Any of us who have experienced a crush--especially one that wasn't reciprocated--understand exactly how you feel.
You're ahead of the game on several levels because you know what's going on, and you also know how to get over it. You don't want to do that, but you do know how.
He's never going to feel about you like you do him and, to him, the world is hunky-dory. He has a great friend in you, and he has drawn the line as to the boundaries of the friendship. In one respect, it's great that he's accepted you as you are, even knowing your feelings about him, and has moved to not only maintain the friendship, but become closer. There's no doubt that he likes you (as a friend).
You also know that it's eating you up inside because you not only want more, but you want the impossible. Unfortunately, you're going to be torn up inside about it--totally distracted--as long as you allow this to continue.
What to do? You really only have two choices, neither of which are very pleasant. What most people do is cut themselves off from these people in order to get over them. It takes time, it's hell, and it leaves the other person sad and confused (he'll likely think "why can't you just like me like I do you?"). He will, after all, lose a friend and not have done anything wrong.
The other option is to somehow fall out of love with him, while maintaining the friendship. I've seen it done, although have never pulled it off myself. Others here, too, have talked about doing it. You would have to come to a philosophical conclusion about him and, essentially, convince yourself that he'll never be a lover, but his friendship is golden and worth keeping at all costs. If you do this, stop the cuddling and other physical horse-play--that will torture you. Keep your physical distance, but spend time together, have genuine conversations, and decide that this is all he's going to be. Be a friend, and allow his friendship into your life. The test will be if you can convince yourself that this is all it's ever going to be, and that's just fine.
Concurrently, do two things: First, get in gear and knuckle down on your assignments. That's really your first priority and why you're there in the first place. Second, focus your romantic energies on finding a gay guy who can return the love you have to give. Then, get married and have the guy you're crushing on be your best man.
Good luck. You're stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I know that none of the choices you face are easy nor pleasant.
You're ahead of the game on several levels because you know what's going on, and you also know how to get over it. You don't want to do that, but you do know how.
He's never going to feel about you like you do him and, to him, the world is hunky-dory. He has a great friend in you, and he has drawn the line as to the boundaries of the friendship. In one respect, it's great that he's accepted you as you are, even knowing your feelings about him, and has moved to not only maintain the friendship, but become closer. There's no doubt that he likes you (as a friend).
You also know that it's eating you up inside because you not only want more, but you want the impossible. Unfortunately, you're going to be torn up inside about it--totally distracted--as long as you allow this to continue.
What to do? You really only have two choices, neither of which are very pleasant. What most people do is cut themselves off from these people in order to get over them. It takes time, it's hell, and it leaves the other person sad and confused (he'll likely think "why can't you just like me like I do you?"). He will, after all, lose a friend and not have done anything wrong.
The other option is to somehow fall out of love with him, while maintaining the friendship. I've seen it done, although have never pulled it off myself. Others here, too, have talked about doing it. You would have to come to a philosophical conclusion about him and, essentially, convince yourself that he'll never be a lover, but his friendship is golden and worth keeping at all costs. If you do this, stop the cuddling and other physical horse-play--that will torture you. Keep your physical distance, but spend time together, have genuine conversations, and decide that this is all he's going to be. Be a friend, and allow his friendship into your life. The test will be if you can convince yourself that this is all it's ever going to be, and that's just fine.
Concurrently, do two things: First, get in gear and knuckle down on your assignments. That's really your first priority and why you're there in the first place. Second, focus your romantic energies on finding a gay guy who can return the love you have to give. Then, get married and have the guy you're crushing on be your best man.
Good luck. You're stuck between a rock and a hard place, and I know that none of the choices you face are easy nor pleasant.
