I'm "bi", and have never had a gay relationship, nor a straight one that was very satisfying for that matter. As I get older, I find women of my age less and less appealing, except for a few that are still in great shape, but they can call-their-shot when it comes to who they date. Also, regardless of their financial status or living situation, women are obsessed with a guys' income or assets, even in a FWB relationship. I suppose that they want to make sure that he can pay his and some of her bills, along with providing for an ample social life in case she decides to get more serious. That said, this is why I have been trying to use various hypnosis videos (mostly on porn sites), to inspire me to venture deeper into my gay side, and perhaps even erase or reduce my natural attraction to women. I have tried the ones with a spiral or staircase where you stare at the computer screen while listening to a narrator or view subliminal messages. I usually watch the ones where there are gay porn scenes, or scenes from straight porn showing beautiful cocks filling wanton mouths with cum, some with narration, some with subliminals. I even tried one that lasted nearly an hour and was only audio, and did my best to absorb everything that was said while clearing my mind of all conscious thought. Nothing so far has worked, even a little. I still have the same degree of desire for women, and my lust for men is still mostly sexual (not so much physical), and is centered mostly on sucking cock, swallowing cum, and taking cock up my wannabe gay ass. I have even viewed some of those Satanic or demonic inspiration sites hoping they will give me the motivation to venture to the video arcade at the local adult bookstore and suck cock (or more) through a glory hole. I have to date found my bi-sexuality to be a series of dead-end streets. If anyone can provide me with some helpful advice, especially someone who has gone through this themselves, I will be eternally grateful for your input.
