Me friend

[beatleshead]

if you didnt read my other main post, I'll update you on this situation. its seprate so thats why im posting a new topic.

I had a silent coming out with my straight best friend over AIM. I didnt say, "Im gay", but i was telling him about my depression and frustrations with my parents and thier views on gays. He kinda got the hint and he kept saying he agreed and that he didnt judge. He kept repeating that even when we werent talking about that. TAKE NOTE I DIDNT ACTUALLY TELL HIM I WAS GAY. there now you wont post and ask me that lol

So a couple of days later we would talk and he was kinda of flirty that threw me off. He kept telling me he felt so happy and i kept asking him why and he wouldnt tell me---this guy rarely shows any emotions especially around me. A couple of days ago i AIM him and said "hey" and he was like, "what do you want." i was taken aback and i said whats wrong" and he said "nothing." and then i said "it sounds like its something wrong" and he said "whatever" and signed off. So i tried to talk the next day but he wouldnt respond. So days passed and he would sign on and i was to scared talk. so this morning i left him a message saying "happy easter" and later in the day i went to his page and he deleted it!!!

We talk alot and I miss his convo. What did I do? I would say maybe hes homofobic but i mean that wouldnt make sense in the context of the above written(i sound like a lawyer )

I dont know. I hope he talks to me again.

 

[byro]

If at first he was happy and flirty, then became shutdown and withdrawn, maybe he's gay himself and scared of the emotions you unleashed in him when he found out his friend was gay.

 

[beatleshead]

yeah thats what i was thinking. I dont know what should i do just out and tell him to establish solidarity? I dont have feelings for him but I could see myself with him. of course if it is that then i cant ask him if he is. So i guess im stuck in a conundrom. if thats how you spell it.

 

[byro]

I think you have to wait for him to absorb the news and give him time enough to see how he evolves. Maybe he'll warm up again or maybe he'll pull away altogether, but if you push too hard too soon it'll drive him away.

 

[beatleshead]

FUCK HIM!!!!

what a fucking asshole...

I messaged him

Me: hey
Him (10:27:54 PM): was up
Me (10:29:47 PM): how was your easter
Him (10:29:59 PM): alright
Me (10:30:05 PM): what did you eat
him(10:30:15 PM): ?
Him (10:30:19 PM): y
Me (10:30:23 PM): just asking
Him (10:30:28 PM): idk

and then he just signed off. fuck him. fuck now im crying. gotta go to bed.

 

[oh-noo]

Hey, I'm a little confused...

were you talking about your old friend from school or the new guy??

 

[beatleshead]

Hey, I'm a little confused...

were you talking about your old friend from school or the new guy??

NO NO NO not manny... not the new guy either.

this is just one of my friends, like a brother, from high school..one of my closest(non sexually attracted) friends. NOT MANNY. I though I made that clear up there but oh well.

 

[byro]

Sorry to hear you're sad, buddy. Wish I could wave a magic wand.

 

[beatleshead]

we were all (the group of friends that he and both hung out with) supposed to go to knotts berry farm his weekend...but i dont think i want to go now.

Oh yeah...its Manny's birthday in a couple of days...im gonna leave him a card on his myspace or something see how he reacts. lol

but yeah im pretty over my friend, i mean i didnt even come out to him, or at least the words, "I Am Bi" didnt even come out of my mouth so im not scared of him telling anyone. its just like, dont make a comfortable situation only to rip it away...i mean if you hate me i just rather you say it, mean it, and get it over with. FUCK!!