I have been in a similar situation here, I met this guy on the web through a mutual friend 7 months ago, it was alright, we were just friends until a day he called me his honey, at first I got a bit scared because I hadn't really accepted being gay at the time, but I decided to ignore it, he started doing that more frequently, replying to me as honey, sweet, dear or even some cute nicknames, it really scared me at first but I slowly started accepting it. A day we were talking and we decided to open ourselves a little more, found out that he had a bad childhood just like me, we had so many disasters in our lives in common it was even a bit weird, and in the middle of that conversation I knew that I felt something for him, he wasn't just a good friend, he was more than that, and I got scared of that.
I made a mistake right after that, the fact I couldn't be with him(he lives in another country), couldn't talk enough with him(his timezone is 12 hours ahead of mine) and that I just didn't want to accept falling in love for another man got me into a severe depression, so I stopped talking with him, trying to forget him.
He tried to contact me a few times during this period, saying that he missed me, and I'd cry every time he sent me a message
I met a really nice girl, and I thought that I just was feeling alone, I didn't really love him, and after 2 weeks of spending the whole day with that girl, I noticed that I was wrong, I loved him and that I had to accept it. I spent 3 days without sleeping thinking in a way to talk to him saying how I was sorry and everything, but I just couldn't do it, I was so ashamed of myself it hurt...
One saturday I got to speak with him, explained everything and said that he didn't need to forgive me, he didn't even let me type everything and said, "I forgive you sweet, I can't live without you". I told him that I only did it because I loved him and that I was scared of everything that was going on, when I finished that sentence I started crying, he asked me while I was crying, I told him it was because I loved him and that I'd never forgive myself for doing what I did, he then said: "I love you too, and I forgave you for it already, and if you aren't going to forgive yourself for it, I'm going to forgive you for yourself." After that day, I knew that I was right, I loved him and that I made the right choice going back to him.
We are now in a long distance open relationship, he has his boyfriend, I don't really have anyone because I'm too shy, but it works for me. He's older than me 1 year, we have already exchanged selfies, I'm virgin and he isn't.
Sometimes he is just scared of it, give it some time, try to talk about your life and get him to talk about his too, getting intimate is an important part of relationship, but having your own space is as important as.
I made a mistake right after that, the fact I couldn't be with him(he lives in another country), couldn't talk enough with him(his timezone is 12 hours ahead of mine) and that I just didn't want to accept falling in love for another man got me into a severe depression, so I stopped talking with him, trying to forget him.
He tried to contact me a few times during this period, saying that he missed me, and I'd cry every time he sent me a message
I met a really nice girl, and I thought that I just was feeling alone, I didn't really love him, and after 2 weeks of spending the whole day with that girl, I noticed that I was wrong, I loved him and that I had to accept it. I spent 3 days without sleeping thinking in a way to talk to him saying how I was sorry and everything, but I just couldn't do it, I was so ashamed of myself it hurt...
One saturday I got to speak with him, explained everything and said that he didn't need to forgive me, he didn't even let me type everything and said, "I forgive you sweet, I can't live without you". I told him that I only did it because I loved him and that I was scared of everything that was going on, when I finished that sentence I started crying, he asked me while I was crying, I told him it was because I loved him and that I'd never forgive myself for doing what I did, he then said: "I love you too, and I forgave you for it already, and if you aren't going to forgive yourself for it, I'm going to forgive you for yourself." After that day, I knew that I was right, I loved him and that I made the right choice going back to him.
We are now in a long distance open relationship, he has his boyfriend, I don't really have anyone because I'm too shy, but it works for me. He's older than me 1 year, we have already exchanged selfies, I'm virgin and he isn't.
Sometimes he is just scared of it, give it some time, try to talk about your life and get him to talk about his too, getting intimate is an important part of relationship, but having your own space is as important as.