goldenmunkey
Im gold, not brass
Well as the title says, its christmas and I'm depressed.
Well... even more so since i came home from Uni. Im just finding it difficult to hang around with my family (as I'm not out yet) and with my soon to be ex-friends.
The major issue i have now is noticing how single minded people around me are. My mother for one is a devout christian and raised me to go to church and stuff - having a debate about personal opinion/interpretation vs. the bible is pretty much pointless as she immediately buries her head in the sand and refuses to listen any more.
Many of my friends, I had made in a local Church that I joined (mainly so that I wouldn't have to go with my mum to her church) seem like the sorta people who would be ok with it. Or so I thought until I caught up with a friend to go gift shopping. He started to point out everyone who he thought was gay and started to complain about them. In situations like that I just get angry and go quiet - I wasn't a particularly happy bunny after that one.
Im rambling again, but heres the key issue. Im not enjoying my course as much as I think I should be and another close friend of mine is doing the same course at a University which is closer to home. The thing is that I would have to live at home. It would cost less in the long run, but the fact that I hate being here would drive me crazy.
I have got used to my independence too much to stay under the roof...
Well... even more so since i came home from Uni. Im just finding it difficult to hang around with my family (as I'm not out yet) and with my soon to be ex-friends.
The major issue i have now is noticing how single minded people around me are. My mother for one is a devout christian and raised me to go to church and stuff - having a debate about personal opinion/interpretation vs. the bible is pretty much pointless as she immediately buries her head in the sand and refuses to listen any more.
Many of my friends, I had made in a local Church that I joined (mainly so that I wouldn't have to go with my mum to her church) seem like the sorta people who would be ok with it. Or so I thought until I caught up with a friend to go gift shopping. He started to point out everyone who he thought was gay and started to complain about them. In situations like that I just get angry and go quiet - I wasn't a particularly happy bunny after that one.
Im rambling again, but heres the key issue. Im not enjoying my course as much as I think I should be and another close friend of mine is doing the same course at a University which is closer to home. The thing is that I would have to live at home. It would cost less in the long run, but the fact that I hate being here would drive me crazy.
I have got used to my independence too much to stay under the roof...