I was talking with my sister this evening about the upcoming tests to get ready for my next cancer treatment. Once we were done with all of that she started to ask me about my new phrase of "listening to your inner voice" shit. She asked me what I really meant by that and I told her that sometimes you just get a feeling, or you just know that you should or should not do something. It has nothing to do with morals or knowing right from wrong, it is just a "thing" that you sort of feel. I told her that was the situation that led me to volunteer for the clinical trials for cranial irradiation, which in turn showed that I did indeed already have lesions in the brain which are still too small for me to feel any symptoms.
I told her about the little voice being something with me all my life and I found that when I did not listen to it, I always regretted it later. It has been something as major as pulling over to the side of the road to let a car pass and find it up ahead later on in an accident, or as minor as not getting to know someone better and later finding out that they were stealing from people they knew. That sort of stuff.
Well, she asked me a question about if her getting creeped out sometimes, like last night, in her back yard while taking the dog out to poop would classify? I told her yes and she said I was full of shit. Now mind you, this is the sister who is not really afraid of much. She rides a Harley, will go toe to toe with anyone who threatens her or her family, is deadly with any type of firearm. I mean, for christ sakes she is 52 years old, has defined abs and weighs 125lbs.
Right after she told me that I was full of shit her husband came in and he was talking loud enough for me to hear over the phone, she asked me to hang on and then all of a sudden she was just saying Bulllshit! Bullshit! She came back to the phone and said that her husband was talking with thier neighbor down the road, and he was telling him about the mountain lion he saw in the field behind the woods of my sisters house last night. The neighbor said that this animal was huge and very well fed. Mind you that this is in the state of Connecticut.
Well, my sister has come to be a believer in her inner voice.
Do you believe in an inner voice, or whatever you want to call it? You know a subconscious part of you that seems to pick up on something that no other senses do? Just curious to hear other stories.....
I told her about the little voice being something with me all my life and I found that when I did not listen to it, I always regretted it later. It has been something as major as pulling over to the side of the road to let a car pass and find it up ahead later on in an accident, or as minor as not getting to know someone better and later finding out that they were stealing from people they knew. That sort of stuff.
Well, she asked me a question about if her getting creeped out sometimes, like last night, in her back yard while taking the dog out to poop would classify? I told her yes and she said I was full of shit. Now mind you, this is the sister who is not really afraid of much. She rides a Harley, will go toe to toe with anyone who threatens her or her family, is deadly with any type of firearm. I mean, for christ sakes she is 52 years old, has defined abs and weighs 125lbs.
Right after she told me that I was full of shit her husband came in and he was talking loud enough for me to hear over the phone, she asked me to hang on and then all of a sudden she was just saying Bulllshit! Bullshit! She came back to the phone and said that her husband was talking with thier neighbor down the road, and he was telling him about the mountain lion he saw in the field behind the woods of my sisters house last night. The neighbor said that this animal was huge and very well fed. Mind you that this is in the state of Connecticut.
Well, my sister has come to be a believer in her inner voice.
Do you believe in an inner voice, or whatever you want to call it? You know a subconscious part of you that seems to pick up on something that no other senses do? Just curious to hear other stories.....
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