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I almost killed myself last night

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I'm so happy you called your parents. And i am so happy that your dad got there as soon as he did.

You are going through a time when you can only see the bad. There will be good ahead, if you allow yourself to experience it.

I don't know anything about you. But i can tell that you are articulate and intelligent. It sounds like you are young and healthy. Just those things are gifts that benefit us all.

I'm not much help. I can't help you directly. I am happy you are seeing a doctor today.

Just know that i care that you survive. And when you do, i want you to help others who feel as you do now.

thank you.
 
Having gone through this with my ex, I think you may need to be admitted to a hospital for observation. If you're still feeling like suicide is a serious consideration, then a hospital stay is definitely in order. It'll help with not having access to any means to harm yourself, and they'll immediately begin treating you to help you get back into a better frame of mind.

There is absolutely no shame in being hospitalized for a brief stint to get yourself in order. Especially if you voluntarily check yourself in, that shows great courage and strength.

No matter what life throws at you, no matter how bad you feel about yourself, know that there are people that love you and care about you. Let that be the spark that carries you through this process.

Be well, and please keep us posted on your progress.
 
Thanks for posting this Arecibo. When you say you are feeling like shit, what do you mean exactly? Are you able to explain a bit more about your feelings?
 
justaguy said:
Thanks for posting this Arecibo. When you say you are feeling like shit, what do you mean exactly? Are you able to explain a bit more about your feelings?
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Ok ... I'm just reading more about your problems in your other thread.
 
(*8*)

Tell you doc later today how you feel, and please don't hold it back.

I have been in a similar place and the only thing that helped was getting help.

Good luck, and let us know what happens please.
 
(*8*) Hugs for what you're going through. I've literally been back from the brink myself. Please seek help. Let us know how it goes.

Please read these two op-eds I wrote over in Hot Topics.

I beg you to not make the same mistake I did, where I literally ended up somewhere between this world and the next, only to come back to this one - basically, back to square one...only, this time, with the doctor bills to show for it. Frankly I'm damn lucky to not have suffered permenant damage from what I did.
 
Sometimes we can be our most dangerous friend and trying to dialog with one's self is a bit like trying to listen to stereo with one ear phone. The weird thing is is that it makes so much sense while we are doing it.

One of the keys is to not watch the same movie or listen to the same song if all it does is confirm our aloneness, sadness or depression. No matter how much we tap into that "truth," it is only tapping into a part of us.

Our greatest flaw as humans is tunnel vision. That's when we feel most justified to take any course of action.

Physical pain gets us to a doctor. It might create a limp that people will notice and ask about. Most mental pain can be masked and when no one notices or feels too uncomfortable to ask about we feel justified to believe no one cares. In actuality they don't know what to do and they don't want to push anyone over the edge.

Stop making those bargains, please. If this doesn't happen by the time I finish my cigarette, etc. You are looking for a sign you already have. Alongside that core of mental pain there is the core of life and hope that has been masked but nonetheless is still there. Let that be your struggle for awhile. Let go of the reinforcing sad movies, books, songs, high bridges, etc, and try to remember what used to sustain those good feelings and the hopefulness. Get yourself a pet.

Get yourself to a mental health professional. You have a wound that needs attention and healing.
 
I'm glad you are seeing a doctor, and I agree with the poster above who said you may need a stay in hospital if you are regularly feeling like this. Certainly, you need ongoing care and counselling of some sort.

If you find yourself in this situation in future, do not hesitate to call 911. 911 is there for emergencies, and being at risk of death is a definite emergency.
 
OP--Sorry to hear this. It's sad to me and heartbreaking to know that you want to end your life. See someone about this immediately. Life is too beautiful and whatever it is that makes you want to take your life is not worth taking your life. I will def. have you in my prayers. PM me if you need someone to talk to.

HUGS!
 
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