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It is interesting how, oftentimes, sexuality isn't perfectly linear, isn't it? This might be long. I apologize. I'm long-winded and have little sense of brevity. However, if you do read it, I appreciate you and hope you manage to be turned on by the contents. Let me know. 
I'll explain my backstory with my lifelong best friend in a bit, but I also wanted to preface everything with a bit about me.
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I have always identified as straight. Full disclosure: I'm more attracted to women. It's just my natural disposition, I guess. I have mostly always been assured in my sexuality, and when I see a good looking man, I have no qualms admitting it right then and there, openly and honestly. "That's a damn handsome guy!" I have always been able to admire handsome men, and even on a negative kind of side, I have felt envy when I feel they are better looking than me. Ah, comparison is the thief of joy, right?!
With that being said, I have never been immediately sexually attracted to another man. I mean, I've never looked at another man and thought, "I want to suck and fuck him." I like performing anal sex, but I love pussy: the feeling, the warmth, the wetness. I just prefer it. I couldn't be in an actual relationship -- the trials & errors of life, the vanilla mundane days of the week and stresses of daily living entailed -- with a man, just because there's no attraction beyond what I'm about to continue bloviating about.
However, and I have no idea why, I really like cock. Over on Reddit, the 'redditor cum' subreddit in particular, I love watching and hearing guys cum. Seeing cum blast out of their cocks, hearing them groan and moan from pleasure... I don't know why, but it makes me hard as a rock.
I'm extremely attracted to shemales/tgirls. Why? Best of both worlds, I guess. She presents as a woman, but has a cock. I have always wanted to have sex with a shemale/tgirl, but alas, I've never had the opportunity. I can only imagine it would be some of the hottest sex in the world. I'd love to suck their cocks, fuck them and cum all over each other. Drives me crazy and makes me ache just thinking about it.
Furthermore, I'm interested in the cuckold/hotwife lifestyle. You would never expect this of me if you met me. I'm tall, 'traditionally masculine', decent sized cock, deep voice, typically dominant in the bedroom... but every woman I've ever been with, I've wanted to watch them fuck other men: men with better bodies and bigger cocks than me. It has only happened in one relationship. Even more, I've wanted to suck a man's cock after he has fucked one of my girlfriends. The idea of sucking her pussy juices off his hard cock is so hot to me.
Going back to what I said about guys cumming a couple of paragraphs above: my ex-girlfriend used to post on the gonewild-style subreddits. A guy we sold a pair of her dirty panties to shot a video of himself sniffing them while jerking off, and he recorded himself cumming. By far and away one of the best things I've ever watched. Turned me on more than I can say.
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About my best friend:
I have had gay experiences.
My lifelong best friend also identifies as straight. Hell, he's married and has a family. As far as I know, unless he's hidden it, I'm the only man he's ever been with.
Many years ago, when we were both virgins, we used to experiment in bed. He'd stay over, we'd play video games and then we'd sleep in the same bed, a queen-size bed in the guest bedroom. I have no idea how it started, but we 'practiced kissing' by making out with one another, and we both got turned on during the process.
Not long after that, but we would lie in bed, naked, making out, humping our cocks together. That always felt amazing. Even hotter when we would get our precum on each other.
Again, I can't remember how or why we started doing this. It has been far too long ago. Curiosity? I guess so. Sometime afterwards this began, he started sucking my cock regularly when he'd come over. Up until I was 24-years-old, he was the only person to ever be able to make me cum with their mouth. To this day, I'll contend that no woman has ever sucked my cock as well as he did. Only one woman has come close, an ex who professed to love sucking cock, and she was good at it, but still, even her cocksucking abilities couldn't hold a candle to my best friend's. The way he would give the most perfect attention to the shaft and my head. He wouldn't lick and suck on the head until it was irritated; he knew, practically by intuition, when to switch it up and focus on my shaft. I loved it when he would purse his lips together and glide them up and down my cock.
Much like the kissing and blowjobs, I don't know how the anal began. I wish I could remember how he propositioned me to fuck him in the ass, but I do remember the time it took just situating my cock in his asshole. Plenty of patience. We didn't have any lube. We would use our saliva, which obviously wasn't the best method. He would be in some serious pain assisting my cock into his backside, but he would persevere until we made it happen. I would always ask him if he wanted to back out, just in case, but he wanted it.
He is the reason that, at one point, when we were virgins, I was obsessed with anal. I didn't know what pussy felt like during that time. My only reference of fucking a hole on a body was his asshole, so when I saw women I was sexually attracted to, I thought about anal and rarely gave the idea of PIV sex much thought. That's a different story these days, but I just wanted to mention this. He's the reason I'm so wild about women's asses: the smell and taste of a woman. All linking back to our days in the bedroom.
Anyway, it always felt good once he adjusted to me being inside of him. I thought it was hot how hard he would always get. He always said that it felt amazing. I've never wanted it up the ass. Not because I'm a prude or anything, but I've just never been inclined. None of the women I've been with have been into wanting to finger, lick or otherwise fuck my ass with a strap-on or something either; I suppose I'd give it a shot if a woman wanted to, but it's not a top priority for me. I like doing the penetrating.
Soon afterwards, I started sucking his cock. Remember what I said about how I claimed he gave me the best blowjobs ever? Keep that in mind in a bit. I loved the feel of his cock in my mouth. It turned me on to know he was getting pleasure out of it. I loved the feel of his warm cum on my hands when I would jack him off as well as the sight of seeing it all over my hands as well.
This lasted off and on for about a year or two, and then we started our dating lives with women. At one point, we didn't see each other for a couple of years. Not for any reason other than life becoming busy.
In 2014, we started hanging out often again. This time, he lived in a little townhouse with his girlfriend Alisa. We would have 'boys nights' once a Saturday per month. She would go stay the night at her parents and we would grab beer, liquor and watch UFC pay-per-views in the living room.
The first few times, nothing sexual happened, but we would talk about it. "Remember how I used to pound that ass?" jokingly. On one particular night, in March 2014, I initiated it. I put my hand on his crotch and started rubbing it. It wasn't long before he had his jeans off and I was stroking his cock. We made our way to their bedroom, got in their bed and things escalated between the two of us. Around this time is when he told me I gave him the best blowjobs he's ever had as well. This is why I wonder if men just instinctively know how to suck a cock better than women, as we know what feels good and what doesn't. Weak hypothesis, I know.
We only had about four or five sexual experiences together in 2014, and that was the last time we ever did anything. We see each other a couple of times a year, but it's just us being buds. Talking shit to one another. Talking about life. We have had a lot of wild experiences over the years. Many memories. He didn't marry Alisa, but a different woman. He has always had luck with women. I've had good luck, too, but less relationships that are longer term.
I'm not married, but I've been with my girlfriend for almost six years. Every time she gives me a blowjob, I think about how much better my best friend was (is?) at it than her. I still think of the memories often.
I just wanted to share some of my story. I'm sorry if this was poorly and hastily written. I wrote it on a whim.
I'll explain my backstory with my lifelong best friend in a bit, but I also wanted to preface everything with a bit about me.
--------------------
I have always identified as straight. Full disclosure: I'm more attracted to women. It's just my natural disposition, I guess. I have mostly always been assured in my sexuality, and when I see a good looking man, I have no qualms admitting it right then and there, openly and honestly. "That's a damn handsome guy!" I have always been able to admire handsome men, and even on a negative kind of side, I have felt envy when I feel they are better looking than me. Ah, comparison is the thief of joy, right?!
With that being said, I have never been immediately sexually attracted to another man. I mean, I've never looked at another man and thought, "I want to suck and fuck him." I like performing anal sex, but I love pussy: the feeling, the warmth, the wetness. I just prefer it. I couldn't be in an actual relationship -- the trials & errors of life, the vanilla mundane days of the week and stresses of daily living entailed -- with a man, just because there's no attraction beyond what I'm about to continue bloviating about.
However, and I have no idea why, I really like cock. Over on Reddit, the 'redditor cum' subreddit in particular, I love watching and hearing guys cum. Seeing cum blast out of their cocks, hearing them groan and moan from pleasure... I don't know why, but it makes me hard as a rock.
I'm extremely attracted to shemales/tgirls. Why? Best of both worlds, I guess. She presents as a woman, but has a cock. I have always wanted to have sex with a shemale/tgirl, but alas, I've never had the opportunity. I can only imagine it would be some of the hottest sex in the world. I'd love to suck their cocks, fuck them and cum all over each other. Drives me crazy and makes me ache just thinking about it.
Furthermore, I'm interested in the cuckold/hotwife lifestyle. You would never expect this of me if you met me. I'm tall, 'traditionally masculine', decent sized cock, deep voice, typically dominant in the bedroom... but every woman I've ever been with, I've wanted to watch them fuck other men: men with better bodies and bigger cocks than me. It has only happened in one relationship. Even more, I've wanted to suck a man's cock after he has fucked one of my girlfriends. The idea of sucking her pussy juices off his hard cock is so hot to me.
Going back to what I said about guys cumming a couple of paragraphs above: my ex-girlfriend used to post on the gonewild-style subreddits. A guy we sold a pair of her dirty panties to shot a video of himself sniffing them while jerking off, and he recorded himself cumming. By far and away one of the best things I've ever watched. Turned me on more than I can say.
--------------------
About my best friend:
I have had gay experiences.
My lifelong best friend also identifies as straight. Hell, he's married and has a family. As far as I know, unless he's hidden it, I'm the only man he's ever been with.
Many years ago, when we were both virgins, we used to experiment in bed. He'd stay over, we'd play video games and then we'd sleep in the same bed, a queen-size bed in the guest bedroom. I have no idea how it started, but we 'practiced kissing' by making out with one another, and we both got turned on during the process.
Not long after that, but we would lie in bed, naked, making out, humping our cocks together. That always felt amazing. Even hotter when we would get our precum on each other.
Again, I can't remember how or why we started doing this. It has been far too long ago. Curiosity? I guess so. Sometime afterwards this began, he started sucking my cock regularly when he'd come over. Up until I was 24-years-old, he was the only person to ever be able to make me cum with their mouth. To this day, I'll contend that no woman has ever sucked my cock as well as he did. Only one woman has come close, an ex who professed to love sucking cock, and she was good at it, but still, even her cocksucking abilities couldn't hold a candle to my best friend's. The way he would give the most perfect attention to the shaft and my head. He wouldn't lick and suck on the head until it was irritated; he knew, practically by intuition, when to switch it up and focus on my shaft. I loved it when he would purse his lips together and glide them up and down my cock.
Much like the kissing and blowjobs, I don't know how the anal began. I wish I could remember how he propositioned me to fuck him in the ass, but I do remember the time it took just situating my cock in his asshole. Plenty of patience. We didn't have any lube. We would use our saliva, which obviously wasn't the best method. He would be in some serious pain assisting my cock into his backside, but he would persevere until we made it happen. I would always ask him if he wanted to back out, just in case, but he wanted it.
He is the reason that, at one point, when we were virgins, I was obsessed with anal. I didn't know what pussy felt like during that time. My only reference of fucking a hole on a body was his asshole, so when I saw women I was sexually attracted to, I thought about anal and rarely gave the idea of PIV sex much thought. That's a different story these days, but I just wanted to mention this. He's the reason I'm so wild about women's asses: the smell and taste of a woman. All linking back to our days in the bedroom.
Anyway, it always felt good once he adjusted to me being inside of him. I thought it was hot how hard he would always get. He always said that it felt amazing. I've never wanted it up the ass. Not because I'm a prude or anything, but I've just never been inclined. None of the women I've been with have been into wanting to finger, lick or otherwise fuck my ass with a strap-on or something either; I suppose I'd give it a shot if a woman wanted to, but it's not a top priority for me. I like doing the penetrating.
Soon afterwards, I started sucking his cock. Remember what I said about how I claimed he gave me the best blowjobs ever? Keep that in mind in a bit. I loved the feel of his cock in my mouth. It turned me on to know he was getting pleasure out of it. I loved the feel of his warm cum on my hands when I would jack him off as well as the sight of seeing it all over my hands as well.
This lasted off and on for about a year or two, and then we started our dating lives with women. At one point, we didn't see each other for a couple of years. Not for any reason other than life becoming busy.
In 2014, we started hanging out often again. This time, he lived in a little townhouse with his girlfriend Alisa. We would have 'boys nights' once a Saturday per month. She would go stay the night at her parents and we would grab beer, liquor and watch UFC pay-per-views in the living room.
The first few times, nothing sexual happened, but we would talk about it. "Remember how I used to pound that ass?" jokingly. On one particular night, in March 2014, I initiated it. I put my hand on his crotch and started rubbing it. It wasn't long before he had his jeans off and I was stroking his cock. We made our way to their bedroom, got in their bed and things escalated between the two of us. Around this time is when he told me I gave him the best blowjobs he's ever had as well. This is why I wonder if men just instinctively know how to suck a cock better than women, as we know what feels good and what doesn't. Weak hypothesis, I know.
We only had about four or five sexual experiences together in 2014, and that was the last time we ever did anything. We see each other a couple of times a year, but it's just us being buds. Talking shit to one another. Talking about life. We have had a lot of wild experiences over the years. Many memories. He didn't marry Alisa, but a different woman. He has always had luck with women. I've had good luck, too, but less relationships that are longer term.
I'm not married, but I've been with my girlfriend for almost six years. Every time she gives me a blowjob, I think about how much better my best friend was (is?) at it than her. I still think of the memories often.
I just wanted to share some of my story. I'm sorry if this was poorly and hastily written. I wrote it on a whim.
