 years old I can not event image that her son is gay. But I can not see her, i thought I 'd hurt her so much. More over I think I'm so "cheap" when I'm over night with her son but she didn't know about it, and what we'd done is not right at all.

The my friend came back. He was so confused at that time. He said that I shouldn't go home or do something stupid, and that she is Ok with that. But I can't help bursting out crying. I'm so ashamed .

Then I heard she going out for a visit ( she had planned before ), I decided to stay until I can calm down. My friend than went out to buy some breads and we had breakfast together .

 

[19only]

That day's evening she came back and we didn't talk about what happened. But I think she doesn't treat me as well as before. She was very polite but not friendly and the mood between us was so frosty.

I don't know what I should do yet ?
I want to explain to her, but don't even know "what" to explain ?







Thanks for reading. What I wrote down here is my true thing, so when you don't believe in it, you don't have to comment.




( sorry for my bad English. I learned it along time ago and didn't use it since 4 years )

 

[jspk]

40 living w/ his mom. also sounds like mama's boys.
sorry but i've known people w/ husbands like this. they are not nice to their wives. i see no difference guy-guy relationship.

but i could be wrong since i'm not german.