Hello.. straight but very very curious!

[bluebull93]

Hello, everyone. My name is Dylyn and I’ve been lurking on gay forums for quite some time but never made an account. I’m a straight guy… I’ve only been with women. But, I’ve been curious since I was younger. I’m 32 now. Luckily I still have a baby face and look 10 years younger lol!

I’ve lied to myself for years about what I liked sexually and I’ve honestly even over compensated/tried to be more “manly” and pretend I didn’t like gay people. I know it’s toxic but it’s true… ;(.

In reality I’ve been playing with toys and cross-dressing, since I was in high school. I may be trans, is my biggest guess. I was raised by a single mother and I’ve had other things happen that I think influenced this. I also could just be a femboy/feminine guy.

With women I ALWAYS am dominant but I want to truly be submissive to the point I’ve pretended I’m a lesbian with girlfriends lol. I’ve never been with a guy but tbh I have a big Dildo I like to suck and obviously use/fuck myself with sometimes… I only see myself as submissive with a guy. The repressed feelings seem to be impossible to hide now. It scares me.

I honestly don’t want to be like this but it’s who I am. Oddly, when I smoke weed I seem to be able to accept myself more ha. I just dabbed some rosin before typing this….

Anyway, sorry for ranting. ADHD brain! I’d love to talk to other guys more and explore who I truly am. I can’t deny it anymore. Like LOL… I cum with a big Dildo in me, while pretending I’m getting tucked, and pretend like it’s not even a little bit gay. Or not straight! I think it’s time I stop lying to myself idk.

Much love everyone!

 

[MusicMan321]

to JUB

 

[BiBtm64]

Hi Dylyn, welcome to JUB and thanks for the detailed introduction.

You're not alone in how you feel - your curiosity about guys and your desire to be submissive. It's not something to be scared by. We're conditioned by upbringing and perception of traditional gender roles to take the lead in sex with women. To be submissive and let another man take the lead is liberating, when you can just let go and enjoy. It has also given me a broader awareness of vulnerability and how women may feel during sex, which can lead to more empathy.

You're just having fun and doing what feels good with that Dildo Don't think of it as "a little bit gay" or "not straight". Forget about labels and just enjoy having fun. Lots of straight people have discovered the joys of anal play. You might enjoy a cock in you one day. It wouldn't make you any less of a man.

If you want to know anything or just want to shoot the breeze, just ask away in the forums.

 

[talbot57]

Hi Dylyn

Welcome to JUB

 

[Orislaan]

Hi Dylan and Welcome! I enjoy these forums and forums here and I hope you do too

I think BiBtm64’s post was spot on.

 

[bluebull93]

Hi Dylyn, welcome to JUB and thanks for the detailed introduction.

You're not alone in how you feel - your curiosity about guys and your desire to be submissive. It's not something to be scared by. We're conditioned by upbringing and perception of traditional gender roles to take the lead in sex with women. To be submissive and let another man take the lead is liberating, when you can just let go and enjoy. It has also given me a broader awareness of vulnerability and how women may feel during sex, which can lead to more empathy.

You're just having fun and doing what feels good with that Dildo Don't think of it as "a little bit gay" or "not straight". Forget about labels and just enjoy having fun. Lots of straight people have discovered the joys of anal play. You might enjoy a cock in you one day. It wouldn't make you any less of a man.

If you want to know anything or just want to shoot the breeze, just ask away in the forums.

Thank you so much for your lovely comment! You’re so kind… I’ve been curious for years and years tbh. I just think I might be trans or I love being feminine and submissive and even though I’m kinda tall lol. I even have hips and an ass like a girl . Mother natural is a bitch.

I feel a lot of shame sometimes, it does feel so taboo and wrong. I’m supposed to be masculine…. Dominant. I have been with women but I want to be submissive and tbh…. Ugh I don’t like admitting this lol!
I cum harder with gay or trans porn and using Dildo’s and stuff lol.

I totally get what you mean, it does make you feel vulnerable. And I really like that. I feel like getting fucked would make me so emotional and I’d just completely submit…. It makes me feel pathetic and also like good inside.

I don’t like labels either but I’m like sexually bipolar or something lmao. I’ve always liked being submissive though and I’ve tried SO hard to hide it. Deny it. I literally can’t anymore.

I stopped drinking but I’m a little pot-head haha. I noticed I feel all these emotions SO strongly now. Alcohol and similar substances dull you so much. Makes it easy to be closeted and deny everything.

I just wish I was normal lol! I get sad I don’t want to be like this but it’s who I am. Culture and society has conditioned me to feel SUCH shame about this. But, there’s no denying it anymore.

I think about having a boyfriend… dream
About it sometimes. Not a girlfriend really lol…. And it makes me feel things inside I haven’t before. Like.. a girl… I guess is all I can compare it too lol. I feel like an emotional little bitch sometimes. But, I want to hold and kiss a strong man.. have him hold me down. It’s pretty damn gay .

Idk I’m always confused but it’s pretty obvious what I am lol.

 

[JN_L]

Hello, everyone. My name is Dylyn and I’ve been lurking on gay forums for quite some time but never made an account. I’m a straight guy… I’ve only been with women. But, I’ve been curious since I was younger. I’m 32 now. Luckily I still have a baby face and look 10 years younger lol!

I’ve lied to myself for years about what I liked sexually and I’ve honestly even over compensated/tried to be more “manly” and pretend I didn’t like gay people. I know it’s toxic but it’s true… ;(.

In reality I’ve been playing with toys and cross-dressing, since I was in high school. I may be trans, is my biggest guess. I was raised by a single mother and I’ve had other things happen that I think influenced this. I also could just be a femboy/feminine guy.

With women I ALWAYS am dominant but I want to truly be submissive to the point I’ve pretended I’m a lesbian with girlfriends lol. I’ve never been with a guy but tbh I have a big Dildo I like to suck and obviously use/fuck myself with sometimes… I only see myself as submissive with a guy. The repressed feelings seem to be impossible to hide now. It scares me.

I honestly don’t want to be like this but it’s who I am. Oddly, when I smoke weed I seem to be able to accept myself more ha. I just dabbed some rosin before typing this….

Anyway, sorry for ranting. ADHD brain! I’d love to talk to other guys more and explore who I truly am. I can’t deny it anymore. Like LOL… I cum with a big Dildo in me, while pretending I’m getting tucked, and pretend like it’s not even a little bit gay. Or not straight! I think it’s time I stop lying to myself idk.

Much love everyone!

Welcome dude!

 

[xyxyxy]

Welcome to JUB

 

[G_Wired77]

welcome to the boards

 

[surewhynot]

hii! welcome to the forum. that's really hot

 

[Chillbro513]

Hello, everyone. My name is Dylyn and I’ve been lurking on gay forums for quite some time but never made an account. I’m a straight guy… I’ve only been with women. But, I’ve been curious since I was younger. I’m 32 now. Luckily I still have a baby face and look 10 years younger lol!

I’ve lied to myself for years about what I liked sexually and I’ve honestly even over compensated/tried to be more “manly” and pretend I didn’t like gay people. I know it’s toxic but it’s true… ;(.

In reality I’ve been playing with toys and cross-dressing, since I was in high school. I may be trans, is my biggest guess. I was raised by a single mother and I’ve had other things happen that I think influenced this. I also could just be a femboy/feminine guy.

With women I ALWAYS am dominant but I want to truly be submissive to the point I’ve pretended I’m a lesbian with girlfriends lol. I’ve never been with a guy but tbh I have a big Dildo I like to suck and obviously use/fuck myself with sometimes… I only see myself as submissive with a guy. The repressed feelings seem to be impossible to hide now. It scares me.

I honestly don’t want to be like this but it’s who I am. Oddly, when I smoke weed I seem to be able to accept myself more ha. I just dabbed some rosin before typing this….

Anyway, sorry for ranting. ADHD brain! I’d love to talk to other guys more and explore who I truly am. I can’t deny it anymore. Like LOL… I cum with a big Dildo in me, while pretending I’m getting tucked, and pretend like it’s not even a little bit gay. Or not straight! I think it’s time I stop lying to myself idk.

Much love everyone!

Hey Dylan, straight white male here. I feel ya buddy. I just recently started having cravings for big dick to suck on. Im looking for a long term bud so I dont have to look around every time I need some. Hmu