Depressed as Fuck: A Meaningless Rant

[TwinkleFuck]

I'm trapped. I was an idiot and went to college and now am in a shit ton of debt and am living with a bunch of slobs. This is my fucking issue now - one roommate says "Gotta sign up for chores remember?" Umm, I haven't even used the house in the past four days and usually when I do use the rest of the house outside of my bedroom nobody does their fucking chores anyway. He just expects people to do shit for him because he puts wine bottles in my room. Umm, no you gotta get your lazy pot smoking ass out of the house and go in the fucking cold and take the garbage out your fucking self ass wiper! Just like I have the past five times.

Now the sink is full of their dishes that they made while I was at home. They expect me to do it and now I just don't do them because no one fucking does the fucking chores. I'm not going to leave my room and be expected to thank someone for something that is so obviously being used to manipulate me. "Oh, if I give him wine he will just do the chores and I won't have to." Like go fuck yourself, just because your parents have more money than me and pay for your fucking shit when life gets real doesn't mean I have to do all your fucking dirty work. I'm done! Done done done!

I want to live alone or die trying! I feel so trapped right now. I have been so fed up with this that I have literally crawled in and out of the window to avoid interacting with any of them. Because I know I fake my relationship with them just because it is easier than arguments.

And to add to it, this stupid fucking cat! If you got a cat just to yell at it and call it stupid and punish it because you don't know how to care for a cat than don't get the cat in the first place. Yes, my depression may be situational but jeesh, give me a gun and that would be better than dealing with this stupid bullshit.

 

[KaraBulut]

You didn't really ask for advice and most of your post seems to be letting off some built up steam.

But in situations like this, you have to make a decision about whether to take a deep breath or whether it's time to change your situation.

 

[SC6201]

Why do you keep beating your head against the wall expecting different results? We all know what that is called.

Move.

 

[TwinkleFuck]

You didn't really ask for advice and most of your post seems to be letting off some built up steam.

But in situations like this, you have to make a decision about whether to take a deep breath or whether it's time to change your situation.

yah, it was letting off some steam, thanks for reading and that is why I said it was a meaningless rant. it feels heard even if it is stupid. The situation will change after I pay off loans and move into my own place. But it is so far away. All it really takes is a pair of headphones and non-cooking food so I don't use the kitchen. Chipotle here I come.

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Why do you keep beating your head against the wall expecting different results? We all know what that is called.

Move.

Soon, I shall move. Paying off some loans first.

 

[Kyanimal]

Try to keep in mind that this is a transitional situation.

It sounds as though you not only have the motivation, but also the determination to move on as soon as you can. Hold onto that. You CAN make it happen!

As I've often been known to say ... No Matter What ...

Keep Smilin' (as best you can)!!
Chaz

 

[TwinkleFuck]

Try to keep in mind that this is a transitional situation.

It sounds as though you not only have the motivation, but also the determination to move on as soon as you can. Hold onto that. You CAN make it happen!

As I've often been known to say ... No Matter What ...

Keep Smilin' (as best you can)!!
Chaz

thanks for the uplift Chaz - =)

 

[Justmarc]

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And to add to it, this stupid fucking cat! If you got a cat just to yell at it and call it stupid and punish it because you don't know how to care for a cat than don't get the cat in the first place. Yes, my depression may be situational but jeesh, give me a gun and that would be better than dealing with this stupid bullshit.

SAd that you are feeling this way about a cat. before I have my cat I have a very bad anxiety. since my cat come along, she soothing my anxiety, she gives me loves and she cheer me up. I look forward to come home every day because of my cat.

I hope that you will turn it around, since you are alone, a cat could help you not feeling lonely and calm you. My cat helped me big time...

Hope things will turn out better soon.. It will be soon or later, but I hope it sooner for you.

 

[KaraBulut]

SAd that you are feeling this way about a cat. before I have my cat I have a very bad anxiety. since my cat come along, she soothing my anxiety, she gives me loves and she cheer me up. I look forward to come home every day because of my cat.

I think he was making a comment about how his roommates have a cat and they treat it poorly.