OK..for the records, I am not prude or anything, but I think most people will think that I am crazy or something.
The thing is, last week was spring break, I go to school in Boston. So during spring break, I went to San Francisco by myself. I am almost nineteen, never dated anyone and still a virgin.
So I was in San Fran, and I wanted to go to one of those famous gay sex/porn stores to just explore, cuz I was really curious. So one day I went into this store with an arcade (glory hole booths). I was very nervous when I got in, I started talking to the manager in the store, just asking him questions about those arcades like a curious child. Then I decided to go in and see what happens. I paid and I went downstairs to the arcade. Never once in my life did I see so many porn videos playing in one place. I started walking around, wandering. Some of the guys kept giving me eye contacts, I just pretend I did not see them and kept on wandering, I was scared I guess... So for more than an hour I just walked around, going into random booths to watch some interesting porn, I did not masturbate at all, I did not even took my penis out. When I was walking around, I felt the vibe that not a lot of people were interested in me. There were only middle-aged men and a few younger men.
And as I was walking around again, a really slim, tall, and beautiful man came down. I instantly saw him, and secretly thought - he is the perfect type for me, but he is not gonna be interested in me anyways, I better forget about it.
I kept walking around, and I noticed this beautiful guy was always looking at me, once he even smiled at me and wanted to say hi but I just walked away..unintentionally. So there is this bigger and darker play room with leather curtain and stuff. So I walked in there to check it out. He walked in and introduced himself to me. He was such a gentleman, he was smiling, and we did that formal hand-shake thing. We talked a little (about our lives), and he invited me to go to the booths with him, so I did. We went into separate but connected booths. We sat down, and we talked through the glory hole. He pulled his penis out (sitting) and started masturbating, asking me if I mind him doing that I said no. I did not do anything except talking to him. He told me he was 32 and lives in California. And I talked about Boston and school life and stuff like that, we also talked about relationships. And for 20 minutes, I felt like we got to know each other better, we were like friends. He told me I had a great body, and he complemented me. He gently asked me if I could show my butt to him, and I said ok. I pulled my pants down (my underwear was on), and he looked through the hole, and he said I had a great butt. And then he asked me if I wanted to go into that playroom so that we don't have to have a wall between us, so I said ok.
We went in there, and he chose one of the corners with a leather curtain. We walked in and he started masturbating. He asked me if it is ok to take of my pants and see my body. I said ok so he did. He was rubbing my butt and touching my penis and stuff like that, and he kept telling me I have a great body. So he came rubbing my butt. I did not come or anything cuz I did not masturbate at all. But in the end we walked out of the room, and he was protecting me from other people when we walked out cuz there were a lot of people peeping. Finally, he hugged and thanked me, and then he left.
From then on, I miss and think about him every day. I am one of those stupid people when someone like him so perfect comes into my life and with all the stuff happened I get really attached to him. I did not get his number, I don't even remember his first name
All I can do now is to hoping to see him in my dreams I feel so lost, and I feel like part of my soul is taken away. I am dying to meet him again. This is the first time I have ever felt that way for a person. I guess he was the first one to like me for who I really am. 
what do u guys think?
The thing is, last week was spring break, I go to school in Boston. So during spring break, I went to San Francisco by myself. I am almost nineteen, never dated anyone and still a virgin.
So I was in San Fran, and I wanted to go to one of those famous gay sex/porn stores to just explore, cuz I was really curious. So one day I went into this store with an arcade (glory hole booths). I was very nervous when I got in, I started talking to the manager in the store, just asking him questions about those arcades like a curious child. Then I decided to go in and see what happens. I paid and I went downstairs to the arcade. Never once in my life did I see so many porn videos playing in one place. I started walking around, wandering. Some of the guys kept giving me eye contacts, I just pretend I did not see them and kept on wandering, I was scared I guess... So for more than an hour I just walked around, going into random booths to watch some interesting porn, I did not masturbate at all, I did not even took my penis out. When I was walking around, I felt the vibe that not a lot of people were interested in me. There were only middle-aged men and a few younger men.
And as I was walking around again, a really slim, tall, and beautiful man came down. I instantly saw him, and secretly thought - he is the perfect type for me, but he is not gonna be interested in me anyways, I better forget about it.
I kept walking around, and I noticed this beautiful guy was always looking at me, once he even smiled at me and wanted to say hi but I just walked away..unintentionally. So there is this bigger and darker play room with leather curtain and stuff. So I walked in there to check it out. He walked in and introduced himself to me. He was such a gentleman, he was smiling, and we did that formal hand-shake thing. We talked a little (about our lives), and he invited me to go to the booths with him, so I did. We went into separate but connected booths. We sat down, and we talked through the glory hole. He pulled his penis out (sitting) and started masturbating, asking me if I mind him doing that I said no. I did not do anything except talking to him. He told me he was 32 and lives in California. And I talked about Boston and school life and stuff like that, we also talked about relationships. And for 20 minutes, I felt like we got to know each other better, we were like friends. He told me I had a great body, and he complemented me. He gently asked me if I could show my butt to him, and I said ok. I pulled my pants down (my underwear was on), and he looked through the hole, and he said I had a great butt. And then he asked me if I wanted to go into that playroom so that we don't have to have a wall between us, so I said ok.
We went in there, and he chose one of the corners with a leather curtain. We walked in and he started masturbating. He asked me if it is ok to take of my pants and see my body. I said ok so he did. He was rubbing my butt and touching my penis and stuff like that, and he kept telling me I have a great body. So he came rubbing my butt. I did not come or anything cuz I did not masturbate at all. But in the end we walked out of the room, and he was protecting me from other people when we walked out cuz there were a lot of people peeping. Finally, he hugged and thanked me, and then he left.
From then on, I miss and think about him every day. I am one of those stupid people when someone like him so perfect comes into my life and with all the stuff happened I get really attached to him. I did not get his number, I don't even remember his first name
All I can do now is to hoping to see him in my dreams I feel so lost, and I feel like part of my soul is taken away. I am dying to meet him again. This is the first time I have ever felt that way for a person. I guess he was the first one to like me for who I really am. what do u guys think?
