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Creation: The Conclusion of the Lake Cycle

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In the conclusion of the Lake Cycle, two years have passed since the death of Donovan’s mother and the time of the Plague. Don, writing more than ever, but more than ever in search of gainful employment and re entry into the real world, wonders what’s next, as does is goddaughter, May, who’s fled her house and come to live at 812 Pine Street. Donovan Shorter, Cade Richards and Simon Barrow are getting married, and the simplest process in the world, when turned into a union of three, necessitates reinvention and calls into question commonly held thoughts. Living together, Javon and Pat Thomas’s love deepens the present as they look into their pasts, and in Ely, Cade confronts the recent death of his father as well as a choice he made long ago. Simon is entangled in politics when he joins the campaign to put his friend and mentor Brendan Miller in City Hall as the first openly bare-chested and shade wearing mayor of Rossford, Indiana.







In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.
And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness
was upon the face of the deep.
And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters...


Genesis 1. 1,2










CREATION





BOOK
ONE

Vows











O N E

As I
Am Known




For now we see through a glass, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; but then shall I know, even as also I am known.


- 1 Corinthians 13.1






Headlights making two long antennae of light into the flurrying snow, the car rolled on through the night. Donovan Shorter was glad that Simon had been able to join them because he didn’t want Cade driving alone, and driving with Donovan was driving alone. It seemed like it was always winter, and Donovan didn’t really mind it. They had been spoiled by being down in Savannah, spoiled rotten, spoiled like fabric in two much heat and moisture, and now they were back in the Midwest, and back in time for the storm. January was the longest month.

In the back of the car, Donovan was asleep with the goddaughter. She was white like everyone else in the car. At least his cousin Frey had managed to have a nephew who looked somewhat like him. The offspring granted to Donovan was May a little white girl descended from disreputable parents whom he had adopted. She was finally eighteen and out of that crazy house, more than half asleep.

“I’m sorry for bringing us into this snow guys,” Cade said, his voice sounding tinny and distant.

“Yeah,” May snorted, “cause you had something to do with it.”

“We could have stayed in Savannah forever,” Cade said.

“I don’t think I wanted to stay in Savannah forever,” May said. “Aside from the fact that it was too hot, too moist, and built by slaves, those people weren’t real.”

“People at conferences never are,” Donovan said.

“Conferences make the academic world go around,” Cade said.

Cade Richard’s hair was shorter than usual. It was short like it had been when he and Donovan first met, just a little longish, to his collar. It seemed to Don that the longer they were together, the hairier Cade had gotten, and then he’d started graduate school, and cut off his strength with a Delilah of a razor, aiming to be Dr. Cade, aiming to be respectable. Don had resented it at the same time he understood it completely.

Simon leaned forward and plugged his phone into the car speaker.

Suddenly, in the dark, traveling through the snow that had waylaid them somewhere around Lafayette, the darkness was pierced by a coronet voice singing an English ballad:



A north country maid up to London has strayed
All though with her nature it did not agree
And she's wept and she's sighed
And she's wrung her hands and cried,
Oh I wish once again in the north I could be.

For the oak and the ash,
And the bonny ivy tree
All flourish and bloom
In my north country.




The song died down as the reporter declared:

“With earthy and arresting harmonies, the Watersons from Hull –originally Norma Waterson and her siblings, Lal and Mike Waterson and their cousin John — revived old English folk songs beginning in the 1960s. "The Good Old Way," "Hal-An-Tow," "Here We Come A-Wassailing" among them...”



Oh, no,” Donovan murmured as May sat up.



The reporter continued. “Norma Waterson died Sunday at age 82. Her sister Lal died in 1998. Her brother Michael died in 2011...”

“Oh, shit,” Cade said.

Neither Simon nor May knew what this meant, but they knew that Cade and Donovan, who had not necessarily been getting on of late, who shared things that no one else understood, were both stricken.



“Norma Waterson was married to the renowned singer and musician Martin Carthy, who also performed with The Watersons, as well as Steeleye Span.

Waterson's daughter, singer and fiddler Eliza Carthy, announced her mother's death on her Facebook page: "Hello all. Not much to say about such monumental sadness, but mam passed away yesterday afternoon, January 30th 2022."



Not looking at the road, Cade pulled the phone out of the speaker, and they kept driving in silence. The car felt heavy, heavier than you’d think for hearing that someone famous who none of them knew had died, and May knew and Donovan knew that when such a thing happened it was because the apparent sadness came from a deeper sorrow as yet unexpressed.

“Poor Eliza,” Donovan said. “Mothers keep dying. Parents keep dying.”

That was a given. Donovan added, “All the wrong ones.”

He observed Cade’s face in the rearview mirror, and he observed Simon observing it. Saw that Cade’s expression was harder than usual, the look of someone who was trying not to cry.

Suddenly May said, “And my bitch of a mother just keeps on living.”

Cade burst out laughing, and they all did, and they laughed for a long time and then suddenly Cade, wiping the back of his hand across his eyes, lifted his voice and sang:



“I like to rise when the sun she rises
Early in the morning
And I like to hear them small birds singing
Merrily upon their laylums
And hurrah for the life of a country boy
And to ramble in the new mowed hay.”




Donovan had already begun singing, and now he leaned forward against Cade’s seat, and Cade reached back and touched his hand so that his curls were touching Donovan’s lips, and Don could smell the last of the cologne and the Black and Mild he had smoked at the gas station outside of Indianapolis.



“In spring we sow at the harvest mow
And that is how the seasons round they go
But of all the times if choose I may
I'd be rambling through the new

mowed hay.”






“I don’t want to drive anymore,” Cade said an hour later.

“Does that mean you want me to take over, or does that mean you don’t want to go any further.”

They were supposed to go up to Ely, but Donovan had already expressed doubt over this and May had said, “Well that’s almost an hour longer in the car. Maybe more.”

Earlier, when Cade had almost been in good spirits, he had shrugged and said, “Look, on the map it means we have to travel one more centimeter.”

He’d grinned cheesy at Don, which Don usually liked, and which was very different from the way Cade had been feeling most of the time lately, and Don only shook his head.

Now, in the night, Cade said, “Don, please don’t say I told you so.”

“Not now,” Donovan said. “I save my told you soes for better shit than this.”

“I’ll drive us to Ely,” Simon offered.

Cade gave a not entirely exaggerated yawn.

“No,” he said. “Let’s go home. Home home. And we’ll leave for Ely in the morning.”

On the other side of the window, Donovan heard a heavy howling through the blowing snow and he wondered, “Will we?”



“I was about to say there’s something homey about coming home,” May said, “but that just sounds stupid.”

“Redundant,” Simon suggested, “but not stupid.”

“There’s always this point,” Donovan said, “when we’re coming down the road, the highway or whatever, and then all of a sudden things start looking familiar, you know, because most of the main streets are also highway routes, and then all of a sudden you’re like, oh, this in Lincoln Street. Oh, we’re on Washington. Oh, we’re almost home.”

They had just passed the Citgo gas station on the corner of Western and Mayflower, and Kroger stood in the distance. Now they were passing the Mexican car wash, and then a few moments later, the broad black expanse that was the campus of Harrison School where he and Cade had worked together for a time.

“Don,” Cade said without looking back, “you hungry?”

Don looked at May.

“McDonalds?”

“I’d rather have Popeyes.”

“I’d rather have lobster and steak, but McDonalds is what’s open now.”

“There’s still that quiche you made in the freezer, right?”

“That and the chicken.”

“I’ll just have that,” May decided.

“So May will eat whatever, but I do want McDonalds, baby.”

“Let’s stop at Taco Bell too,” Simon said.

“Really?” Don and Cade both said. They were used to Simon having a more refined pallet.

Simon shrugged.

“It’s what’s open.”







As they walked into the house, Don declared, “I am so fucking tired of my own cooking.”
 
That was a great portion and it is nice to get back to this story. I enjoy all your stories but I have missed Cade and Donovan. I look forward to seeing what happens. Wonderful writing and I hope you have a great weekend!
 
That was a great portion and it is nice to get back to this story. I enjoy all your stories but I have missed Cade and Donovan. I look forward to seeing what happens. Wonderful writing and I hope you have a great weekend!
They're glad to be missed, and I'm glad you missed them. I do wonder sometimes if people get tired of certain stories and am always glad when I'm not the only person who''s happy to get back to them.
 
If I want to go back and start at the beginning of the Lake Cycle, which story should I look for?
 
The Skin of Things., though by around Book Four the Lake Cycle ties into the Rossford Books. There are two versions of the Skin of Things on here, and another version on Gaydemon.
 
As Washington had taken its southeast plunge into downtown, they’d felt more and more at home in what was left of downtown Wallington, the rows of sleepy one storey shops, some of them boarded up, the old antique store with crennels and a tower like some industrial castle, the bread factory boarded up for the last twenty years that gave way to the new fire station, the youth center, the Mobil gas station, and then the infamous gas station on the corner of Lafayette where Pakistani attendants stood behind plexi glass, and white trash drug addicts went to be crazy, Across the street from it, as they turned onto Lexington was the infamous Taco Bell where crazy people went to die. A third grader had loudly told Don once about the stripper who died with a needle in her arm there. They passed the parking lot of the old Methodist church, followed by a strip of old houses, the parking lot to the Masonic temple across them the Reform Temple made a like a stack of brick gift boxes, always empty of Jews, but its lawn often filled with the sleeping homeless, and when they turned up past the liquor store, and a gas station that May called The Nice Gas Station, they were on 812 Pine Street.

That was an old house she loved. She loved being on the brick porch, and she had observed, “The thing about Wallington is it’s this checkerboard, and you have a nice neighborhood, but it never goes on for more than four blocks, and then you have like,,, this mess, hillbillies, ghettoes. But it never really goes on that long either.”

“It goes on longer than it should,” Simon had said when she said this, and she agreed.

“But the thing about here, is we’re in the perfect place where it’s just nice enough, but you can see down a couple of corners to where it isn’t so nice. And that’s where it gets interesting.”

Once she had said if went a little further it got nicer and the good part about that was people bypassed 812 to rob the good stuff. Simon reflected that, nestled on one of the cozy, tree lined hills, he had a little white bungalow that was certainly “the good stuff.”

May loved the big old brick porch. She loved that it was brick so that if she wanted to read a book or her Tarot cards, or just paint her damn toes, there were high walls that hid her from view when she sat down on the little mats on the freshly brushed porch. And she loved this returning to the large house that must have been a mansion before it became apartments that were sectioned into more apartments and then began its reverse process back to, if not exactly mansion, whole house. As they passed the first door and crossed to the second one, she threw down her bags on the living room floor and Donovan gave her a short look that said pick them up, so she put them on the old Davenport and then followed everyone else up the steps to the second living room and the kitchen while Cade blew his cheeks out and said, “It is so cold in here.”

“We’ve been gone four days.”

“At least it’s not completely cold,” Simon said. “We had the sense to leave the heat on 65.”

“You had the sense to leave the heat on 65,” Donovan credited him.

May went to the freezer and took out quiche, and she never seemed to mind the cold so was in a tee shirt. Donovan sat at the kitchen table opening up his McDonald’s and placing it in the center of the table. Cade and Simon had done the same and they knew that this would result in a sort of food swap.

“I honestly thought,” Cade said, sitting down, heavily, legs wide apart and elbows on the table as he hungrily bit into a Big Mac, “That I might catch a fresh wind and get some shit done tonight.”

“There’s been enough of doing,” Donovan said.

“There’s actually never enough of doing,” Cade said. “At least not to professors, and I have a paper due on Chaucer in two days.”

“Which you already worked on,” Donovan said.

From the microwave where she was reheating quiche, May said in her sweet voice.

“And it’s really good.”

“You think so?” Cade said.

May smiled brightly as the microwave purred behind her.

“Absolutely.”



The threat of sleep didn’t stop them from making a pot of coffee to fight it off just a little longer. On the sofa, Donovan and May sat, up to their necks in blankets, half dozing and half drinking.

“When in the world did you read Cade’s paper?” he whispered.

May almost scowled at her godfather.

“You know I don’t read papers. Hell, I hardly read.”

“May!”

“I lied,” she shrugged. “I do that sometime. Look at how good it made him feel. I bet you lie to him all the time too.”

Before Donovan could object, May took a deep sip of her coffee.

“I would, to see that look on his face. He’s beautiful. So is Simon. I can’t believe you have them both.”

“I can’t believe you said that outloud.”

“It’s not like Mom is here, and it’s not like she would care.”

“I wonder if your mother cares about anything.”

May said, “I’m not even sure she cares about herself.”

“I always thought she’d get her shit together. At least for you.”

May snorted.

“It’s a nice thought,” she said. “Isn’t it?”

Cade came out with his mug of coffee and read:



“Chaucer was a close friend of John of Gaunt, the wealthy Duke of Lancaster and father of Henry IV, and he served under Lancaster's patronage. Near the end of their lives, Lancaster and Chaucer became brothers-in-law when Lancaster married Katherine Swynford in 1396, the sister of Philippa de Roet, whom Chaucer had married in 1366.

“Chaucer's Book of the Duchess (also known as the Deeth of Blaunche the Duchesse) was written in commemoration of Blanche of Lancaster, John of Gaunt's first wife. The poem refers to John and Blanche in allegory as the narrator relates the tale of "A long castel with walles white/Be Seynt Johan, on a ryche hil" (1318–1319) who is mourning grievously after the death of his love…”

He stopped.

“Is it too much detail?”

“Usually if you think it is, then it is,” Don said.

“I’ll take it out, but I was going to say something about Blanche. I liked that part about Blanche.”

“Blanche?” Don waited for him to explain.

“Should I read it?”

“I think you’d better,” Donovan said.

May turned him a sympathetic glance as if to say: “He better, or we won’t hear the end of it.”

Cade cleared his throat, looking more tense than Don could remember and read on.

“John of Gaunt's first wife. The poem refers to John and Blanche in allegory as the narrator relates the tale of "A long castel with walles white/Be Seynt Johan, on a ryche hil" (1318–1319) who is mourning grievously after the death of his love, "And goode faire White she het/That was my lady name ryght" (948–949). The phrase "long castel" is a reference to Lancaster (also called "Loncastel" and "Longcastell"), "walles white" is thought to be an oblique reference to Blanche, "Seynt Johan" was John of Gaunt's name-saint, and "ryche hil" is a reference to Richmond. These references reveal the identity of the grieving black knight of the poem as John of Gaunt, Duke of Lancaster and Earl of Richmond. "White" is the English translation of the French word "blanche", implying that the white lady was Blanche of Lancaster.

“I thought the whole play on Blanche and white was fascinating,” Cade added.

“Well, it’s England,” May said, “so wasn’t just about everyone a white lady?”

“May, that’s not what it means.”

“It kind of is,” Don said, “and you’re kind of going off topic. Stick to the topic. Really, Cay, you should go to bed.”

Cade nodded and turned his semi shaggy head around. He had moved a few steps, when he turned around and said, “You know what I think?”

“No.”

“That you don’t take any of this seriously. This whole conference we went to, my graduate student career. It’s not serious to you. This paper… It’s not serious.”

“Cade,” Donovan said, summoning up as much irritation as he could at…. What the fuck time was it, anyway?—“of course I take it seriously.”

“We,” May chimed in.

“We just traveled for the bulk of the last week with you to Savannah.”

“For a vacation in winter.”

“Fuck you. I hate hot weather and you know it,” Don said without raising his voice. “For you. Because what you’re doing matters and I’m sorry if I can’t get excited about it at whatever the fuck o’ clock in the night or early morning it is, but maybe we all need to go to bed before we say things we shouldn’t.”

“Maybe you’re right,” Cade said, louder than he meant to be, and then said he said, much quieter this time, “Maybe you’re right.”

“Get a good shower,” Donovan said, more solicitously. “Talk it over with Simon. Get some rest, Cay. For your own sake.”

Cade grunted and went upstairs.

What Donovan meant, and May probably knew, was go take a shower with Simon, the two of you go up and make love and go to sleep and let him console you while I sleep on this sofa and we can have our time tomorrow.

“Tomorrow,” Don thought.
 
This big magnificent beast of comfort made of two sofas joined like an L with an two giant ottomans stuffed in its corner was the best bed in the world and from it, even as Donovan noted that the house was finally warming and they should turn out the kitchen light and the lamp on the other side of the room, he fell into sleep.



Donovan Shorter was awakened in what he considered an irritating fashion. He almost said, “Knock it off, May,” but knew it wasn’t, and saw she was sleeping in a corner of the giant sofa.

Cade was leaning over him, and Donovan blinked.

“Were you sleeping?” Cade asked.

Donovan frowned up at him, crossly.

“That was disingenuous,” Cade said.

Donovan turned his back on him and went back to sleep. Cade climbed into the corner on the other side of Don.

“I just wanted to talk,” he said.

“Well, I don’t want you to wake up May, and I’m not entirely awake myself, so why don’t you go into the kitchen and wait for me?”

“You’re cross with me.”

“I’m a little cross with you,” Don yawned. “Not least of all for waking me.”

Donovan had never been able to sleep through a Cade Richards in need, and it wasn’t long before he got up. He went around the great room, turning off lamps and came into the kitchen where Cade was in pajama pants and a tee shirt.

“I made you a cup of coffee,” he said. “I was going to say I made it the way you like it, except I can never get it the way you like it.”

Donovan sat down and sipped the coffee and Cade continued, “They say its important to be able to make the person you love a good cup of coffee, and I can’t seem to do it.”

“It’s really not that important, and,” Donovan added, “it’s really a good cup of coffee.”

“Thank you,” Cade said.

“We all take you seriously,” Donovan said. “And we all want you to succeed. And we all believe you will.”

“This is harder than I thought it would be,” Cade said. “And I don’t just mean it’s hard, I mean….I thought this would be many things it isn’t. More inspiring, more fun, more something, and it’s not. I wonder if I’m meant for it.”

“What about the conference?”

“What about it?” Cade said. “What does it mean. I keep on thinking about something one of my professors said. He said “Academia is incestuous.” And I keep feeling like I’m getting ready to go into something that should be great, should be wonderful, but is secretly bullshit.”

Donovan hadn’t talked, and Cade continued: “And I feel like you know it’s bullshit.”

“No,” Donovan said.

He drank his coffee and Cade waited for him to continue.

“No,” Donovan said again.

“We heard from writers of books I’ve never heard of who seem as unknown as me except they have academic followings and awards after their names, awards I will never have, and they have them because they did things right.

“See, when I went to graduate school I didn’t know about doing things right. I just did what I wanted. I had… ideals. And a strong desire to stay out of the work force. And so I just kept learning this and learning that and I never really thought about proper work when I came out. Or how to stay in. Academia is a game, and I did not play it right. I didn’t play it at all, which is why you met me at all, why I ended up as a substitute teacher in a horrible school. I want you to play it right. Actually the success of our household depends upon it because my moneymaking skills seem to be nil. I want you to play this game right, but remember that it is a game. I want you to become who you should be…. But not lose yourself.”

He stroked a lock of hair that was coming around Cade’s ear, “or your hair.”

Cade scratched his craggy cheek. He reached for his cigarettes but failed to pick them up.

“Don, I’m not even sure if I know who myself is anymore. And that’s scary.”

“It’s scarier when you’re forty-five,” Don said.

MORE TOMORROW
 
That was a great portion! Sorry it took me so long to get to it. Hearing so much from May was nice. Some fighting going on between the guys but I know in the end they have each other’s backs. I am so glad you brought this story back and I look forward to more soon!
 
Thanks. This is the first book that has a large female presence and May is ging to be in it big time. As the series ends, the original story breaks more and more out of its shell. I'm glad you read any time you read and I will post again tomorrow.
 
“See, when I went to graduate school I didn’t know about doing things right. I just did what I wanted. I had… ideals. And a strong desire to stay out of the work force. And so I just kept learning this and learning that and I never really thought about proper work when I came out. Or how to stay in. Academia is a game, and I did not play it right. I didn’t play it at all, which is why you met me at all, why I ended up as a substitute teacher in a horrible school. I want you to play it right. Actually the success of our household depends upon it because my moneymaking skills seem to be nil. I want you to play this game right, but remember that it is a game. I want you to become who you should be…. But not lose yourself.”
He stroked a lock of hair that was coming around Cade’s ear, “or your hair.”
Cade scratched his craggy cheek. He reached for his cigarettes but failed to pick them up.
“Don, I’m not even sure if I know who myself is anymore. And that’s scary.”
“It’s scarier when you’re forty-five,” Don said.
Neither of them said anything, and then Donovan said, “I’m not fit for this world. When we were at the conference, hearing all of those speakers talking about Faulkner and the purpose of literature in this world, and hearing them murmur about the dude who wrote the book on peaceful protests, I thought, I am not fit for this world. I never found a way to make a successful place in this world. A handful, a handful of a handful of people are reading my books, and I don’t know how to be a success in this life.
“There is a part of me that thought I would be. I turn off the TV, and there is a podcast. I turn off the podcast and there is a YouTube about someone, often some useless person, who has learned how to make a million dollars out of their uselessness, and meanwhile I sit here and struggle to find a decent job. I have things. I have things to say, things to do in this life, and I don’t know how to do them.
“And then I walk down the street from here to the liquor store, and I think, yes, these are my people. Here is the real life, the day to day thing. Here is home. But, you,” he said, patting Cade’s hand, “have a chance to make a success of that life I could not. You can be the speaker at one of those conferences in the future. You will not be me, so vague, so unemployable. With a CV that might as well be a drawing of a cock with a sombrero.”
Cade snorted.
“I’m serious, love. I’m serious.”
“Remember Ula?”
“Yes. She was the research librarian over at the college. For years, wearing her glasses, looking uptight, waiting for tenure.”
“But shoplifting from Macy’s the whole time.”
“But she got her tenure. Until she got caught.”
“Did she get caught?”
“Well she disappeared.”
“But then she got employed in Lafayette. At the Black Studies Library of all things, which is a real coup considering she’s white.
“See,” Donovan said. “She wasn’t brilliant. She was dull and dumb with no ideas of her own, but she was clever enough to make a success of herself in this world. That bypassed me.”
“Am I dumb enough to make a success of myself in this world?”
“No,” Donovan said, “and that’s what scares me. Because I don’t want you to be me. I want you to be something richer and happier than me.”
“I don’t know that I’ve ever been very happy,” Cade said.
“No,” Don agreed. “I don’t think you have. But I would like to see it.”
“I can’t tell if the other folks in my program are happy or not. They seem like it,” Cade said. “And there are some folks who really seem like it, but they seem… lacking. I feel like to be as happy about this as I need to be, I need to be a little… I don’t know if lacking is the right word. But I need to believe in it more than I do.”
“Well, here’s to believing.”
“Have you written?” Cade said. “Or sculpted anything lately?”
Donovan opened his mouth and Cade said, “I know you’ve been editing, but have you created anything? You always forget who you are when you aren’t creating something.”
“Are you sure you’re not talking about yourself?”
“Not entirely, no.”
“Tomorrow is the time for creating,” Donovan said. “Not now. I’m too far gone for that.”
“Let’s go to the attic,” Cade said. “To your study. Tonight.”
“Isn’t it freezing there?”
Cade shook his head.
“It’s not freezing anywhere in this house anymore and, besides, I turned on the heaters before I went to bed for the first time. Let’s wake up there, see how much inspiration there is greeting the new day.”
Cade got up and put the coffee cup in the sink. He pulled down a glass and rinsed his mouth out with it, then headed up the back stair. Donovan followed him. You could see how this had once been a hallway leading from one apartment to the next. In the large attic, Cade stopped in the little restroom, and then came out and this made Donovan think of how he needed to do the same, and they arrived in his study which was warm in this January night and amber colored with the twinkling length of fairy lights. His laptop was off before the window showing the black night, and Donovan always wondered if he could be seen, wondered who there was that had a view into the third story window of this house on Pine Street with no house across from it.
While he wondered, Cade undressed, revealing the miracle of his body. The wildness of its dark fur on dark ivory skin, deep brown eyes, chocolate hair, his sex, thick half ready dangling from the brunette nest, heavy balls, hot with home and comfort. Don felt himself stiff and no longer worried for anything as he slowly undressed, looking at his lover who was so tall his head nearly touched the rafters. Like children they knelt on the pallet before each other. Gently Donovan uncapped the bottle he always kept by the little bed, and squirted its slickness onto his hand and then his hand began to stroke Cade’s penis, massaging it, rubbing the slickness all down his shaft, massaging the head and the v under the head, gently working him while Cade moaned and embraced him, placing his head in the crook of Don’s neck. Donovan now felt Cade’s hand on him, making his stiffness stiffer, and there seemed nothing closer than this mutual gentle violation.
Donovan brought Cade down, and opened his thighs. Cade pushed his knees up a little but only a little, and with a groan of half surprise they worked their bodies together so that Cade’s penis pushed inside Don. Silently they worked like that, Don’s hands in Cade’s hair. Cade’s face in his shoulder. They kissed and then Don disengaged, laying Cade on his back, and descending on him, riding him under the amber fairy lights before at last, he lay on his stomach and brought Cade into him, murmuring, “Pound me, pound me. Fuck me, baby. Don’t be gentle.”
And Cade obeyed, fucking him steadily, until his hands were clasped in Cade’s and Cade’s face was pressed against his. As the tiny amber lights strung about the room winked on and waned and winked on again, and the great window let in the blind night, quietly the two of them strived together in grunts and small swears, and the attic room bore the sounds of bodies slapping, mouths opening in the joy of release until, at last, with a low groan Cade’s hands clinched tighter on Don’s while he came. It was only a little longer when Don, who thought he was too tired, too worn out for it, too still filled with Cade’s fucking, surprised himself with an orgasm high as the Alps and delicate as the shattering of glass, and it was still only a few minutes later when his hand reached up to turn out the amber light and cover the room in darkness while the two of them slept in each other’s arms.
 
DONOVAN



I don’t know what time we fall asleep, but when I wake up the sky has changed to that high and ghostly white that means more snow is coming. I wonder if we should have gone onto to Ely or, if having gone to Ely we would have been stuck in a storm as we were just a few years ago. I draw closer to Cade, but now I know I will write because now I am thinking of getting up and writing for the first time in a long time. I am thinking of disentangling from the embrace that is home, from the long lithe body that is a man’s body, that is covered in hair, but still feels to me like holding my own child, and when I write it’s about the truth in this morning moment.

I’m thinking about Charles and there is no need for Cade to worry. Charles was before Brian, before Ezekiel, before much of anything. I saw him not long ago, prematurely bald with a wispy long beard that doesn’t look like much of anything, and a voice that comes between his teeth like a whistling gopher’s. I never had much of an attraction to Charles, but he was someone you could trust, trust to not do anything to you, trust to return instead of disappear as men were wont to do if they didn’t stay too long as, again, men were wont to do.

When he was young he didn’t look much different from when he was old. I don’t give much thought to what I was like as a young person. It wasn’t that I didn’t have enough love in my life, it was just that I was curious. He worked in the comic book shop, stoop shouldered and a little too old looking for a teenager, and I thought that I was going to love comics. I thought that I was going to love Dungeons and Dragons, which he talked about till his gopher whistle voice rose high and nasal. I came there all the time to look at the little pieces for the roll playing games which, one day, would lead me to sculpting my own fantasies, and I knew when the shop was half empty and when it would be empty all the way.

One day, in the midst of his chatter I simply put my hand to his green khakis and grasped his penis, feeling it become hard in my hands. It was larger than I thought and I let him keep talking till he stopped, went and locked the doors.

We took our clothes off and rolled around on the floor in the back of the store that evening. At that time I didn’t understand myself, couldn’t believe myself, was surprised by how my heart seemed to be rising out of my body, by the way I shouted when, on top of him, I came.

He told me a lot of things, most of which I forgot. He told me how he’d first had sex with one of his cousins when he was fourteen, in a swimming hole at some country place. I told very little, and certainly didn’t let him know that he was all the sex I’d had. Until his father got a job in Newport, he was all the sex I had twice a week. We sixty-nined in the back of the store, but everything else happened in his house. It had that emptiness and not enough heat or fresh air that a lot of white people’s homes had, the faint smell of kitty litter, of mustiness. But it had privacy. He introduced me to poppers and one night, high on them, for the first time I had him fuck me. I had wanted it, I sat on him and my eyes stung as I bore him into me. In the end what I had wanted, seen in some films, was happening. I was stretched out, face down, being pounded feeling an ache bore into me, feeling someone who talked too much about things I cared about too little reduced to absolute need, my hands clutched in his, my ass penetrated by Charles jackhammering harder and harder, our breath the same, our moans the same, our shouts the same, my sadness at its ending when he finally came.

Now, I have never had many gay men for friends because they talk too much. I don’t know if it’s because they have a limited number of people to talk to about their sex lives, but I have heard more things I never asked to know, and often wondered why I was being told lurid details by would be lovers. This writing is not for Cade. It may not even be for a novel. It is for me, because right now I am explaining something. Fucking and being fucked were monumental experiences for me, and being fucked I wanted Charles to do it again and again. After the first time I felt him in me for days, and though I longed for his penis and those moments in the bed where we were one thing of desire, I did not long for Charles. I did not wonder how he was. I did not reflect upon his awkward face and body, or his tedious conversation and feel the lack of it or long for the closeness of him, and when he was gone I missed the moments in that bed, but little else. The fucking was the realest moment for us.

All of that preamble, that too much information is to say the first time it happened with Cade the Bible flew through my head. That night, after the boy who had been enthralled with me and I with him, whom I had been becoming friends with, knew I was falling in love with, knew I was going to bed entirely too quickly with, undressed with me, while he was inside of me, like a drum, sonorously Saint Paul’s voice of all things went through me.



For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.



But then shall I know even as also I am known.



Shall be known as I know… as I know…. Shall be known…




Making love or being intimate are fine things to say, but the same thing that happened with Charles, that happened with many men, some of whom I loved and many I did not happened with Cade. He fucked me. But the same process did not yield the same experience. Always there was a knowing, knowing on a deep level, as naked bodies in need with no pretense, lacking all the foolish conversation. But with Cade something wholly different arrived. When I felt Charles throbbing in me, making that deep path in my anus I hadn’t known before, what I felt was Charles’ penis. What I felt now was Cade, even as I turned from him, his long fingers linked through mine like vines rather than those of a six foot four man riding me, and I knew I could not be separated from him.

Tonight, when he came to me downstairs and woke me, we both knew. We have grown distant from each other. misunderstanding and too many words fucking things up, Cade, with the wisdom of a dark angel, knew and longed for the moment where we knelt naked together, where he let me stroke the fear and the weariness that had made him half impotent back to hardness, where he entered me and I ached, and he knew the song. As he pounded me I heard over again, in the rhythm of his body and his breath:

“As I am known…. As I am known…. As I am known… as I am known…”


MORE IN A COUPLE OF DAYS
 
That was an excellent portion! A lot of introspection and it’s always interesting to here about characters before this story. This story is getting more fascinating with every portion and I look forward to more in a few days! :)
 
CHAPTER TWO

THE SOONER THE BETTER





“I never understood why it was a problem… letting people do what they want.”


- Fenn Houghton



When May Robinson woke up on the sofa the next morning, the first thing she knew was that she was never going back home. It was a thought that came to her mind, fresh every day, sometimes at the end of a night full of bad dreams. She stretched, feeling more energy than she had for a long time, and rolling from the sofa, looked out of the great picture window to Pine Street below, and realized there was a good chance they might not be going anywhere. Winter wonderland was the stuff of old movies. When she heard that phrase she thought of her old grandmother who smelled of piss, dirt and racism, and the Technicolor movies on her television. This here, this shit outside, big old blocks and mountains of blindingly white snow shadowed in blue, was arctic.

So they weren’t going to Ely, or at least they weren’t going to Ely anytime soon, and she had no desire to sleep anymore. May made her way to the kitchen and emptied the coffee pot from last night’s coffee, rinsing it and searching for filters. There was just enough sleep in her to last till the percolating of the coffee.

She supposed Cade had come and taken Donovan to bed. She even half remembered Cade coming down. But he had come down twice, hadn’t he? And one of those times he’d been obsessed with his paper about a white lady and she had something about…. No… it had been about Chaucer, and May felt, right now, that she was remembering far too much. As the coffee bubbled and steamed in the coffee maker, and filled the large kitchen with its dark aroma, she wondered if it would wake the men of the house. She couldn’t remember if they said that older people needed more sleep or less.

It was by the time the coffee was done, and she was pulling down a mug she heard the floorboards creaking under someone’s footsteps. She guessed Simon’s and was right, His wheat blond hair was sticking up and he said, “Why the hell are you even awake?”

“I couldn’t sleep. What time is it?”

“Eight-forty-five.”

“Really?” May scrunched up her face.

“You’re gonna feel it later if you don’t feel it now.”

“I looked out the window. It doesn’t look like we’re going anywhere.”

Simon, not content to take May’s word, or the word of any eighteen year old, left the kitchen to check and came back a few minutes later.

“Goddamn,” he pronounced, sounding almost exactly like Donovan.

“See,” May said.

She had already made her coffee, and now Simon was making his.

“We should have just driven on to Ely.”

“Why?” May said. “So we could be stuck in snow up there?”

“Good point,” Simon said. “I wonder what we’ll do today?”

Simon liked to have plans for days, leave nothing empty. May was not such a person.

“Why do we have to do anything? I’m going to take my coffee back to the living room and think about life.”

She was headed back when she heard the stairs creak, and Donovan came down in, of all things, a white kaftan over pajamas, and he gave a great yawn and said, “Good morning, Winter Babies. What lovely early coffee you’ve made. Oh, how we should have got donuts or something tor today, and I’ll be damned, but isn’t it time to go back to sleep?”

He added, “I will go back to sleep as soon as I get coffee for us.”

Donovan was preparing two cups of coffee, and he said, “Did you have a good sleep, May Fly?”

“I’m not really sure I’m done with sleep,” she said, and followed this with a yawn.

“No. None of us is.”

“Ely,” Simon began.

“We will all go back to our places of rest, which means I am following you, Simon, and Cade will follow the smell of the coffee and let’s reconvene after a sleep, a smoke and a sit on the can, and decide what we’re going to do about Ely.”

Donovan kissed May on the cheek, and went ahead of Simon to what May considered to be Simon’s room. May went into the freezer and pulled out the bag of frozen strawberries hoping they weren’t freezer burned. She felt the chill of them on her finger tips as she scooped a few out into a bowl, and just then, Cade came down the stairs with his dark corkscrews of thick hair.

“Don made your coffee. They’re waiting on you.”

Cade, who was standing in a pair of Jockeys which displayed his whole body, made a grunt and patted May on the head before heading after them.
 
Simon was right, May observed, taking the berries back to the front room with her. The feeling or wakefulness had only been a deception, or rather her wakefulness only did so much. By the time she’d made it back to the sofa, it was as if the making of coffee and talking to the three men she was living with had been a full day’s work, and she climbed into the pregnant letter L that was bigger than a bed, and, content with the sunlight on her face, began to doze, now and again plunging her fingers into cold, wet berries, or lifting increasingly cool coffee to her lips.



Downstairs there is a whole empty floor which seems a shame. There ought to be people down there, and the whole place not be left all alone, May thinks about just how large this space upstairs is. Part of her thinks how she likes the uncertainty of all that space downstairs, how it means there’s always a place for her, and another part of her thinks that the wise thing to do would be for Don to rent it out and earn some money. In some way his earning money keeps this roof over everyone’s head including hers.

Once she’s thought of renting the space out, it’s as if it’s already done and she wonders where she will stay. She never wants to intrude on the sex lives or the lives period of Cade, Donovan and Simon. This is the longest she’s ever stayed, and when she stays it usually is in that place downstairs. Where will she stay once the nice couple moves in? If it is a nice couple. Well, there is the basement, but the basement creeps her out. She watched a video on YouTube from a Scandinavian witch who said basement houses were good and kept you grounded, and for about half a year, May wore a lot of black, learned how to trace runes and thought she might be a Scandinavian witch. She may be many things, but she has come to the realization she is not that. And so life in a basement wouldn’t suit her.

Even now, she thinks without embarrassment or titillation, that the three of them might be having sex, but that they are having it quietly because she is here. No one’s walking out naked because she is here. Whatever her family situation was like, she always had privacy. She wasn’t loved, not really, but she was a little feared, and this meant she was left alone. Being alone, having your space, even when it hurts, is everything.

May remembers Donovan telling her that Simon was now a part of the family. He said it just like that, and because he said it just like that she never wondered. She never asked any of the awkward questions you’d think someone might. But then, when she was seven she cut her hair short, wore plaid and told Donovan she liked girls.

“I think I’d like to be gay. Sometimes.”

Don told her, though she could not remember this, that when he would come over, she would clap her hands and sing, “Gay days with Don! Gay days with Don!”

Donovan had never asked her to explain herself or define who she was. He had not only accepted when she kissed a girl, but when she kissed boys as well. When she brought other young people to the house he never asked her what she was doing with them. When she lost her virginity, he never expressed surprise. And so she never expressed surprise about anything he did.

Now the whole business of virginity came up after the time she tried to kill herself. And she hadn’t been consciously trying. Not exactly. She had wanted to feel different, and so she had taken some of her stepfather’s pills. And she had felt different. And then she wanted to feel a little more different, and a little more, and a little more, and then her fingers were blue and she couldn’t see straight, and so she had ended up in the hospital with a doctor standing over her asking: “Are you sexually active?”

Well, she had been too high to say no, and when her parents had found out, and found the name of the boy, while she was still recovering in her room, she’d heard the news that they’d stormed into the school and had him arrested for rape. By the time it had been sorted out, there was no going back to school. Looking back she realized her temporary search for freedom had resulted in the prison of living at home, going to school online, not dealing with school mates, not dealing with school. School had already been troublesome, but once you were the girl who had So and So arrested for rape, there was just no going back.



When Donovan told her in tones of mock horror about how once upon a time there had been no Internet, how once upon a time if you wanted to talk to someone, you had to pick up a phone that was tied to the wall and call, and their mother picked up and then you asked if so and so was there and maybe they were and maybe they weren’t, and maybe other people were on the line, she thought how this was more than mock horror, how this was genuinely awful. How could there have been a time when all you could do was write people, when there was not a whole world at the tip of your fingers on a phone that you did everything but talk on? The life that was lonely enough would have been so much lonelier, unbelievably lonely, and then she could not have met the boys she met online. There had been Felix who was handsome, dark eyed and cinnamon skinned, and lived in San Francisco where she had been about to visit him before learning, holy shit, that he was only fourteen years old. And there was Dirk in that indie band, whom she had snuck out to meet, and then Michael with the yellow pick up truck, who it turned out loved his pick up truck far too much to even begin to like her and, finally, Wade.

Wade came from North Carolina and drove all the way up from there to meet her in Ashby. May had packed her bag that day and waited for him to come while her family, minus Grandma was gone, and they had spent all day at the house until she got the call that it was time for her mother to come home.

“Should I meet your parents?” Wade asked.

Wade was tall and good looking and—it turned out—twenty-three. There was no way in hell he was going to meet her parents.

“We could stay at a hotel by the beach?” he suggested.

She had to just come out and say, “You have money?”

He nodded. She agreed. They drove up to New Buffalo and got a room at a motel and for three days they drove between there and the beach and she watched the sun set over the great expanse of water like a sheet of satin, and May thought how very big the world was.





The fourth day, when they were supposed to head back home, and when the sea side smell of Lake Michigan was stuck in her hair, Wade sat in the truck, and grunted, groaned, kicked the wheels and scowled under the hood.

“It’s broken,” he said at last.

May let him scowl and tinker a little bit more before she said, “I’ll call someone.”

She had called Don quickly, but it was an hour before he returned her message, and he started with an apology and a how was she and this had led to the explanation of how she was in New Buffalo with a boy, which Donovan only half gasped at but said, having heard the whole thing, “Give me the address and someone’ll be up to get you.”

With early evening, Simon had rolled up in his white shirt sleeves khaki pants and glasses and no questions. He got out of the driver’s seat, looked at Wade’s truck and said, “We’re going to have to leave it here for tonight, okay? But me and Cade can come and look at it tomorrow with a friend. Right now, get all your stuff. We don’t want to be late for dinner, which is to say, I don’t want to be late for dinner.”

The whole ride to Ashby was quiet, May watching the same road which had taken her from her home to here, but knowing, as the summer sky went from blue to deeper blue to charcoal blue burning with orange light, that she was not returning to the place she’d left. Not quite.



Donovan was in the kitchen with Cade, making dinner, when Simon brought May and Wade in. They could smell food from downstairs when they took the staircase that led up to the second floor. The truth was, at this moment Don was waiting for dinner to be done, and it was Cade who was making a salad. May went up to Don and threw her arms around him and they were in that unique and happy embrace they always shared.

“This is Wade,” she said with more uncertainty than she would have ever said to one of her parents.

“You’re old,” Donovan said.

“I’m twenty-three.”

“And I’m forty-three. But she’s seventeen.”

“Age is just a number.”

“Sir.”

“Huh?”

“Age is just a number, Sir.”

Wade started over again.

“Age is just a number, Sir.”

“What’s the temperature today?” Donovan asked.

Wade, who probably was used to saying I dunno, sensed this wasn’t a good idea and said, “I think eighty-five, .”

“So, just a number,” Don said. “And yet, I bet you wouldn’t want me to turn this ari conditioner off.”

Wade was not sure to laugh or look chastised and Donovan said, “Wash your hands and get yourself something to drink. Both of you.”

May clung to him like a happy vine, and like a vine unloosened.

“We’ll talk about this,” he said gently, squeezing her hand.

She said, “I’m sure we will.”

HAVE SEXY WEEKEND
 
That was an excellent weekend portion! Good to see more of May and her life again. She has good friends to pick her up and all when Wade’s truck. I am interested to read where this all goe. Excellent writing and have a nice weekend!
 
If it's very important for you to be able to make for your lover a truly good cup of coffee, and for your lover to be able to make one for you, ...

... what happens if you really, really don't like coffee?


(Hm. Is that why I'm single?)
 
If it's very important for you to be able to make for your lover a truly good cup of coffee, and for your lover to be able to make one for you, ...

... what happens if you really, really don't like coffee?


(Hm. Is that why I'm single?)
You don't like coffee?..... You can't make a good cup...... You might be fucked. But I drink coffee all the time and can make a great cup.... and i'm still single. So..... ah, mystery of life.
 
You don't like coffee?..... You can't make a good cup...... You might be fucked.

There are only two spots in the world where I have had coffee I enjoyed even somewhat: the Café du Monde in New Orleans, where the coffee is half chicory and then mixed 50-50 with milk, and -- oddly enough -- the central train station in Madras/Chennai, where the coffee is also heavily bemilked. I mean, I don't even like coffee ice cream or tiramisu.

I do like tea, but my main caffeine source is usually Diet Coke.

(However, in summer I do a great pitcher of green tea with a whole lot of ginger plus honey and lime juice.)
 
I HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYED THEIR WEEKEND, AND NOW WE RETURN TO CHAPTER TWO OF CREATION


“So,” Donovan said after dinner, when they were sitting on the brick porch looking out on Pine Street, and he was smoking a Black n’ Mild, “We are going to New Buffalo tomorrow to get this boy’s car, but how did this boy happen?”

He was glad to see May, and he didn’t hide it. Since he’d fallen out with her mother, since she’d went and married that idiot Jeff, he saw her so rarely, and the only reason he occasionally spoke to her mother, was to speak to May. So she unfolded the whole story, and he did not gasp or ooh or ah or judge just as he had not spent much time asking how she’d gotten where she was when he sent Simon up to get her.

But when she was done he said, “If I had my way, you would not go home.”

“If I had my way I wouldn’t go home!” May said.

“Unfortunately you are still seventeen.”

“There is that.”

“I’ve wanted you to be eighteen a long, long time. When you are, there’s a place for you here.”

“Really?”

“Don’t look so fucking surprised. I’m your godfather, and this house is enormous.”





Donovan Shorter had read somewhere that it was inelegant to rise after ten o’ clock in the morning, and the truth was this had stuck with him more than many other things. No matter what was or wasn’t happening in his life, rising after ten made him feel mostly like a loser, and it didn’t matter how late he had gone to bed, and it didn’t matter if eventually he went back to sleep.

The holidays and winter storms were the exception to this, and this morning, he entered the kitchen at eleven forty-five. He had also explained to May that you could get up and be up, and as long as you were up doing… something, it didn’t matter what time you showed your face to the world. You just had to be up by ten.

812 Pine Street was usually filled with the smells of cooking, as had been the apartment on Moore Street before. A new pot of coffee was brewing and, outside, May could heard the sound of shovels scraping against asphalt as Donovan went about stirring omelets and toasting toast, frying sausage and bacon with very little effort and one cigarette hanging from his hand.

“It’s taking Cade and Simon longer to dig the car out than I thought it would,” May said.

“I notice you aren’t out there helping.”

“I’m not the one who wanted to go to Ely.”

“Well, you are the one who wants to eat, so get over here and take the bacon from the skillet.”

May obeyed and she said, “So are we going to Ely today?”

“It looks like we are,” Donovan said. “Cade wants to get up there and Simon wants what Cade wants so it’s that simple.”

“I was thinking you should rent downstairs.”

“That’s a subject change”

“I was thinking about it,” May said, as she was draining the bacon on the rack, “while I was half sleeping on the couch. It’s sort of the answer to your problems. You still can’t find permanent work. Renting is income.”

“And what about you?”

“I could stay in the basement.”

“I feel like you would hate the basement.”

“I feel like we can work around the kinks, but you have to admit,” she said, raising a piece of bacon and squinting, “Renting is a good idea.”

“We don’t even own this house.”

“Whaddo you call it when you rent something out that you’re renting?”

“Subletting.”

“Well then you could do that.”

“We got an offer to buy the place,” Don said. “We could do that. It’s worth thinking about. We have to think about doing something. My mind gets so lazy. There was the whole year after Mom died and everything, and I had enough money not to do anything except some of things I wanted, and when I think of working or practical things my brain just shuts down.”

“You’ve got four really big floors to rent,” May said. “You just have to think about how you want to do it.”



“He’s twenty-three, what on earth were you thinking?” he had asked her the day they were taking Wade to get his car, and Cade was coming with jumper cables and all of his tools.

“Well, I didn’t actually know he was twenty-three at first, and then when I knew, I never thought he’d come up from North Carolina.”

“Well, what in the world was he thinking?” Donovan said, but with no heat. The heat of an enraged parent was not in him.

“On one hand you’ve got to think,” May began, “that a man who will drive up from North Carolina to meet you is pretty romantic. But on the other hand….”

“That a man who drives up from North Carolina to meet you has too much time on my hands.”

“He’s not normal, but then we’re not normal.” May said, meaning herself and meaning Don, “And I don’t really know what I would do with a normal person in a normal place.”

Don couldn’t argue this.

They were in the back of Cade’s Range Rover, and Simon was in the middle seat while Cade and Wade, who looked strangely alike and now Don said, “Cade… Wade…” were in the front seat.

“Were you trying to get your own Cade?” Don accused his goddaughter.

“I hadn’t thought of it that way until… just now.”

“He’s really a very interesting guy,” Simon said, turning around.

Donovan frowned at him and Simon cleared his throat.

“Well, Donovan,” he said. “None of us is innocent. No need pretending we’re better or more normal than we are.”

May said, “Simon, you seem like one of the most normal people I’ve ever met.”

He worked in government doing something. He was a very, very white boy, with stylish a short haircut, always in tie and slacks, very preppy. Her family, to redneck and white trash for him, would have loved him.

“But then I guess you can’t be that normal.”

Don had never told her stories of Simon’s past and Simon certainly hadn’t, but whatever he might be or do, he was a man who had agreed to be the third member of a gay relationship, and that wasn’t very normal at all which is what he had said.

“That’s part of it,” May agreed. “But it’s also not normal that you didn’t ask any questions when you got us, and you still don’t.”

Donovan said nothing. He liked to sit back and see the members of his family get along together.

As the Land Rover sped up IN-39, May, neither happy or sad, “It’s likely I’ll never see him again.”



When they returned home, they returned May to her home. Donovan did not wait to see her parents and it seemed to him that the world was a sadder place where things were always only half finished, and he was always waiting on something.

“I think Advent and Lent are the most honest times of the year,” he said from where he sat in the back of the Land Rover, alone. “Those are the times when you are waiting, and I feel like that’s all that life really is.”

“Waiting,” Cade said, “And getting over.”

“Getting to,” Simon said from the passenger seat, “and getting over.”

When they got home, Donovan was in a meditative mood. From his phone he played old Negro spirituals. He saw, imagined was too happy a word, the rising and fallings of black ancestral backs working over fields they’d planted to feed and make white men rich, and heard their voices mixed not only with the rhythms of Africa, but the plaintive words and melodies of the poor beaten down white men who had come from Britain and Ireland and worked the land with them, hoping to become white one day.

There were people in Donovan’s family, who had been white one day, the Jewish grandparents who half handed down a faith that half meant something, that made him say Kaddish and fast on Yom Kippur, the half French Creoles who had given him and his cousins the Mass. All that he had would pass onto a blond white girl he hoped would make it to eighteen, and tonight he worked in a kitchen like his great grandmother and grandmother had, chopping the onions, browning them in the skillet, adding chicken to feed white men.



We are

(we are)
Climbing

(climbing)
Jacob's ladder
We are

(we are)
Climbing

(climbing)
Jacob's ladder
Soldier

(soldier)
of the cross



Not just anyone could sing a spiritual, but everyone could appreciate it. Everyone with a spirit. His mind went drifting to other things, but he returned to stirring the chicken into the onions. Wal Mart was out of chicken breasts, had been out for two weeks. It was a half ghost of a store. The world was a stranger place than it had been, and it had always been strange. This was the expensive canned chicken, and it would take a little bit of work to make sure it didn’t taste like a can. He took the sticky cubes of Mexican bouillon and crumbled them over the sizzling meet and onions, poured in the water, slowly stirred in the crushed tomatoes. Slowly, the vegetables and chicken that were between boiling and frying began to smell like food.



Ev’ry (every)

Round goes

Higher and higher



Ev’ry (every)

Round goes

Higher and higher!
 
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