Incompatible

[D-Base]

For the first part of the story, check my previous blog entry

That's it, he said it.
And what the hell is it supposed to mean? I feel like a defective computer part.

Why on world would we spend all this time talking, why would we hug and kiss, stare at each other for hours... go out together, always look for one another if he could just label us as "Incompatible"?

And he just said it, like I really needed to hear that...

"Except of sexually, we really are incompatible"

What on earth is this supposed to mean?
Why are you even talking to me if I'm THAT defective?
Why do you pop-up every morning on my messenger if I'm incompatible?
Why do you tell me I'm a great person when you also think I'm incompatible?

And then he said "But that doesn't change the fact that I want you to be my friend"...

...yeah, is that a bonus or what??? So now that I'm incompatible I should be proud that at least someone can be my friend...

I never wanted him to commit to me or tell me he loves me, or even say that someday we can be together...

But I also never wanted to hear that I'm incompatible.
We don't even know one another that well, how did he just come to that conclusion, am I that obviously defective?

What is wrong with me?

I'm a good guy.
I know it.
I can love.
I can feel.
I can care.

Is that what drives people away?
Shouldn't that attract people???
Should I be a bitch?

Should I go out and screw around just for the fun of it...
Should I really give up hope that there are people out there that actually want to give love a chance?

Yeah, it doesn't change the fact that I want him to be my friend, but it changes a lot of other things...

FUCK!