Shadowclad86
Slut
For the first time in my life, I actually have, a crush. But for the very wrong reason. I’ve been living in a new apartment since August and there’s this guy who helps the owner of the apartment building collecting the rent and other necessities, like an assistant helper, because the owner suffers from Alzheimer’s disease. Anyway, I would see this guy helping him and wouldn’t be mesmerize but I couldn’t stop thinking about him and I would find myself making involuntary glances.
I’m not attracted to looks or appearances. Not to say his ugly or anything, but he’s normal. Good normal to my absent standards I guess. Short black hair, brown eyes, light olive skin, rugged, and slightly curvy. Someone who seems not to care about their appearance. I don’t really know anything about him but for some reason I would really like to.
When I tried to figure out why I have this crush, I really saw nothing. I know in the beginning I thought he was annoying, because I find the owner annoying-even though he has Alzheimer he’s really rude as are his comments. Something just attracted me to him. Then I found out why. Recently my sister pointed it out to me, my father can’t stand him and made several comments about wanting to knock him out.
My father is a lot of things. Homophobic is one thing that has always stood out since he’s always made his perception of Gay people clear and obvious. He doesn’t hold back his tongue and obscene gestures. Now I know as a Gay person I should tell him that I’m Gay and his comments affect me, but you have to understand me. I could careless what he thinks. He’s my father and that’s it.
That’s why I think my crush is not something real. I think I have a crush on someone my father dislikes. Is it normal to have a crush on someone who someone else hates.
I’m not attracted to looks or appearances. Not to say his ugly or anything, but he’s normal. Good normal to my absent standards I guess. Short black hair, brown eyes, light olive skin, rugged, and slightly curvy. Someone who seems not to care about their appearance. I don’t really know anything about him but for some reason I would really like to.
When I tried to figure out why I have this crush, I really saw nothing. I know in the beginning I thought he was annoying, because I find the owner annoying-even though he has Alzheimer he’s really rude as are his comments. Something just attracted me to him. Then I found out why. Recently my sister pointed it out to me, my father can’t stand him and made several comments about wanting to knock him out.
My father is a lot of things. Homophobic is one thing that has always stood out since he’s always made his perception of Gay people clear and obvious. He doesn’t hold back his tongue and obscene gestures. Now I know as a Gay person I should tell him that I’m Gay and his comments affect me, but you have to understand me. I could careless what he thinks. He’s my father and that’s it.
That’s why I think my crush is not something real. I think I have a crush on someone my father dislikes. Is it normal to have a crush on someone who someone else hates.