Ey all! This is my first post so bare with me... (might possibly be long) 
Nov. 9, 2007. That's the date when I told my best friends I was gay.
Backstory:
I have 5 best friends in college. We've been studying Dentistry for almost five years now (four years and several months to be exact). Next year will be our last before we graduate. For all that time, I've never told them. I was struggling with my sexuality and have only in the last two years began to accept who I really was. But I wasn't sure if they would accept me. I wanted to tell them so badly, even just one of them, but I just didn't know how I would do it or how they would react. For those five years I lied to them about a lot of things - about my crushes, girls, and all that - just to cover up who I was. And it was destroying me inside, not being able to tell the closest friends I had.
Our small group actually has been broken up for a while now. We hadn't gone out for some time cause we were all busy with our own lives, with clinic work, three of them have girlfriends, one of them I actually fell in love with, fell out of love with, and I felt awkward with him so I tried to avoid him instead. So it would usually be me and one or two of them hanging out at a time. At this point, I barely wanted to tell them anything.
The Night:
So we finally planned to go out. Just the six of the us. Unfortunately, one of them wasn't able to come, so it was just us five. We went out, had dinner at a nice pizza place, then we went back to my place (a small condo unit) so we could get drunk. Hehe. (We've never done this before - the whole booze night - so we thought we'd try it.)
So guess what? I got really, really drunk. And halfway through playing poker, I felt all my previous inhibitions begin to disappear. I told them I needed to rest, so I stopped playing and went to the bed. Lying down, I did my best to suppress those three words that were about to come out of my mouth. It wasn't working. I told them I had to go the bathroom, and off I went, locking myself up so I wouldn't be able to tell them.
It didn't help. I opened the door, and still red and drunk, I laid on the floor. They started getting worried. That's when I finally broke, and told them.
"I'm gay."
Outcome:
It was the biggest relief of my life. The next day, I felt the world was so much brighter (Haha, I know that sounds cheesy and what not). It was like I was a whole new person. I was finally me! and it felt so good.
One of them texted me this the following day:
"I would like to thank you for being open with us. Just want you to know that I accept you for who you are. It doesn't matter if we have different tastes. You are John, my friend, and NOTHING can ever change that."
Current News:
The first week was a bit awkward, but now, it's getting better. I even talk to them about my "real" crushes, though not all the time, cause even I feel awkward about it sometimes. Hehe. They even told me they had no idea that I could ever be gay. But that's definitely changed.
Anyways, I feel so happy now. All I have to do is tell the other one who wasn't able to go to our "night out" about me... oh yeah, and find a boyfriend. Haha.
Just a little tidbit - one of the biggest things that probably helped me to tell them, aside from the booze of course, was reading through the JUB forums. I've been reading for quite some time especially in this section, about "Coming Out" and all the other posts here. I just wanna say thank you. You guys were a big help.
Nov. 9, 2007. That's the date when I told my best friends I was gay.
Backstory:
I have 5 best friends in college. We've been studying Dentistry for almost five years now (four years and several months to be exact). Next year will be our last before we graduate. For all that time, I've never told them. I was struggling with my sexuality and have only in the last two years began to accept who I really was. But I wasn't sure if they would accept me. I wanted to tell them so badly, even just one of them, but I just didn't know how I would do it or how they would react. For those five years I lied to them about a lot of things - about my crushes, girls, and all that - just to cover up who I was. And it was destroying me inside, not being able to tell the closest friends I had.
Our small group actually has been broken up for a while now. We hadn't gone out for some time cause we were all busy with our own lives, with clinic work, three of them have girlfriends, one of them I actually fell in love with, fell out of love with, and I felt awkward with him so I tried to avoid him instead. So it would usually be me and one or two of them hanging out at a time. At this point, I barely wanted to tell them anything.
The Night:
So we finally planned to go out. Just the six of the us. Unfortunately, one of them wasn't able to come, so it was just us five. We went out, had dinner at a nice pizza place, then we went back to my place (a small condo unit) so we could get drunk. Hehe. (We've never done this before - the whole booze night - so we thought we'd try it.)
So guess what? I got really, really drunk. And halfway through playing poker, I felt all my previous inhibitions begin to disappear. I told them I needed to rest, so I stopped playing and went to the bed. Lying down, I did my best to suppress those three words that were about to come out of my mouth. It wasn't working. I told them I had to go the bathroom, and off I went, locking myself up so I wouldn't be able to tell them.
It didn't help. I opened the door, and still red and drunk, I laid on the floor. They started getting worried. That's when I finally broke, and told them.
"I'm gay."
Outcome:
It was the biggest relief of my life. The next day, I felt the world was so much brighter (Haha, I know that sounds cheesy and what not). It was like I was a whole new person. I was finally me! and it felt so good.
One of them texted me this the following day:
"I would like to thank you for being open with us. Just want you to know that I accept you for who you are. It doesn't matter if we have different tastes. You are John, my friend, and NOTHING can ever change that."
Current News:
The first week was a bit awkward, but now, it's getting better. I even talk to them about my "real" crushes, though not all the time, cause even I feel awkward about it sometimes. Hehe. They even told me they had no idea that I could ever be gay. But that's definitely changed.
Anyways, I feel so happy now. All I have to do is tell the other one who wasn't able to go to our "night out" about me... oh yeah, and find a boyfriend. Haha.
Just a little tidbit - one of the biggest things that probably helped me to tell them, aside from the booze of course, was reading through the JUB forums. I've been reading for quite some time especially in this section, about "Coming Out" and all the other posts here. I just wanna say thank you. You guys were a big help.
