You would think honesty is always the best policy, or whatever they say.
Well when I was younger I lied a lot and through that I realized what that did to people, me and the relationships. So at some point in my young adult life I decided that when it comes to the people I care about, I am going to be honest even about the most inane shit. I don't want grudges, I want things out on the table, unfortunately things didn't always work out that way but for the most part it seems to work.. until it doesn't.
No matter how honest I ended up being with the people I care about the most, it seems like in the end it doesn't matter because there is always doubt even though I feel like I am proving my word. I don't lie about who I am, my faults or what I want.
It's just like every other aspect of life, no matter how much you do, it's never enough. So what the fuck?
Even though this is how I feel, I will follow my honesty policy to the best of my ability. At this point, even when it comes to the people I care about the most, I have to prepare that they will never fully honestly trust me even if I do trust them.
Well when I was younger I lied a lot and through that I realized what that did to people, me and the relationships. So at some point in my young adult life I decided that when it comes to the people I care about, I am going to be honest even about the most inane shit. I don't want grudges, I want things out on the table, unfortunately things didn't always work out that way but for the most part it seems to work.. until it doesn't.
No matter how honest I ended up being with the people I care about the most, it seems like in the end it doesn't matter because there is always doubt even though I feel like I am proving my word. I don't lie about who I am, my faults or what I want.
It's just like every other aspect of life, no matter how much you do, it's never enough. So what the fuck?
Even though this is how I feel, I will follow my honesty policy to the best of my ability. At this point, even when it comes to the people I care about the most, I have to prepare that they will never fully honestly trust me even if I do trust them.