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Not by ghosts but recently, ghosts of memories of lost friendships.
In my first summer term in Uni, one of my HS good buds announced he would be coming to the city for the weekend and after meeting up and having a great day in the summer sun and a great meal we hit my room at Trinity C.
Looking back, as I reconstruct it now, he was intent on some action and after applying some lotion on my back because we had been in the sun, we turned the light out and sat on the bed sharing a bottle of wine...from the bottle.
So at one point, he grabbed my dick and started jerking me and I returned the favour as we set the wine aside. We'd never done anything in high school. And because he'd started it and I wanted it, I leaned down and gave him a BJ. Which he let me do right to cumming in my mouth.
And then it was immediately over. He didn't reciprocate and we slept together in the bed...the next day seemed pretty normal but when night-time came, he just rolled out his bedding on the floor and that was it.
I KNOW it was a very good BJ. So I was amazed. And after he left the next day, we never saw or spoke or corresponded again.
I have come to realize that he may have been so deep in the closet that he panicked at the thought of being a homo because his family was pretty religious, but it carved out a pretty big hole in my heart and soul for a while.
All I can think of at this point is that if I had just kept it to a mutual JO session, it all might have been fine with him.
Has anyone else had an experience with 'Buyer's Remorse' and lost a friend? How did you handle it? And did you ever look back with regret?
In my first summer term in Uni, one of my HS good buds announced he would be coming to the city for the weekend and after meeting up and having a great day in the summer sun and a great meal we hit my room at Trinity C.
Looking back, as I reconstruct it now, he was intent on some action and after applying some lotion on my back because we had been in the sun, we turned the light out and sat on the bed sharing a bottle of wine...from the bottle.
So at one point, he grabbed my dick and started jerking me and I returned the favour as we set the wine aside. We'd never done anything in high school. And because he'd started it and I wanted it, I leaned down and gave him a BJ. Which he let me do right to cumming in my mouth.
And then it was immediately over. He didn't reciprocate and we slept together in the bed...the next day seemed pretty normal but when night-time came, he just rolled out his bedding on the floor and that was it.
I KNOW it was a very good BJ. So I was amazed. And after he left the next day, we never saw or spoke or corresponded again.
I have come to realize that he may have been so deep in the closet that he panicked at the thought of being a homo because his family was pretty religious, but it carved out a pretty big hole in my heart and soul for a while.
All I can think of at this point is that if I had just kept it to a mutual JO session, it all might have been fine with him.
Has anyone else had an experience with 'Buyer's Remorse' and lost a friend? How did you handle it? And did you ever look back with regret?

