Well, I am back on here again after taking a short hiatus to work on my problems.
The last time I was here, my ex treated me so badly and I caught him sleeping with his ex on Thanksgiving. I was very much struggling to move on earlier, and did things against my counselor’s and fellow JUBBERs advice. Finally, I am feeling so much better after not having any contacts with him for about 2 months now, and I no longer spend a lot of time thinking about him anymore.
Until something happened earlier tonight …
My ex wanted to stop by and I let him in. He told me that he was moving out of state to live with his ex (now bf again) early next week and wanted to smooth things out. The conversation was at first normal, and then it very quickly turned into an argument about what happened on thanksgiving, because he blamed me for overreacting and drama, etc. He said he was not responsible for why I felt hurt, etc.
I got myself very angry with him and his bullshit. I had enough of it that I finally stood up and said: “You are a fucking sociopath. Don’t ever bug me again. Get the fuck out of my house NOW!” I slammed the door hard as he walked out. After he left, I saw he left his cell phone. I grabbed it, ran outside, and I yelled. “Hey asshole, you might need this.” I tossed his phone as hard I could and it landed perfectly on the grassy area across the street where he park. It was dark and I saw him looking for it in the dark like a dog, and he deserved to be treated like one.
I feel empowered, and I just defended myself. I would not hesitate to hurt him if he tries to hurt me. I am not a doormat and I won’t ever let people treat me like that again!!! More importantly, I AM NOT DEPRESSED ANYMORE ... in fact, I am eating very unhealthy cheese puffs as I am writing this thread ....
Btw, I am officially back on JUB!!
The last time I was here, my ex treated me so badly and I caught him sleeping with his ex on Thanksgiving. I was very much struggling to move on earlier, and did things against my counselor’s and fellow JUBBERs advice. Finally, I am feeling so much better after not having any contacts with him for about 2 months now, and I no longer spend a lot of time thinking about him anymore.
Until something happened earlier tonight …
My ex wanted to stop by and I let him in. He told me that he was moving out of state to live with his ex (now bf again) early next week and wanted to smooth things out. The conversation was at first normal, and then it very quickly turned into an argument about what happened on thanksgiving, because he blamed me for overreacting and drama, etc. He said he was not responsible for why I felt hurt, etc.
I got myself very angry with him and his bullshit. I had enough of it that I finally stood up and said: “You are a fucking sociopath. Don’t ever bug me again. Get the fuck out of my house NOW!” I slammed the door hard as he walked out. After he left, I saw he left his cell phone. I grabbed it, ran outside, and I yelled. “Hey asshole, you might need this.” I tossed his phone as hard I could and it landed perfectly on the grassy area across the street where he park. It was dark and I saw him looking for it in the dark like a dog, and he deserved to be treated like one.
I feel empowered, and I just defended myself. I would not hesitate to hurt him if he tries to hurt me. I am not a doormat and I won’t ever let people treat me like that again!!! More importantly, I AM NOT DEPRESSED ANYMORE ... in fact, I am eating very unhealthy cheese puffs as I am writing this thread ....
Btw, I am officially back on JUB!!
