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I woke up, the sun blazing in under the shade giving me a rude awakening. I had just had a night long dream about traveling the word and having a lot of sex in the process. It was both erotic and exotic! However, unfortunately, I had to wake up to reality and move on with my day.

Life wasn't really all that bad. I lived in an upper middle class home with a good family, a quiet town, and was doing well in my college courses. Life could not be better, but, life could always be better.

I was gay, or at least, I liked guys and that was very taboo here in Princeton. The people here were nice but they lived their lives perfectly and didn't want anything to disrupt that. It was too bad. I knew I was still the same person I always had been, but I knew the town could not handle my coming out any better than they could handle the black plague. There would be utter chaos. Okay maybe chaos is too dramatic of a term, but they would all treat me differently I was sure of that. So while I lived the happy perfect life, I thought I would never find the one thing I really wanted. A guy that felt the same way about me.

There were no gay bars here in Princeton, there was of course, the infamous gay.com chat rooms, but only old men hung out there, and I was 22. I admit there were a few hot guys that would frequent the room, but they were model types, so again, more old men just with fake pictures.

I did have a very close male friend, John, or Johnny, as I liked to call him. We hung out 24/7 but he could not be gay. He was the MVP Football player at our small university, so suffice to say he was built quite nicely. He was also very tough. This past summer he had been the victim of a hit and run accident and made a complete recovery. When he had been younger he survived a 4 year long battle with Leukemia and had also beaten that. I was happy enough just being Johnny's friend, and while he was really cute and the best friend I could ever ask for, I got no gay signals WHAT SO EVER, so I knew it was something I could not pursue.

So I got up this morning and my car wasn't working, again. This was the third time this month and mid-terms were today, of all days. I speed-dialed Johnny's phone, hoping to catch a ride with him to the university.

"Hey Chris, what's up?"

"Johnny! My car is not starting, again. I need a ride, where are you at?" I heard the noise of other students in the background, but he said,

"Don't worry man, I'm on my way right now." and hung up.

He knew I would've protested and didn't leave room for me to get a word in edgewise.

He pulled up about 15 minutes later in his red hot convertible, sporting his button up shirt (button from the mid-chest on down, mind you), levi jeans, and dark sun-glasses. Johnny had the goods and he knew it.

"I didn't know it was "sluts'r'us" day on campus today!" I said with a sly grin.

Johnny just playfully punched me in the shoulder, but I don't think he realized how much force he had behind that punch.

"You know you want some of this, man. You might as well get some of this now before it's gone." He grinned.

I laughed but it trailed off, how I wished he was being serious.

"So what is wrong with your car, man?"

"I don't know yet, I haven't had time to really look at it. I know nothing about cars, and my folks are out of town this weekend."

"Great, let me look at it!"

"Pfhhtt. Like you can fix anything. Johnny, the car mechanic!"

"No, really. My ex, being the ditz she was, was always having car problems. I fixed all of them. Except the time she fell asleep at the wheel and drove into the swamp. There was way to much water in that engine!"

I laughed hysterically, because Maxine (Johnny's ex) was the typical, ditzy, barbie character. And thinking of her falling asleep and driving into a swamp filled my mind with hilarious mental pictures for the rest of the day. After a while of entertaining myself with those thoughts, I asked,

"Man, why did you get with her anyway?"

"Well, she practically threw herself at me, every day. Besides, she's really quite experienced."

I rolled my eyes. "John, the whole reason I'm friends with you is because you have more depth than the typical, dumb jock..."

"Tell me! Tell me you wouldn't bang her if you got the chance?"

I put on my straight cap and thought hard about it, but not too long.

"....okay. I guess I'd think about it, but...." I felt so comfortable with John, I didn't think he'd care if I told him I was gay.

"but, what?"

"well..."

"Let me guess, Chris. You're gay and you've loved me all along!" At that Johnny burst out laughing. He didn't mean it to hurt me but I made up an excuse fast.

"Nothing. I'd rather have a girl with brains anyway."

"Yeah, you're right man. Those were my low days back than. I could've done better. In fact I know I could've done better." He looked sideways at me.

"Well that's what happens." I responded and quickly changed the subject. "So I really owe you for the ride, when can I bring by my notes for History to you?"

"Bring it by my locker after practice, that way I can have them before class."

I responded with a simple "okay" but my cock nearly jumped at the thought of seeing him in the locker room, probably naked. In fact I relished any moment I had an excuse to go in that room. Of course all of the football players were buff and hotter than shit.

"see you then!"

"Bye!" We hand pumped and walked off to our respective classes. I couldn't really sit still through Geometry. I just looked forward to see Johnny again. I needed to fall out of love with him and fast. He'd never be mine.

I immediately made my way to the locker room after class. Hoping to catch Johnny before he had gotten into dress mode. I slowed my pace and serenely walked through the double doors to the room of naked men before me.

They were all gleaming, either with sweat or from being in the shower or both. And most of them were naked. Standing side by side in the shower completely naked and chatting with each other like nothing was different. I marveled at how they did it. Some were even sharing each other's soap.

"No butt washing now" I heard them joke. Wow, their bodies were perfect. All were buff from training. You couldn't cut the testosterone in that room with a knife, it was so thick. One of the guys taking a shower, I think his name was Michael, must've noticed me gazing at him. He slowly arose and walked towards me.

"Do you want something faggot?" he said, looking at me intently. I didn't answer.

"Did you come here for some of this?" He grabbed his dick and whipped it back and forth. It wasn't even remotely hard but must've been 5 or 6 inches soft.

"I think you must be confused," the other guys in the room laughed as Michael zeroed in on me, "The girly locker room is across the hall. This is a room for men, not girls and faggots!" He looked back at the other guys for approval and they laughed even more.

"Well, what are you doing here then?" I asked with a grin.

Without even responding Michael just shoved me backwards. I could do nothing against that brute force. I was shoved into the lockers and than fell, hitting my head on one of the locker room benches. I was bleeding and they just laughed at me.

But suddenly Johnny was there.

"Chris, are you alright?" He asked me, as he helped me up. He touched my head where it was cut open and I winced.

"Johnny!" Michael said astoundingly "Are you friends with this faggot, or is he your bitch?"

"He's not any of those things," Johnny just replied cooly.

"He was oogling all of us, he was practicly drooling, Johnny!"

At that Johnny just stood up, face only inches from Michael's...

"Leave him alone, or else you will be the faggot, Michael! You already act like one"

Veins were popping out of both men's necks, but Johnny was much bigger, and stronger than Michael. Michael flexed but wasn't even as buff as Johnny was when relaxed. A few more linger moments of anger and Michael backed off.

"Fuck you!" and the fight was over.

Johnny helped me up wearing just a towel and sat me down next to his locker.

"Are you okay Chris? How's your head?" He said as he touched my wound again.

"I'm actually a little dizzy." I responded quietly.

"Here let me get some clothes on and I'll take you to the clinic."

He took off the towel and I slowly gazed up at his body. His legs were like tree trunks and his dick (though soft) was even bigger than Michael's. He had a cut six pack and blazing obliques with light blond hair that was barely noticeable (but i noticed) that trailed his abs down to his shaft. His pecs reverberated every move he made and his huge arms bulged with everything he lifted. His blond goatee was thin and cut perfectly as was his blond hair trimmed short.

He knew I was looking at him. He looked like he was about to say something but didn't. He looked disappointed but continued getting dressed.

"Come on, lets get you to the clinic."

We walked down the hall together but not chatting like we normally do. It felt very awkward and I was worried I had ruined our friendship forever. It was in between class time so Johnny motioned me to the nearest bathroom.

"In here." He motioned. He didn't look very happy but I followed him.

We both were now alone. He leaned against the wall as I leaned against the opposite one. There was a long pause while Johnny seemed to study me intently and then finally spoke.

"Chris," he stopped. "Chris, I'm glad you're okay, I really am. But how did that fight start?"

"You know how it started" I mumbled.

"I only heard what Michael said." After another pause he asked, "Is it true, were you checking them out? Are you gay?"

I didn't know what to say, I stumbled over words, I was so on the spot "I uhh I..." tears welled up in my eyes. Johnny gently placed a hand on my shoulder,

"It's okay."

I almost wanted to burst out crying. Johnny's approval meant too much to me and his support even now I was more than thankful for.

"yes" I replied, barely above a whisper.

He took in a deep breath and put his other hand on my other shoulder, causing me to look up into his eyes. He looked relieved.

"I'm glad." He replied.

I didn't know what to say, why would Johnny be glad?

"Wha-what?" I nervously asked.

"Chris, we've been friends ever since Jr. High. We've always been there for each other. I've had failed relationships with a lot of girls and I think I know why. It's because all I've ever really needed is you. You treat me better and respect me more than anyone ever has before in my life, and I'd rather go out with you for one night than spend a thousand nights with someone else."

Was I dreaming, that was the most beautiful thing I could ever imagine hearing from anyone, but hearing it from Johnny was flooring.

"Johnny!" was all I could say. I reached out to hug him and we embraced, his huge frame keeping me safe in his arms. He even gave me a quick peck on the cheek. I was in seventh heaven, but all this excitement was making me dizzy.

"Johnny, I love you, but I'm going to barf," I said as I held my head. We both laughed, he knew what I meant.

"Alright, let's get you to that clinic."

We got there (it was only down the hall) and Johnny was such a perfect gentleman. He walked right up to the front desk and demanded to see a nurse instantly. I chucked at his abrasiveness and then trying to flirt to get quicker response. We finally got a nurse to see me and Johnny came back as well.

"So what happened Mr. Strouse" asked the nurse.

"Michael Brayson attacked him." Johnny responded. "Chris nearly had his skull split open!"

The nurse examined my wound. "Well, you are going to need a few stitches, but it doesn't look too bad. I'd suggest avoiding Mr. Brayson from now on. If you get another head injury anytime soon, you could get a concussion."

"Oh, don't worry, he'll be fine with me!" Johnny grinned.

"You're lucky, Mr. Strouse, to have such a good friend here. And bodyguard." She chuckled.

"Yeah, I am." I smiled warmly and Johnny smiled back at me.



Outside of the clinic Johnny took me by the arm,

"Can I come over tonight?" He asked with a smile. Things were moving so fast.

"Well, uh yeah."

"I still need to get that homework from you."

"oh"

"And besides that, I have a surprise for you."

"Oh, what's that?"

"You'll see," he said. "See you tonight." We kissed and both went our respective ways.

I didn't get much done that evening. I kind of lied low on the couch, feeling a little dizzy, and waited at the window like a little kid for Johnny to arrive. Seconds seemed like minutes and minutes seemed like hours. He was 15 minutes late, but finally he arrived.

He hopped out of his hot red convertible, smiled and waved at me as he got a few things out of his car, I couldn't tell what, it was pretty dark out by now.

Suddenly a car sped around the bend, and sped up as it continued down the road. Was this a drunk driver at this hour what was going on?

What was Johnny doing, did he not see or hear the car?? He stepped out to cross the street----RIGHT INTO THE PATH OF THE SPEEDING CAR!!.

I screamed Johnny's name but he was looking down and couldn't here me. I gasped in horror, but no sound came out of my mouth as the car hit Johnny. He went flying onto the windshield and then his seemingly lifeless body slid off. I couldn't believe my eyes! Then the car was put into reverse and they backed up over Johnny's broken body already in the street behind them. Then as they raced off at top speed they ran over him again. His body was crushed.

I ran outside screaming and collapsed beside his motionless body. It looked like nearly every bone is his body had been crushed. He wasn't breathing, and I that didn't change when the paramedics pulled up besides us...
 
Whoa! What a start for a story! You've got me hooked already! I can't wait to read the next installment!
 
The paramedics had whisked Johnny away without much word, grim looks on their faces. I had practically begged to ride with Johnny in the back, but they said I could drive behind, Johnny wasn't conscious anyway.

After I had finally found a parking spot and made my way in the hospital Johnny had gone into reconstructive surgery. None of the nurses I could find knew very much about Johnny's case, so it was a very distressful few hours in the waiting room.

When he finally was released, the doctor told me he was in critical condition, and they had no idea if he would make it or not. No one seemed to think he would. He had to have countless bones reconstructed since they were crushed, and many internal organs had been damaged severely. He was being kept alive by machines.

"Can I see him?" I asked the doctor.

"Only family members are allowed at this time-"

"I'm his brother," I said, tears welling up in my eyes, none of them fake, I just hoped they wouldn't ask for an i.d. or something.

The doctor sighed but allowed me in. As I walked into the room I could barely bare the sight of having to see Johnny like this.

He seemed to be in a full body cast and was of course unconscious. I wanted to touch him but I was afraid to do even that, it seemed every part of his body had been bruised. I barely could talk through the tears,

"we're gonna find out who did this Johnny" I gulped.

Johnny had always been there for me, even as a kid, he had always picked me to play on his team when he knew no one else would pick me, he had always been there when I needed something fixed. He would do anything for me, and once he literally did give me the shirt off his back after he stood up for me against high school bullies. What was I going to do without him??

Johnny's heart rate began to weaken! I stared in horror at the monitor but didn't know how to fix it. It was dropping and dropping fast. I ran into the hall screaming for help, as nurses and doctors rushed by me screaming "CODE BLUE!"
This couldn't be happening, Johnny couldn't die.

I listened outside intently, not being able to see what was going on.

"CLEAR!"

They were trying to jump start his heart, after a few tries I heard a commotion in the room and a few gasps. I could no longer hear the heart monitor beeping.

THIS COULD NOT BE HAPPENING. I collapsed on the floor where I was, crying inaudibly.

"PLEASE SAVE HIM!" was all I could say. It seemed they were trying to revive him but to no avail. I crawled out onto the nearby terrace. The cold brisk air keeping me from vomiting, and there I stayed.

I had blacked out from the shock and the feelings of nausea. When I awoke I was in my room again, everything was in it's place.

"What's going on?" I thought. "Have I been dreaming?"

I immediately speed dialed Johnny's number on my phone but got no answer, then my mom came in the room.

"Chris, spring classes are starting today. You've been in bed for days, you've got to get up." Her voice showed concern for my health.

"What?"

"Ever since Johnny's death you've been in and out of consciousness, in and out of bed. -- Son, he's gone, you've got to move on.

You didn't finish your courses last semester and if you fail this semester you will be a year behind your other classmates. Please don't do this to yourself!"

I was so frustrated I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what had been going on.

"Mom, listen I don't really give a shit about classes right now."

"What, so Johnny's dead and nothing at all matters anymore??"

"PLEASE don't talk like this life was meaningless!"

"Honey, I'm not. I loved Johnny too, but you have to move on, he would want you to move on. You aren't respecting his death by throwing away your life."

"You just don't understand..." my eyes teared up. I wanted to say 'you just don't understand how much he meant to me,' and 'you just don't understand all the wonderful things we were going to do together.' but I said nothing else.

Mom was right, I should be moving on, but I hated admitting someone else was right. In defiance I responded,

"Mom, I'm moving out. I hate this town. It's so small, and everyone knows everyone and everyone has to be perfect. I just can't stand it." I waited to give room for response, but none came.

"I'm moving to the city. I'll take courses at the university there."

"okay" was all she would respond. I don't think she really believed that I was moving out, but sooner than later, I had.

I didn't like the city much at first, but at least the people were more laid back, and there was more opportunity. I was going to start a new life. I just wanted to forget my old one entirely.

That was easy enough to do at first. I kept myself busy with my glasses, but I had no friends, and I knew I could if i had been trying. But I didn't know if I cared. But I did care, I just wanted a man....

Finally I worked on making those desires become a reality. You see I found a little nifty site one day called justusboys.com It was a great online community for gay men and the pictures certainly kept me coming back every day. But it was through justusboys that I heard about craigslist.

After months of viewing the personals section and casual encounters I finally couldn't stand it any longer. I really wanted to please a man. I finally left an ad something like this:

"college student here, looking for other buff horny guys to mess around with. Football players a plus!"

I got many replies, but would flake out on them. Finally I allowed one of them to come over, or I should say "cum" over.

The man's name was Rick, and he wasn't a football player but was very fit. He had the perfect body and was very smooth. He had a slight effeminate voice but seemed nice and his face resembled Johnny's so I let him in. It didn't take long to get to business.

"So Rick, I've never actually don't this before..."

"What do you want to do?" His eyes were so alluring, and were the same color as Johnny's. I placed my hand on his crotch...

"Whatever you think it can handle..." I said, looking up at him with a sly grin. He moaned

"oooh that feels good. SUCK IT!"

Pretty soon we were getting down to the nitty gritty. I slobbered all over his cock. I didn't think I was doing a good job but Rick moaned quite a bit, and sooner than later he whipped me around and started rimming my ass. It felt good, I was surprised. But I knew what was coming next and was very nervous about it. I didn't really want cock in my ass, but if it made Rick happy...

without warning he started ramming me and moaning. I knew he loved it but I just grunted out of discomfort. Soon every thrust for some reason made me think of Johnny. I would have no qualms about letting Johnny fuck me, it would be love then. I looked back at Rick, his eyes were closed, and was clearing only all about pleasing himself.

He cummed, in my ass without warning, then basically cleaned up and left with just a "thanks" and "goodbye."

I was still thinking about Johnny, as if my thoughts could bring him back. I felt dizzy again, all of these thoughts made me sick. I passed out on the bed and woke up the next morning with Rick's number by my side. His keys were also still here. How did he get home then? I couldn't remember, but I for sure didn't seem him anywhere around here.

I went to his place and got no response. He wasn't picking up his phone. I guess I was just another fling to him. I'm sure one of many, he seemed to know what he was doing, even though he had told me he was new at this too. I couldn't believe I had let him cum in the ass, but wasn't sure I cared anymore? Was any man going to compare to Johnny? We hadn't even had sex but already he had meant more to me throughout my lifetime than Rick. or any other man I hooked up with.

I left Rick's keys at the campuses lost and found, he'd probably find them easier that way, I doubt he'd even remember my room number! So after my stressful night I decided to skip class, and cruised craigslist for my next sexual escapade.
 
i've noticed that guys die horrible deaths in a lot of these erotic stories. what's up with that? lol
 
OMG this story is so sad! I can't even imagine what Chris would be going through. I actually hated reading this story because of how depressing it is.
 
It was now Summer semester and because I was now a year behind my other classmates I was taking two semester of summer courses to catch up. It wasn't anything to major, just enough to keep me busy with a few hours of work on the side. I still didn't care about my classes much but I knew I had to get a degree in something and I knew when I finally graduated (whenever that would be) I would have a higher paying job waiting for me (in theory).

I was running late to class one morning and was going to be late for an exam so I was racing! I didn't think life could get any worse but it was about to. As I was looking down at my ipod I rear ended the guy in front of me. I know, I was an idiot but it happens to the best of us, right?

"Oh SHIT." I moaned. Could life get any worse? I didn't have time for this!

The face that looked down through my window melted away all my worries.

"It looks like my hitch cracked your grill, but mine's fine." He laughed.

The man's face was memorizing. He was maybe 25 with a deep voice and and a bright smile. His jaw alone was memorizing and strong, and he had a dark tan.

"The name's Alex."

Alex was right. His car was perfectly fine, but mine was the one with the damage. At least I didn't have to pay for his damages.

"Alex, since there's no damage to your vehicle, I'll just take care of the expenses and would rather not report this."

"I can understand that. No problem here. Have I seen you around campus before?"

"Probably I do live on campus here. Have we met before?" I didn't think so but wished we had.

"No, I've just seen you a few times by the locker room bathrooms"

I almost gasped.

"Do you always jerk off in that bathroom or have you cummed on every toilet on campus?"

My eyes bugged out. I didn't know how on earth to respond to that. I think my mouth was even gaping open. Alex just laughed.

"Haha, it's okay man, I'm sure every guy had jacked off in a bathroom at some point in his life."

"Have you?" I asked without thinking. I wanted to kill myself after having asked that, what the heck was wrong with me???

"Well, yeah" he said with a lopsided grin. "In fact it's been a long time" I think he was massaging his bulge but I couldn't really tell.

"too long...."

Could this be happening to me? I rear ended an attractive horny gay guy? What are the chances? I didn't know what to say at that point. I was tongue tied. I just looked up at him and smiled.

"Ever jack off with other guys?" he asked simply.

"That and much more" I said.

"I've heard you cum in the campus bathrooms before. I've even jacked off at the same time, but was too nervous to let you know."

I just smiled all the more.

"Would you like to come back to my place? I'm sure I could relieve the stress of this shitty day."

"I'd love to." I responded with glee.

So I followed him back to his place. It was just a few blocks.

I admit I was nervous going up to his place. But he was friendly. He put one arm around my shoulder and guided me up to his room.

"So do you often flirt with people that rear end you?" I joked.

"Only with the guys. And it works a lot of the time too. haha"

"Oh so is this a regular thing that happens to you or are you just lucky?"

"I just wink at guys from my rear view mirror and that's when most of them rear end me!"

We both laughed.

"Alex, I haven't been this happy in a while! It's nice to know there are other guys out there like me."

"Chris, we're everywhere. You need to get out more."

"You're right, I guess I need to rear end more hot guys!"

Alex raised a finger in the air, "I dunno if I'd recommend that" he said as he embraced me unexpectedly, "but I do like the 'rear end' part!"

We both smiled and kissed. His lips were so soft and gentle at first. You could tell he loved kissing me.

He lowered me onto his bed behind me. As he crawled up on top of me i wrapped my legs around his waist. That made him excited and he got more aggressive. Kissing me passionatly and sucking on my tongue. Before I knew it he had taken his shirt off and mine too. His body was gleaming bronze. I twisted one of his plump nipples he moaned and pulled up my ass to his face as he started jacking me off.

I loved getting rimmed, as always, but Alex was a pro. He would flick his tongue back and forth on my hole, and then shove it in deep. I would've gotten hard without his hand on my dick but it sure helped.

It had been so long since I'd had some good sex. I always imagined sex with Johnny being this passionate but now I was actually experiencing it. Alex shoved his cock all the way in my ass but this time I enjoyed it. It felt so good. I could feel it grow and harder as he began to fuck me, and as his moans increased it made me proud to know that I was the one bringing him pleasure.

He fucked me and jacked me off until I came. As he saw my load ooze out for almost 30 seconds he fucked me even harder until he moaned and shot huge goey loads of cum in my ass. He was definitely a shooter. I could feel his goey cum hit my insides, and as he pulled out, some of it leaked out with it.

After we both got our heart rates down to a normal level, we fell asleep in each other's arms. I was so amazed that I had just met this man a few hours ago, and now I was falling asleep in his arms. Life was finally turning around.

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A few weeks passed and I found myself over at Alex's almost every night. We would flirt a bit, then have sex and fall asleep in each others arms every night. Except for that one night when he answered the door in just his boxer breifs and a hard on. I jumped him straight from the start that night.

I felt I had really found a gem in Alex, we really connected and had some of the hottest sex I could imagine. But whenever I would try and call him, just to hang out, he always had something else he had to do. Once maybe I was able to get him away but only for 20 minutes, then he quickly "had" to go back to work.

"Are you ashamed of me?" I finally asked one night after sex?

"No baby, why would you think that?"

"You always avoid me in public, you can hardly ever spend time with me."

"I'm just busy man, you know that."

"Ok, well, can we hang out this weekend, I think we-"

"I'm going to be out of town this weekend, Chris, I'm sorry."

"yeah........okay." and we went to sleep.

I woke up the next morning with a massive headache and temperature. Alex was already gone but from the way he acted like last I almost hoped I gave it to him.

I stayed home for a few days but the flu did no dissipate. Finally I got my butt out of bed and dragged myself to the nurse on campus. She asked me how I was feeling and all the typical questions and when she asked me about my sexual history I just stared at her.

"What is your sexual history like, have you had unprotected sex?"

I looked at her a while and finally admitted, "yes."

"You really should get std testing done, just to be sure."

"Naw, I don't wanna go through all the trouble."

"It's only $60 for the all of them, and the HIV test can be done in 20 minutes."

I finally relented.

"Ok fine, lets do this."

The wait in the room took much longer than 20 minutes and by 40 I was worried. When I stepped out in the hall the nurse came running down the hall looking grim. I stared at her, bug eyed.

"What, what?"

"Chris, I'm sorry. Your tests have come back positive for HIV, and a pretty advanced form too."

I went home in silence. No music playing, nothing. I tried to cry but couldn't. I was going to die and my life had only begun. I called up Alex and left a hateful voicemail on his phone. Blaming him for giving me this disease. But who knew where I really got it from. We had both slept around quite a bit, but I still could not believe it. I was so young.

I just sat on my bed for hours. What was the point in life? What was the point to this degree. I was just going to die anyway. What was the point??

I suddenly had an idea. Why should I live a horrible life and die if I could just end it now. No man had really compared to Johnny, anyway. Johnny never would've slept around and given me AIDS. Maybe I should just go join Johnny wherever he was. yeah, that was a good idea.

I swept the house for all of the over the counter drugs I could find. I took them all and dumped them all next to me on my bed. I wanted everyone to why it was not an accident.

I took as many random pills as I could in a handful and shoved them in my mouth, chewing some of them swallowing the others. Then I layed down on my bed to die. I hoped it would not be painful, but I soon found out that it was.

My stomach began to churn, then it grew more intense and even more intense. I was moaning and rolling back and forth. I wanted to be a vegetable, not be in this much pain!

At some point my eyes grew dim and I could no longer see and I even felt sicker. I halfway passed out but knew my heart was still beating. But it was slowing, growing slower and slower.

Someone had come in the room, they were screaming my name but it was all a jarble to me. I had no idea who it was. I felt their hand on my wrist just as I thought my heart was about to stop, just as I felt like I was being pulled out of my body; my heart sped up.

The hand was still gripping my wrist and as my heart rate came back up, the pain subsided. After that my eyesight returned and I could see. But I still couldn't see, it seemed like fire was all around me, covering me, but I wasn't being burned. I suddenly felt rejuinated just as the hand on my wrist weakened, and as it dropped to the floor the flames dissipated too.

I sat straight up. I was fine. I had no pain in my stomach. I didn't even feel loopy. But how could that be I had just swalowed a handfull of pills!

I looked down at the hand that had been around my wrist. It was pale. What was going on and who was this. Were they dead?

I crawled off the bed and turned the lifeless body around.

It was Johnny.
 
WOW!!

=O

this story has gone from making me feel happy.... to sad... to horny... to just mixed feelings!!! :D

awesome...
 
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