It's been over a month since I've blogged on this site. I guess when I was on Mirtazapine, I really wanted to write a lot. I've been on Lexapro for over a month. It feels very different. With Mirtazapine, if I had a bad or depressing thought it would go away quickly. With Lexapro, I still have depression but for some reason I'm fine with being depressed if that makes sense. I still feel like myself. I'm not sure if Lexapro is helping or not. I still have depression, anxiety and OCD but I still want to keep trying it. I mean I quit Mirtazapine after two months. I'd like to at least try Lexapro longer.
Anyway, I started using grindr again last week. I think I was in a manic phase on Thursday. I ended up having dinner with someone from the app at 6pm, then met another guy from the app around 8pm and chatted with him for an hour in his condo. Then I met a third guy from the app and chatted with him until 10pm. I was still quite awake so I replied to a fourth guy from grindr who wanted to have sex. I took a taxi to his place. The place was a bit shady and dangerous looking. The taxi driver was very nice and he waited until the guy picked me up because the taxi driver thought I might get robbed or something.
When I got to the fourth guy's place, we watched TV at first. Then he started touching me and told me he had a friend upstairs and wanted to do a threesome if it was fine with me. The friend came down and started sucking off both of us. It was awkward at first but it got more enjoyable. Then the guy wanted to invite a fourth person to have sex with. Basically, it was an interesting end to the night. I actually got along well with the guy who was upstairs that I didn't know about who surprised me. I really thought I was just going to hookup with the guy who texted me.
I had sex with the guy who surprised me from upstairs twice. When I was about to leave, he walked me down and we hugged and exchanged numbers. I got home by 6am and fell asleep.
I didn't take Lexapro on Thursday. I did drink around 12 beers though and took a few Clonazepams throughout the night to calm my anxiety. Anyway, I don't do this regularly at all so I might as well write about it and try to get back to writing again.
Anyway, I started using grindr again last week. I think I was in a manic phase on Thursday. I ended up having dinner with someone from the app at 6pm, then met another guy from the app around 8pm and chatted with him for an hour in his condo. Then I met a third guy from the app and chatted with him until 10pm. I was still quite awake so I replied to a fourth guy from grindr who wanted to have sex. I took a taxi to his place. The place was a bit shady and dangerous looking. The taxi driver was very nice and he waited until the guy picked me up because the taxi driver thought I might get robbed or something.
When I got to the fourth guy's place, we watched TV at first. Then he started touching me and told me he had a friend upstairs and wanted to do a threesome if it was fine with me. The friend came down and started sucking off both of us. It was awkward at first but it got more enjoyable. Then the guy wanted to invite a fourth person to have sex with. Basically, it was an interesting end to the night. I actually got along well with the guy who was upstairs that I didn't know about who surprised me. I really thought I was just going to hookup with the guy who texted me.
I had sex with the guy who surprised me from upstairs twice. When I was about to leave, he walked me down and we hugged and exchanged numbers. I got home by 6am and fell asleep.
I didn't take Lexapro on Thursday. I did drink around 12 beers though and took a few Clonazepams throughout the night to calm my anxiety. Anyway, I don't do this regularly at all so I might as well write about it and try to get back to writing again.