First of, I am Vince. Asian. 20 years old ( don't doubt my age ). I am bisexual, possible gay, I am not really sure.
So I was worrying about my best friend aka my ex crush. To begin with, she's a girl. She has short bob hair and she's small and cute. I mean she weighs like 88 pounds, she does look healthy, just skinny. I met her when I was 13, we're in the same class. She's look ugly back then. Her eyeballs is like pooping out from eyes. I don't remember how we talked, I just knew that we aren't really in a good terms, we often tease each other.
We are in different class for my second year in junior high and stuck in the same class with her for the third year. She was sitting in front of me and we kinda connected. She's very timid and kind. She just the person who can't say no, like literally. Back then, I was developing a crush on her best friend Miss J ( which is my best friend too ). But it was first year of high school, I saw something different of her. She's awesome. She's kind, she's helpful, she's sensitive. She's the kind of girl I wanted to ended up marrying with. So, I told Miss J about it and she asked her "what do think about dating your friend", she said "If I am having crush on him, yea but if not, it'll be weird. Take Vince as an example, I'll avoid him until I know he doesn't have feelings for me." ( Asian girls stuff ). So I knew I don't stand a chance, I just let the feelings resolved. I think it'll be better for me to become her friend rather than a lover. That way, I can protect her, forever.
This went on for two years, until I found out she's dating one of my best bro I made not long ago. She didn't tell me anything of it, it was my bro who told me that he used to date her. I was furious. I thought we are good enough to share the happenings in our life. Then I discovered that my bro treated her very badly. Like, he didn't want to hang out with her that much and asked her whether she's a greedy bitch. And my bro was like "I don't even like her, she's the one come after me". Damn. I am so hurt. Why she would choose him over me. C'mon. I got the looks and I am way cooler than the new guy. She was so heartbroken. She even getting wasted for like twice and ended up in a scary situation ( by driving alone to a hill where there is a couple immigrants around ) I kinda went on secretly hating my bro.
She got better, eventually, I was happy that she's happy again. And I told her I used to have a crush on her. She's like, "oh". I think she knew it long ago. And I helped her with her studies and we just hang out. We can talk about anything. I really love her.
The reason I am writing this because she was away to college, far away from her hometown. She was scare. Homesick. and she's getting sicker. ( she has a record of medical history ) I called her, she is crying, it kinda let me cringes. I wished I was around her so that I could take care of her. Carry her to the hospital, not listening to her crying about how she's not able to eat for the whole day and not getting enough sleep.
I just wish I can hug her. =(
So I was worrying about my best friend aka my ex crush. To begin with, she's a girl. She has short bob hair and she's small and cute. I mean she weighs like 88 pounds, she does look healthy, just skinny. I met her when I was 13, we're in the same class. She's look ugly back then. Her eyeballs is like pooping out from eyes. I don't remember how we talked, I just knew that we aren't really in a good terms, we often tease each other.
We are in different class for my second year in junior high and stuck in the same class with her for the third year. She was sitting in front of me and we kinda connected. She's very timid and kind. She just the person who can't say no, like literally. Back then, I was developing a crush on her best friend Miss J ( which is my best friend too ). But it was first year of high school, I saw something different of her. She's awesome. She's kind, she's helpful, she's sensitive. She's the kind of girl I wanted to ended up marrying with. So, I told Miss J about it and she asked her "what do think about dating your friend", she said "If I am having crush on him, yea but if not, it'll be weird. Take Vince as an example, I'll avoid him until I know he doesn't have feelings for me." ( Asian girls stuff ). So I knew I don't stand a chance, I just let the feelings resolved. I think it'll be better for me to become her friend rather than a lover. That way, I can protect her, forever.
This went on for two years, until I found out she's dating one of my best bro I made not long ago. She didn't tell me anything of it, it was my bro who told me that he used to date her. I was furious. I thought we are good enough to share the happenings in our life. Then I discovered that my bro treated her very badly. Like, he didn't want to hang out with her that much and asked her whether she's a greedy bitch. And my bro was like "I don't even like her, she's the one come after me". Damn. I am so hurt. Why she would choose him over me. C'mon. I got the looks and I am way cooler than the new guy. She was so heartbroken. She even getting wasted for like twice and ended up in a scary situation ( by driving alone to a hill where there is a couple immigrants around ) I kinda went on secretly hating my bro.
She got better, eventually, I was happy that she's happy again. And I told her I used to have a crush on her. She's like, "oh". I think she knew it long ago. And I helped her with her studies and we just hang out. We can talk about anything. I really love her.
The reason I am writing this because she was away to college, far away from her hometown. She was scare. Homesick. and she's getting sicker. ( she has a record of medical history ) I called her, she is crying, it kinda let me cringes. I wished I was around her so that I could take care of her. Carry her to the hospital, not listening to her crying about how she's not able to eat for the whole day and not getting enough sleep.
I just wish I can hug her. =(