I'm a black male that has been struggling with my sexuality I've been with men since I was 21 but I always feel ashamed after . but during I feel so good being with a definitely bttm I like older men I'm 42 now and I am married with children but I have been craving sex with men I have boob that female suck on but I love when men too it better it just feels right . I like to be penetrated anally and I like to give oral I have always used condoms so I don't bring anything back to my wife . I try to fight the urge but I fail at times like every few years I find a guy and give into to my desires . after I do I have great ejaculations inside of my wife I wanted her penetrate me witha strapon we tryed a dildo but she did not want to continue. Only if I can get her to strap on maybe I can stop being gay. I don't know but I would really like for her to use my anus instead of men but then I can stop feeling bad about wanting older men using me for their pleasure. How do i stop this I don't want to get a divorce i dont want to have these feelings but I'm only human and I don't like cheating on my wife either I feel so bad sometimes why am I like this?








to JUB and most married men are in the same situation that you are in