BlueStreaker
On the Prowl
Alright, so pretty much everyone I hang out with regularly (in my room, basically) knows I'm bi. I'm not afraid to do things around them, I feel comfortable with who I am and they are comfortable with me. Things are good.
Friday night we were all hanging out and drinking. (College kids drinking? No way!) Anyway one of my friends was really drunk. He had expressed interest in having a threesome (MMF) before and he kept saying it was because he was "secure with his sexuality" or something like that. I've learned that line is generally something to keep them thinking in their mind that they're near-completely straight.
Anyway, I was feeling really horny and I had an odd craving for cock. Normally I'm content to look but tonight I needed to suck. I told him to come with me and led him to our shower room. (We live in a suite so we have toilets and showers there, we don't have a communal shower like the standard dorms, which is nice.) Strangely enough I had promised one of my friends I would get a shower so this was the perfect opportunity to get away.
At the beginning of the night I wouldn't have imagined that I would be doing this. But as it happened I just let myself enjoy the actions and sensations. He was worried about people hearing or coming in so I made sure to lock the door and I turned the shower on. As I was doing it he kept saying about how good it felt, so I was obviously doing something right. He seemed to want to get off so he asked me to stop and started jerking himself off furiously. He said when he was about to cum and I took his cock in my mouth again, swallowing his seed. First time I ever swallowed, too.
Anyway, the next morning he asked if I regretted what happened. I said that I had wished it hadn't happened when we were drunk and he admitted that he probably never would have agreed to it sober. In a way I'm glad it happened, he has since opened up and admitted to me that he is bi as well. He is like me, he likes women and wants to eventually have sex with a woman and get married and have a family, but he seems to like cock almost as much. He's also apparently really into things in his ass, something that surprised me, especially when he told me some of the things he had put up there!
However, there's a part of me that feels bad that I did it. Not because it happened, but because it happened while we were both drunk. Since then he has sucked my cock and we have jerked off together, and we are getting along just as well as if not better than we were before, so that's good. But I just can't get over the bad feeling that we did it first when we were drunk.
The other thing is that before then he was a complete virgin. He had never done anything. He hadn't even kissed anybody. And now I sucked his cock, he sucked mine, and our cocks have touched. He's also expressed interest in getting fucked, something that I don't think I'm ready for yet, at least not with him. He's told me he doesn't know if he would want to top, but I think if we get to that point he'll be willing to try it at least once.
I just don't know how I feel about being his first. I mean, I'm glad that I was someone he knew, someone he trusted, someone he felt safe with, but I really think his first time could have meant so much more with somebody else. He doesn't seem to care, but he also doesn't always share his feelings completely. He's obviously comfortable that it happened, and he wants to keep doing things, so maybe it's just me.
Should I feel this way? Or should I just be happy that I have helped him realize something about him and that we have something else in common, something we can share? Since we've done it we have been talking about all sorts of sexual things, we're now comfortable talking to each other about whatever, so should I just be happy about what happened? I know I can't just flip a switch and be happy about everything, but should I be worried about it like I am? Or should I talk to him in a few days after he's had time to sort everything out? I just feel so confused, maybe even more than when I had my first experience with a guy. Maybe I'm just over thinking this and I just need to let things go for a while. I've been trying to keep my mind off of it but it just keeps coming back.
I think I'm starting to ramble now, so I guess it's time to post. Please, guys, tell me what you think. Any advice, words of wisdom, personal experience would be appreciated.
Friday night we were all hanging out and drinking. (College kids drinking? No way!) Anyway one of my friends was really drunk. He had expressed interest in having a threesome (MMF) before and he kept saying it was because he was "secure with his sexuality" or something like that. I've learned that line is generally something to keep them thinking in their mind that they're near-completely straight.
Anyway, I was feeling really horny and I had an odd craving for cock. Normally I'm content to look but tonight I needed to suck. I told him to come with me and led him to our shower room. (We live in a suite so we have toilets and showers there, we don't have a communal shower like the standard dorms, which is nice.) Strangely enough I had promised one of my friends I would get a shower so this was the perfect opportunity to get away.
At the beginning of the night I wouldn't have imagined that I would be doing this. But as it happened I just let myself enjoy the actions and sensations. He was worried about people hearing or coming in so I made sure to lock the door and I turned the shower on. As I was doing it he kept saying about how good it felt, so I was obviously doing something right. He seemed to want to get off so he asked me to stop and started jerking himself off furiously. He said when he was about to cum and I took his cock in my mouth again, swallowing his seed. First time I ever swallowed, too.
Anyway, the next morning he asked if I regretted what happened. I said that I had wished it hadn't happened when we were drunk and he admitted that he probably never would have agreed to it sober. In a way I'm glad it happened, he has since opened up and admitted to me that he is bi as well. He is like me, he likes women and wants to eventually have sex with a woman and get married and have a family, but he seems to like cock almost as much. He's also apparently really into things in his ass, something that surprised me, especially when he told me some of the things he had put up there!
However, there's a part of me that feels bad that I did it. Not because it happened, but because it happened while we were both drunk. Since then he has sucked my cock and we have jerked off together, and we are getting along just as well as if not better than we were before, so that's good. But I just can't get over the bad feeling that we did it first when we were drunk.
The other thing is that before then he was a complete virgin. He had never done anything. He hadn't even kissed anybody. And now I sucked his cock, he sucked mine, and our cocks have touched. He's also expressed interest in getting fucked, something that I don't think I'm ready for yet, at least not with him. He's told me he doesn't know if he would want to top, but I think if we get to that point he'll be willing to try it at least once.
I just don't know how I feel about being his first. I mean, I'm glad that I was someone he knew, someone he trusted, someone he felt safe with, but I really think his first time could have meant so much more with somebody else. He doesn't seem to care, but he also doesn't always share his feelings completely. He's obviously comfortable that it happened, and he wants to keep doing things, so maybe it's just me.
Should I feel this way? Or should I just be happy that I have helped him realize something about him and that we have something else in common, something we can share? Since we've done it we have been talking about all sorts of sexual things, we're now comfortable talking to each other about whatever, so should I just be happy about what happened? I know I can't just flip a switch and be happy about everything, but should I be worried about it like I am? Or should I talk to him in a few days after he's had time to sort everything out? I just feel so confused, maybe even more than when I had my first experience with a guy. Maybe I'm just over thinking this and I just need to let things go for a while. I've been trying to keep my mind off of it but it just keeps coming back.
I think I'm starting to ramble now, so I guess it's time to post. Please, guys, tell me what you think. Any advice, words of wisdom, personal experience would be appreciated.
