LionLeoRay
On the Prowl
Hi all! Long time reader, first time poster (well, i've recently began replying to other threads but this is my first "main post".)
Gotta say, love reading through other posts and discovering others like me. I've always felt alone in what my thoughts and fantasies are, and because I was brought up in a world of "you're either straight or gay", there's no in between, I didn't really know where I stood. Let me explain.
Most of all, I love women. I love their bodies, I love having sex with them, and I've always exclusively wanted (and have had) a romantic, heterosexual relationship. I've never been "romantically" inclined towards men. For me, being in a loving, long term relationship with a woman makes sense, and It's something I want.
But here's where I start to get confused. I. Love. Mens. Butts. Like, love them. Obsessed with them. Almost to the point of addiction. I need to see a man ass/hole everyday. Now, mind you, I'm seeing them on my computer screen, not in real life, but still. I've alluded to this in previous replies I've made to other posts, but wanted to expand here. When out in public, I'll check out a guys ass before I'll check out a woman's. I almost exclusively watch gay porn because there's more of a focus on man ass. It's kind of overwhelming how much I think of, and need to see, man ass. I don't get it.
Not a HUGE fan of dicks, but they don't really repulse me. I could go my whole life fine with the fact I've never sucked a dick, but I guess if put in the situation, I'd try it. BUT. I NEED to rim a dude! Like, it's all I think about. As I've explained in a previous reply, right now my ultimate fantasy is to "worship" a guy, massage him all up and down. I love using my tongue, so I'd want to lick his whole body, with most of my time spent with my face buried between his cheeks.
So I guess my question is, is this normal? Does (almost) every straight identifying guy have some kind of gay fantasy? Could I act on it and yet not be labelled "gay" or "bisexual" (not that I'm too hung on up labels, but still). Because I've only ever known the "straight scene", how would I even go about finding other like minded men, not necessarily to act on anything, but to be able to just talk about it? (And if it does lead to acting on it.....I wouldn't complain). I love this forum, because it's allowed me to finally get this out in some way for the first time in my life, but how could I "get it out" in person? None of the guys in my life would be open to even discussing anything like this, and I'm not comfortable being the one starting the conversation about it! I kinda want to only deal with strangers at this point. While extremely exciting, these thoughts and fantasies and also kind of scary because they challenge what I've known, and what I've been taught to know. Have you dealt with these kinds of feelings, and if so, how did you get over them?
And, so I don't end this too seriously, I'd love to hear some of your first time stories of rimming a guy. Either giving or receiving. Would love to know the kind of butts your into, and any descriptions of the act would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks for reading!
Gotta say, love reading through other posts and discovering others like me. I've always felt alone in what my thoughts and fantasies are, and because I was brought up in a world of "you're either straight or gay", there's no in between, I didn't really know where I stood. Let me explain.
Most of all, I love women. I love their bodies, I love having sex with them, and I've always exclusively wanted (and have had) a romantic, heterosexual relationship. I've never been "romantically" inclined towards men. For me, being in a loving, long term relationship with a woman makes sense, and It's something I want.
But here's where I start to get confused. I. Love. Mens. Butts. Like, love them. Obsessed with them. Almost to the point of addiction. I need to see a man ass/hole everyday. Now, mind you, I'm seeing them on my computer screen, not in real life, but still. I've alluded to this in previous replies I've made to other posts, but wanted to expand here. When out in public, I'll check out a guys ass before I'll check out a woman's. I almost exclusively watch gay porn because there's more of a focus on man ass. It's kind of overwhelming how much I think of, and need to see, man ass. I don't get it.
Not a HUGE fan of dicks, but they don't really repulse me. I could go my whole life fine with the fact I've never sucked a dick, but I guess if put in the situation, I'd try it. BUT. I NEED to rim a dude! Like, it's all I think about. As I've explained in a previous reply, right now my ultimate fantasy is to "worship" a guy, massage him all up and down. I love using my tongue, so I'd want to lick his whole body, with most of my time spent with my face buried between his cheeks.
So I guess my question is, is this normal? Does (almost) every straight identifying guy have some kind of gay fantasy? Could I act on it and yet not be labelled "gay" or "bisexual" (not that I'm too hung on up labels, but still). Because I've only ever known the "straight scene", how would I even go about finding other like minded men, not necessarily to act on anything, but to be able to just talk about it? (And if it does lead to acting on it.....I wouldn't complain). I love this forum, because it's allowed me to finally get this out in some way for the first time in my life, but how could I "get it out" in person? None of the guys in my life would be open to even discussing anything like this, and I'm not comfortable being the one starting the conversation about it! I kinda want to only deal with strangers at this point. While extremely exciting, these thoughts and fantasies and also kind of scary because they challenge what I've known, and what I've been taught to know. Have you dealt with these kinds of feelings, and if so, how did you get over them?
And, so I don't end this too seriously, I'd love to hear some of your first time stories of rimming a guy. Either giving or receiving. Would love to know the kind of butts your into, and any descriptions of the act would be greatly appreciated!
Thanks for reading!
tight.
to JUB you'll enjoy it here and whatever makes you feel comfortable about yourself and if thats what you like you'll understand what you like more of it. And I see when you said your into looking at men's ass yes its attractiveto look at a guy's ass it's something nice to see and look at for sure.