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First go
How can personal life be interesting?
Got the photos - worked out how to upload - Wheee!
Splashes of cum on the floor
Not from my photos - but the other excellent stuff on this site.
Today's sunny here - get on - in the garden - in my shorts - but cold - Cambridge always windy and cold from Siberia

My name - I realise that I ought to be built like a shithouse door, look like a 50-year-old motorbiker and be about as round as I'm tall, or as muscular as I'm hairy, to qualify as a proper bear. But I am hairy, so it just about counts, and I love hugs, so huggybear will do.

Sex in sauna thread got me thinking of my time in Canada - girlfriend in Kitchener - her sauna, just enough room for two to stand up fucking. S-w-e-a-t-y!!! And then, the same period of my life - taking my post from home into the college sauna - a big room full of big Canadian students getting hot enough so they could enjoy their Labatt's - reading my mail, which meant wearing my specs (blind without them) and hoping, always hoping I could somehow catch a glimpse of someone's cock and balls - never confident enough to come out with a 'come-out'...

In Japan and last year Korea, spent hours in the hot springs, baths, steam room, sauna - only three times seen guys I'd like to fool around with - once in Osaka years ago, a guy with a great slim muscley body, leaning back so his stuff was on display, with European size tackle - then in a hotel gym and spa in Tokyo - a real body builder with a nice package and good English - his family was away but he was driving off that day to go and meet up with them - if he'd been going off the next day I'd have suggested drinks and whatever next - still think of that; and then in Korea, in the midst of all these guys with small cocks and masses of hair, a father leading his young son around, with a beautiful pair of balls hanging below his cock. It's great being in those places, where everyone is so unselfconscious, no obligation to compare and see how stiff you can get.

I'm not someone who slaves over a hot PC; next instalment may be tonight, or tomorrow or may be a week or two weeks' time. Let's see

Have a great weekend!
HB

 

[huggybear]

Back at home
The sun shines, the cold outside beckons.
But here I sit, adding images to my homepage (thanks to one of the people responding to my first pics) and stream-of-consciousness to blogs.
Last week a good mix of business and personal, away in Oxford, Manchester, back home last night for a local association charity event with my wife.
Driving north on the motorway from Oxford , it was snowing, not too thick, coming towards the car so that I was travelling into a new world of beauty. I was late leaving, because I had dropped in on a friend, female, after she brought her boys back from taekwando and before her husband arrived home from work. Nice time for both of us.
My wife calls her 'Purple Glitter' because I came home from one college reunion (that's how I met this woman) covered in the stuff. I wonder how it got there?
Then in Manchester, meeting up for lunch with a short, dark-haired, solid but running to fat, sports-loving business contact, whom I could easily leap into bed with, not sure what attracts me - could be his cheeky smile and lips, or his energy and enthusiasm for what he does. Not possible to try it on this time, but there will I hope be a future occasion.
Off to a day and a half in south west of England now, staying with a good friend and cycling or walking on the hills in Dorest, staying at his place where he has a wife and kids - I think he is straight, at least never seen any signs of attraction towards males, but he's a good guy to be buddies with. I don't even know if he's cut or uncut. Not the sort of guy I want to find out about really. Brother type rather than sex-object!
Latest object of attention is an Italian guy, lawyer here to learn English, training at the gym - four ear-rings (1+3) and a left nipple piercing - do I want to pull on that one gently! or maybe as hard as he wants....
Intriguing habit of plucking at the front of his shorts as part of general nervous movements - tracked him down in the changing rooms as I was coming back from showers, smallish cock and balls, nice really, good thin, hairy body; I'd like to see what his prick is like hard, he's hopefully a 'grower', since he isn't a 'shower'. I need to start going to gym at lunchtime, that's when he's there during the week. And see whether I can improve his English. So that can be a plan for week after next when I'm back home.
Have a great time, readers (if any)
Merry Huggybear

 

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Thinking today of what makes us want body-to-body contact with men. Even if we are happily married and love our wives, like I do. But there is definitely some part of me that she can't satisfy and I don't satisfy when I'm cuddling her and making love. It's something that needs to be filled by a male body. I'm not turned on by overtly gay camp guys (that's a challenge then!!) but by regular masculine guys, the sort who could be older or younger brothers or best friends at school and college. The kind who might suck me and fuck me and enjoy it in a kind of animalistic natural way.
I'm really good at finding younger guys in their late 20s, or 30s, and helping them in business or personally, mentoring and giving them time. And I've stopped being afraid of telling guys like them that I find them attractive or that I love them. I also tell them that I don't want to impose myself on them, which gives them the choice of whether they want to stay friends or not.
I'm good at giving massages, so that's one way guys can have male-male contact without feeling threatened and actually getting good feelings out of it. But I would be quite happy for body-to-body, mouth-to-mouth, cock-to-cock and cock-to-mouth contact as well.
You could have quite a fantasy actually about massage. Suppose you say to your friend that it's best if both of you take your clothes off for a massage. Or maybe you go for a massage with a masseur and somehow find that you are leaning into them at nice but inappropriate moments, or your head suddenly comes up into their groin, gently, when they are leaning over you massaging your chest. Mmmm. Or they are doing lower back and pushing your cock into the couch then ask you to turn over while you've got a hard-on.......
News since last time. I have an unexpected half-sister who is older than me and have just met her and her husband. I have another half-sister I've known about for 5 years and have met and get on with. I am no longer an only child but am actually the baby in the family! And my daddy was clearly a pretty irresponsible guy - not married to girl number one, married to number two, and later divorced and married to my mother. Who else is there in the world who is my half-brother or sister. We can't ask him; not only did he escape from his first women but he escaped from my mum too, by going and working abroad then dying when I was 12.
No role models in life, none of my uncles were competent at that - no wonder I never got fixated on pussy-pounding but much prefer pleasuring people of both sexes, probably more than getting pleasure myself.
Problem with new half-sister - she has a daughter and son, both married with kids - the son shares facial features of my Dad and me, I'm wondering whether I'll be attracted to him and want to give him big hugs of sensuousness rather than a firm handshake of how nice to meet you.......

We'll cross that bridge later.

I'm entranced by the instructions at the bottom of the blog text panel that says, rather like Alice in Wonderland, increase size/decrease size. I'm hoping that there might be some magical connection between the instruction and my cock. Increase size.

I've been away from home for over a week and busy since then, and not in a position to write till now. Work-life balance is a bit haywire.
Next instalment of Stefano - this is an Italian guy, slim, nicely muscles, not excessive hair but a really nice snail-trail, small prick and balls but just the size you want to put in your mouth and see how much the prick grows before it chokes you... I got the hots for him but felt trying to enunciate that in a crowded gym was not the best tactic, or even in the locker-room setup. Saw him briefly, for the second time only, at the weekend in gym - his English comprehension is a bit slow and it's difficult to compete with the on-site music; but he joked that he spends the whole year building muscles for 15 days of holidays. The next stage is to try to be there when we are both changing so I can comment on his piercings and say that whenever I see a nipple piercing it makes me want to tug it, ever so gently, several times until the nipple stiffens and the corresponding effect begins in the prick - well I won't say that to him but I will see whether his nipple gets stiff, that is if he doesn't back off like a startled deer. If anyone knows the Renaissance artists from Venice who painted fauns and strange woodland gods in 15th, 16th centuries, he looks like one of those fauns - wouldn't be surprised if he indeed had goatlike fleecy legs and a little curly tail, as well as pointy ears.

Nearly midnight, sleep tight. Don't let your boyfriend bite.
Merry huggybear

 

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Having thought after last blog entry about how we waste such a lot of time and energy not saying what we mean, and occasionally cause a lot of grief by saying things at the wrong time to the wrong person, I decided to put this into practice with the guy who is here doing our house decoration - he's a great guy and we get on well, he has a washboard stomach I've seen a couple of times now as he pulls his tracksuit top off when he gets too hot and last time he did this I managed to stroke it as well, nicely hairy chest and a nice trail down. And I gave him a hug for Valentine's day so he knows that I have feelings about him. So I told him how much I fancied him and we agreed that, since he is in a relationship at the moment and is loyal to his girlfriend, there is no sex about it, but we can enjoy hugs and other male bonding activities. But I can't help confessing that hugging him gave me a hard-on. So I've warned him that if we ever get drunk or stoned together I'll probably try it on. He's happy with that, and I'm sure will either let things flow or put me firmly but gently in my place without getting alarmed and aggressive.
Ah well - I think the most important thing is not to make the pressure jump like a heavy monkey from my shoulders onto other people's. I mean, it is a relief to be able to say to someone what you think of them, and how much and in what way you think about them..... but it's something to be shared, not dumped on them.
Bi for now
Huggybear

 

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Long time
I've been thinking a lot again about relationships and about regrets.
Me, I'm someone who is pleased to wake up every day, even if I feel 'under the weather', because I know that I'll be doing something new.
My only regrets include not having a network of friends I can cuddle with.
I was 10 or 11 when a friend came round and stayed over and spent part of the night rubbing the tip of his prick against mine until he came. I know what this is called now, frottage - see www.men2menalliance.org. I didn't come for the first three or so times, and then it felt as if I was going to piss in the bed, but this stuff came out and I felt fired up after that. What partly turned me on was that, even at this guy's age, his prick was huge! - I guess by the time he was fully-mature it must have been 10". But I never knew him then. It must have been one of the experiences that has really left me yearning for male flesh. I have had to get used to the idea that, even though my prick is rather small when not erect and especially as so often in the English climate cold, it is actually over average length when fully up - usually 7" and if I'm really raring to go sometimes longer; but not thick. And my balls are small, which is one reason why I like balls that hang down and are nicely shaped and set off the prick in almost a sculptural way. Don't always find those. I have a friend I sometimes go to see, who has huge balls, but somehow it feels like handling rather unyielding objects, almost choking if you get them in your mouth. His prick is average or slightly below, and moderately thick, whereas if he was in proportion, he should be about 11" and rather trunk like!
I have a thing for a guy at the gym, a different one from the Italian - I haven't been in the gym at the right time to see him recently, anyway. This guy loves his body, it is very well sculpted though he isn't tall, and his package is in good proportion, and I enjoy just looking at him and talking to him when he's changing or putting body lotion on himslef - the next thing I'll say to him is that if he needs someone to put cream on the bits he can't reach I'll be happy to do it, and see what happens. I think he's comfortable enough with himself that he wouldn't get stroppy; but he's also seen my wife when she's been in the gym, so he'll wonder whether she knows. Which of course she does, that I'm attracted towards men; but since she also knows I love her, it will take a really determined lover to prise her away from me (ie her affair, not me and a boyfriend).

Since the last blog have been away for snow holiday with wife, daughter and her boyfriend, who is a mad guy who likes hugs, which is good. We ended up having a sauna together but no funny stuff, unless you count rather half-hearted massaging - difficult to massage your daughter's boyfriend's neck and shoulders in the nude when she's there as well.....

I'm getting really horny though, this is as promised a night-time blog, instead of either jacking off to all the pics of yurself on amateur or taking some new ones of myself. I have an idea based on the feeling you get when you are really horny and rushing round the house looking for things to fuck - you know, vases, fruit, condoms, no-one's there so it can't be people - I haven't tried the cat because I respect him too much and anyway I think I'm too big for him - I've found a new use for a hyacinth vase, the kind with a constricted neck and a tall bit for the hyacinth roots. The neck really makes you hard and the length is good for plunging - so perhaps I'll get some pix of that.
Sleep tight
Huggybear