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Ok, so i'm new here to JUB and i've read through the threads and thought this was the perfect place to state my situation and garner opinions or advice.
Throughout my life so far ( I'm 18 ) I always knew I had an attraction to men
as well as women. Not knowing exactly how to act on my attraction to men at a young age I just put those feelings on the sidelines because it was something that was apparently a 'bad thing' amongst my peers. until 6th grade I met my now best Friend Steve and we became close as friends easily seeing as we lived on the opposite corner from another. After 6th grade we both went to the same zoned school for 7th grade and our friendship then became something that could be long lasting. towards the end of 8th grade, 2005 me and him got to the comfort point of being able to masturbate next to each other. This went on almost everyday as we would hang out after school. During that summer we were at my house alone and he was using my computer while i took a shower, being comfortable being naked around him i dried off and then jokingly went to him and gave him one of my body scrub gloves and told him to jerk me off. I laughed then walked into my room to continue getting dressed. As I was pulling my boxers up and putting a shirt on he walked in my room and told me to lie down. I noticed he had to glove on and couldn't actually believe he wanted to do this so i laid out on my bed and pulled my boxers down. He proceeded to jerk me off
until i came on the glove. Since then every time we masturbated together he would ask to jerk me off with his bare hands, he only liked to jerk me off and didn't want me to do it to him and if i did he would then stop me so he can do it to me. this went on through that summer, and the beginning of 9th grade around October 2005. Then he said he wanted to take a break from having contact with my penis until his birthday November 2006. So we continued to watch porn together and stuff and never did anything with each other even when November 2006 came. In 2007 during Spring Break in April I spent in Florida and messed around with this guy (Just Rimming, and Oral Sex). We spent that summer together almost everyday until the end of August when I decide to tell him about this one time from my spring break when the guy told me I sucked him better than his girlfriend. (At the time Steve was lying on his bed rubbing his exposed penis while i told this story.) He then stopped me to accuse me of lying about being told I was better than that guys girlfriend. I then proceeded to assure him I wasn't lying and then Steve said "I don't believe you, come prove it". I was honestly stunned and was extremely nervous about blowing him knowing that if it sucked it would always be a "remember that time you sucked me and it was terrible" moment. So I proceeded to suck him off and was able to swallow his whole penis. He was amazed by this and I can hear him breathing heavily. He then asked me if he can just stick the head of his dick inside my ass. Never have been penetrated I said yea sure. Not realizing we needed lube for just the head you can probably guess that shit hurt. So he stopped and I continued to blow him. sucking him off went on almost everyday till September when he decided he should try to stick it in again using baby oil, couple minutes later we were having sex. It was possible the best feeling I've ever had 
. So now sex was now part of the everyday routine and he would get into it like doing it in the shower, and asking me to suck his finger. etc. April 2008 came and after fucking me he said he didn't wanna do this anymore. Randomly. I said "ok" and once I got home he AOL messaged me saying he didn't want to continue intercourse but definitely wanted to keep receiving oral sex from me. Through the summer we kept this up, till September he said to me through AOL Messenger again that he wanted to take a break from doing stuff. Random..again. I went to his house that same night acting like nothing was wrong and then he says to me "you know I was just kidding about wanting a break" and then he said "if you wanna suck me you can". I then went and did it. In October he did the same "I want a break" message accept this time, he wasn't saying it was a hoax. Confused as to why the random decisions I found hanging out with him awkward and sometimes frustrating since I didn't know why. He got a girlfriend in November. & in December and we became friends with this girl who was bi, and then had a threesome, and during he asked me and her if we can suck him off at the same time. So we did & I found it strange since he told me he was "straight now". My 18th Birthday was in February 2009 and he asked me what I wanted, I said "to get laid" so then in January he asked me to give him a blowjob. Randomly. He's Straight.. I proceeded anyway and then he asked to fuck me for a birthday present. We went to my house since nobody was home and we had sex. It was my first encounter with a one minute experience. He apologized for it being so short apparently I was pretty tight and it was stimulating him enough by the time he got in it was game over. He then swore to me that it was just a teaser and that he'd do it again better. I told him Ok. That day never came. After that he said that he's "straight now" and didn't want anything to do with men. At this point I'm so confused with him he says he's straight then fucks me for a birthday present? Fast forward he's dating this girl still they have a nasty violent relationship until June. Fast forward again to last week we hang out with one of my friends who i cut off because we had problems but then we met through my new friend K-la (lol since you're reading this). So things were going well and having fun, then Steve pulls me to his kitchen to tell me to tell my friend Jayson "he can get it". So i forgot to tell Jayson this and then Later that night we were all talking in a group chat then Steve decides to tell us that he's actually pansexual, and wants to mess around with Jayson. He then went to talk to Jayson about this and Jayson said he would help him out and experiment with him. so according to Steve "he will know for sure if he's straight".
That's the Story..now i don't know if any of this sounds normal
but he messed around with me for about 2 years. and I would think
experimenting with the same sex was like a one time, one week, one month thing. Then to find out he still wants to fuck girls but he wants to do Jayson. By the way he lets us know that his #1 Celebrity fuck is Adam Lambert. & that he'd love to fuck him. But yea so my problem is the hot & cold that he's swaying between. It gets annoying seeing that we've been best friends for like 8 years and it's like why lie to me and put me through all this crap to say your straight then to come back out the closet?
Thoughts? Opinions? Advice? Questions?
Throughout my life so far ( I'm 18 ) I always knew I had an attraction to men
as well as women. Not knowing exactly how to act on my attraction to men at a young age I just put those feelings on the sidelines because it was something that was apparently a 'bad thing' amongst my peers. until 6th grade I met my now best Friend Steve and we became close as friends easily seeing as we lived on the opposite corner from another. After 6th grade we both went to the same zoned school for 7th grade and our friendship then became something that could be long lasting. towards the end of 8th grade, 2005 me and him got to the comfort point of being able to masturbate next to each other. This went on almost everyday as we would hang out after school. During that summer we were at my house alone and he was using my computer while i took a shower, being comfortable being naked around him i dried off and then jokingly went to him and gave him one of my body scrub gloves and told him to jerk me off. I laughed then walked into my room to continue getting dressed. As I was pulling my boxers up and putting a shirt on he walked in my room and told me to lie down. I noticed he had to glove on and couldn't actually believe he wanted to do this so i laid out on my bed and pulled my boxers down. He proceeded to jerk me off
until i came on the glove. Since then every time we masturbated together he would ask to jerk me off with his bare hands, he only liked to jerk me off and didn't want me to do it to him and if i did he would then stop me so he can do it to me. this went on through that summer, and the beginning of 9th grade around October 2005. Then he said he wanted to take a break from having contact with my penis until his birthday November 2006. So we continued to watch porn together and stuff and never did anything with each other even when November 2006 came. In 2007 during Spring Break in April I spent in Florida and messed around with this guy (Just Rimming, and Oral Sex). We spent that summer together almost everyday until the end of August when I decide to tell him about this one time from my spring break when the guy told me I sucked him better than his girlfriend. (At the time Steve was lying on his bed rubbing his exposed penis while i told this story.) He then stopped me to accuse me of lying about being told I was better than that guys girlfriend. I then proceeded to assure him I wasn't lying and then Steve said "I don't believe you, come prove it". I was honestly stunned and was extremely nervous about blowing him knowing that if it sucked it would always be a "remember that time you sucked me and it was terrible" moment. So I proceeded to suck him off and was able to swallow his whole penis. He was amazed by this and I can hear him breathing heavily. He then asked me if he can just stick the head of his dick inside my ass. Never have been penetrated I said yea sure. Not realizing we needed lube for just the head you can probably guess that shit hurt. So he stopped and I continued to blow him. sucking him off went on almost everyday till September when he decided he should try to stick it in again using baby oil, couple minutes later we were having sex. It was possible the best feeling I've ever had . So now sex was now part of the everyday routine and he would get into it like doing it in the shower, and asking me to suck his finger. etc. April 2008 came and after fucking me he said he didn't wanna do this anymore. Randomly. I said "ok" and once I got home he AOL messaged me saying he didn't want to continue intercourse but definitely wanted to keep receiving oral sex from me. Through the summer we kept this up, till September he said to me through AOL Messenger again that he wanted to take a break from doing stuff. Random..again. I went to his house that same night acting like nothing was wrong and then he says to me "you know I was just kidding about wanting a break" and then he said "if you wanna suck me you can". I then went and did it. In October he did the same "I want a break" message accept this time, he wasn't saying it was a hoax. Confused as to why the random decisions I found hanging out with him awkward and sometimes frustrating since I didn't know why. He got a girlfriend in November. & in December and we became friends with this girl who was bi, and then had a threesome, and during he asked me and her if we can suck him off at the same time. So we did & I found it strange since he told me he was "straight now". My 18th Birthday was in February 2009 and he asked me what I wanted, I said "to get laid" so then in January he asked me to give him a blowjob. Randomly. He's Straight.. I proceeded anyway and then he asked to fuck me for a birthday present. We went to my house since nobody was home and we had sex. It was my first encounter with a one minute experience. He apologized for it being so short apparently I was pretty tight and it was stimulating him enough by the time he got in it was game over. He then swore to me that it was just a teaser and that he'd do it again better. I told him Ok. That day never came. After that he said that he's "straight now" and didn't want anything to do with men. At this point I'm so confused with him he says he's straight then fucks me for a birthday present? Fast forward he's dating this girl still they have a nasty violent relationship until June. Fast forward again to last week we hang out with one of my friends who i cut off because we had problems but then we met through my new friend K-la (lol since you're reading this). So things were going well and having fun, then Steve pulls me to his kitchen to tell me to tell my friend Jayson "he can get it". So i forgot to tell Jayson this and then Later that night we were all talking in a group chat then Steve decides to tell us that he's actually pansexual, and wants to mess around with Jayson. He then went to talk to Jayson about this and Jayson said he would help him out and experiment with him. so according to Steve "he will know for sure if he's straight". That's the Story..now i don't know if any of this sounds normal
but he messed around with me for about 2 years. and I would think
experimenting with the same sex was like a one time, one week, one month thing. Then to find out he still wants to fuck girls but he wants to do Jayson. By the way he lets us know that his #1 Celebrity fuck is Adam Lambert. & that he'd love to fuck him. But yea so my problem is the hot & cold that he's swaying between. It gets annoying seeing that we've been best friends for like 8 years and it's like why lie to me and put me through all this crap to say your straight then to come back out the closet?
Thoughts? Opinions? Advice? Questions?
