Luv_Trail
JUB Addict
...but I couldn't control myself because I was drunk...
To give you guys a little background....I'm Bisexual and in the closet to many people but not all. I'm in love with one of my best friends who doesnt know Im into guys. To make matters worse he is one of my coworkers. I think he's a wonderful person and we always have a really good time when we go out. I find him very attractive, sexy, funny intelligent, kind, gentle, charming. He's says he's straight but I really have my doubts and I think he's at least Bisexual. I've caught him checking me out and I've caught him checking out guys on the street a time or two. A couple of his friends think he's gay and they have asked me if I thought so too. He's never had a girlfriend (he's 25). He constantly has one night stands with girls that I feel he is way out of their league. There was this one girl who I thought was really nice and pretty and he dated her briefly for a few months and just used her as a booty call when he was drunk. I saw him kiss her a few times and to me he looked like he was forceing himself to do it. Whenever he has sex he's wasted drunk....and I've never heard of a time that he's done it sober.
Last night we went to a club that had a Halloween party. Everyone was dressed up in all sorts of crazy costumes. We had a great time and drank alot. The club is very far from my home so my friend told me I could crash at his place like I've done in the past (no big deal). He whinds up talking to this girl who was in my eyes and Im sure in the eyes of many, very unattractive. SHe was a short stubby overweight girl with droopy little breasts, a wide back, big gut, thin little chicken legs and an ugly face. When I first saw him talking to her I thought she was one of his old friends from high school or something. After a while I realized that he was going to have another one night stand. I was going to go home but he insisted on me going back with him to her place so I did.. He kept apologizing for taking me along and kept saying he didnt want me traveling alone at night. Inside I was dieing...The guy I loved was going to fuck someone else.
We get to her apartment and drink a beer.. she gives a me a blanket and directs me to the couch and they go to her bedroom.....
Here's where my guilt comes in... I waited about 10 minutes and decided to go to the bedroom door to listen in on them. When I get there she had the light on in her room and in the hallway where I was standing was dark so they couldnt see me...the door was glass and she had see thru material covering it. ..So I could see right thru as plain as day. They were speaking lowly so as not to wake me, I suppose. But didnt realize that I was standing right there anyway. A part of me wanted to cry, another wanted to go back to the couch, another wanted to stay and watch... That's the part I listened to... I stood and watched the whole thing..After watching him fuck this girl I still think he's gay because of the following...
at first they were lieing on their backs side to side and I saw him slip his dick thru his boxers... He started jerking off to get hard...then he got on top of her and started kissing...it took him a while to get hard and when he did he didnt take off his underwear..He started fucking her with his underwear on...and he didnt wear a condom (so bad especially since its a one night stand and no telling who she has done this with b4)... He fucked her in a few positions and the entire thing lasted like 15-20 minutes tops. He came twice and the second time he came inside her...Then he kept apologizing to her for doing that... I couldnt help but think to myself that he's not such a nice person for doing that. Overall, to me it seemed almost like he was forceing himself to have sex with her because in his mind that is what he is supposed to do; be straight and have sex with women...Its true that she was really unattractive so maybe thats why he seemed like he was forcing himself. but I know Im BIsexual and I would never ever in a million years fuck that girl. If I were this girl I would not have been satisfied by the way he fucked her. After he came a second time he moved his hand to her pussy and asked he if she wanted him to finger her so that she could cum.. She pushed his hand away and said no...Then he quickly rolled over and turned out the light and they went to sleep.
In the morning it was time to leave and she said she had to go to work.. She didnt ask for his number..didnt kiss him goodbye...nothing...he didnt care.. WHen she wasnt looking he'd stare at me and make the motions with his mouth without making a noise, "WHAT DID I DO?, SHE'S A BEAST". On the way home he kept bragging about how he fucked the shit out of her for an hour or so and I was just like, "really!" he had no idea that I saw his terrible performance. He told me that it was a really long time since he had sex and that he was just really horny and thats why he hooked up with her.... ...
I feel really guilty for watching him fuck her but at the same time I feel sad for him....sad that such a goodlooking guy would stoop to that level just to get his rocks off....
I really think he's Bisexual or maybe even gay. What do you guys think? And dO you think I was wrong for what I did and if you do can you at least understand why I did it?
To give you guys a little background....I'm Bisexual and in the closet to many people but not all. I'm in love with one of my best friends who doesnt know Im into guys. To make matters worse he is one of my coworkers. I think he's a wonderful person and we always have a really good time when we go out. I find him very attractive, sexy, funny intelligent, kind, gentle, charming. He's says he's straight but I really have my doubts and I think he's at least Bisexual. I've caught him checking me out and I've caught him checking out guys on the street a time or two. A couple of his friends think he's gay and they have asked me if I thought so too. He's never had a girlfriend (he's 25). He constantly has one night stands with girls that I feel he is way out of their league. There was this one girl who I thought was really nice and pretty and he dated her briefly for a few months and just used her as a booty call when he was drunk. I saw him kiss her a few times and to me he looked like he was forceing himself to do it. Whenever he has sex he's wasted drunk....and I've never heard of a time that he's done it sober.
Last night we went to a club that had a Halloween party. Everyone was dressed up in all sorts of crazy costumes. We had a great time and drank alot. The club is very far from my home so my friend told me I could crash at his place like I've done in the past (no big deal). He whinds up talking to this girl who was in my eyes and Im sure in the eyes of many, very unattractive. SHe was a short stubby overweight girl with droopy little breasts, a wide back, big gut, thin little chicken legs and an ugly face. When I first saw him talking to her I thought she was one of his old friends from high school or something. After a while I realized that he was going to have another one night stand. I was going to go home but he insisted on me going back with him to her place so I did.. He kept apologizing for taking me along and kept saying he didnt want me traveling alone at night. Inside I was dieing...The guy I loved was going to fuck someone else.
We get to her apartment and drink a beer.. she gives a me a blanket and directs me to the couch and they go to her bedroom.....
Here's where my guilt comes in... I waited about 10 minutes and decided to go to the bedroom door to listen in on them. When I get there she had the light on in her room and in the hallway where I was standing was dark so they couldnt see me...the door was glass and she had see thru material covering it. ..So I could see right thru as plain as day. They were speaking lowly so as not to wake me, I suppose. But didnt realize that I was standing right there anyway. A part of me wanted to cry, another wanted to go back to the couch, another wanted to stay and watch... That's the part I listened to... I stood and watched the whole thing..After watching him fuck this girl I still think he's gay because of the following...
at first they were lieing on their backs side to side and I saw him slip his dick thru his boxers... He started jerking off to get hard...then he got on top of her and started kissing...it took him a while to get hard and when he did he didnt take off his underwear..He started fucking her with his underwear on...and he didnt wear a condom (so bad especially since its a one night stand and no telling who she has done this with b4)... He fucked her in a few positions and the entire thing lasted like 15-20 minutes tops. He came twice and the second time he came inside her...Then he kept apologizing to her for doing that... I couldnt help but think to myself that he's not such a nice person for doing that. Overall, to me it seemed almost like he was forceing himself to have sex with her because in his mind that is what he is supposed to do; be straight and have sex with women...Its true that she was really unattractive so maybe thats why he seemed like he was forcing himself. but I know Im BIsexual and I would never ever in a million years fuck that girl. If I were this girl I would not have been satisfied by the way he fucked her. After he came a second time he moved his hand to her pussy and asked he if she wanted him to finger her so that she could cum.. She pushed his hand away and said no...Then he quickly rolled over and turned out the light and they went to sleep.
In the morning it was time to leave and she said she had to go to work.. She didnt ask for his number..didnt kiss him goodbye...nothing...he didnt care.. WHen she wasnt looking he'd stare at me and make the motions with his mouth without making a noise, "WHAT DID I DO?, SHE'S A BEAST". On the way home he kept bragging about how he fucked the shit out of her for an hour or so and I was just like, "really!" he had no idea that I saw his terrible performance. He told me that it was a really long time since he had sex and that he was just really horny and thats why he hooked up with her.... ...
I feel really guilty for watching him fuck her but at the same time I feel sad for him....sad that such a goodlooking guy would stoop to that level just to get his rocks off....
I really think he's Bisexual or maybe even gay. What do you guys think? And dO you think I was wrong for what I did and if you do can you at least understand why I did it?
Your friend FUCKED a girl, not you. 
