Silvernitrate
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So I am about to rack up a HUGE student loan.. an, "up to cost of tuition" loan! I am so nervous about that, but hey, with the job i am hoping to get i can pay it all off in no time... i hope! I am just so nervous because with this new path that im choosing, I have to go in strong or not go at all, because I'll either be BROKE or extremely wealthy. I feel like I am gambling with my life here. I am so nervous to move to LA and everytime my mom or anyone else of my family asks me why I am so nervous, its because they dont know exactly what I am doing.. no one does. I am keeping my plans, and my schooling.. EVERYTHING a secret from all my family and friends, its weird!
Anyways, I am really going to miss engineering, but i dont see my self enjoying my self to the full potential later on in life. Later after i get a perminant job, I MIGHt go back to college just to satisfy my curiosity and take math and science courses. However, if things go well with my other job, i will not have time!
I just wish i wasnt so interested in so many things! That kills me! I started out in music in high school, then focused more on math and science. I then started college fulltime as a music major and then switched back to engineering and then now I am back to music!
I've been dealing with this problem since i was a little kid and I should go by what one really famous composer/director told me, "You dont choose music, music chooses you"
Anyways, I am really going to miss engineering, but i dont see my self enjoying my self to the full potential later on in life. Later after i get a perminant job, I MIGHt go back to college just to satisfy my curiosity and take math and science courses. However, if things go well with my other job, i will not have time!
I just wish i wasnt so interested in so many things! That kills me! I started out in music in high school, then focused more on math and science. I then started college fulltime as a music major and then switched back to engineering and then now I am back to music!
I've been dealing with this problem since i was a little kid and I should go by what one really famous composer/director told me, "You dont choose music, music chooses you"