This is my second post and I know how neglected blog entries on this website is. I can even see cobwebs on some of these entries, mine is no exception. However, I guess I am just here to rant about my current state of events and mind.
Have you ever felt that under immense pressure and culmination of events, your mental strength starts weakening and your hold on rational thoughts losing its grip?
Well, for the past few months, mine has been crumbling under the wait for my visa (see previous post) and other events in life. Admittedly, I find myself suddenly thrown off balance, like I do not know what I want to do anymore. Also, the need for a partner started creeping in. At 24 years of age, I have not been in a steady relationship in a long time, almost 5 years (will be next year). This, coupled with a series of bad dates and douchebag characters, is starting to take a toll on my mental health.
Initially I thought, never mind that my friends are happy, being single is the best thing that has happened to me since bagel with cream cheese and salmon. I thought I was at the top of my game, having naughty fun and being as free as a wolf. Doing what I want without having to answer to anyone special.
But the more I see happy couples everywhere, the relationship bug decided to bit me when I least expected it. Now I think that every possible interaction with a hot single guy (or a guy whose personality is my type) can lead to a blossoming romance complete with the whole "happily ever after" package.
What.is.happening.to.me?!
Have you ever felt that under immense pressure and culmination of events, your mental strength starts weakening and your hold on rational thoughts losing its grip?
Well, for the past few months, mine has been crumbling under the wait for my visa (see previous post) and other events in life. Admittedly, I find myself suddenly thrown off balance, like I do not know what I want to do anymore. Also, the need for a partner started creeping in. At 24 years of age, I have not been in a steady relationship in a long time, almost 5 years (will be next year). This, coupled with a series of bad dates and douchebag characters, is starting to take a toll on my mental health.
Initially I thought, never mind that my friends are happy, being single is the best thing that has happened to me since bagel with cream cheese and salmon. I thought I was at the top of my game, having naughty fun and being as free as a wolf. Doing what I want without having to answer to anyone special.
But the more I see happy couples everywhere, the relationship bug decided to bit me when I least expected it. Now I think that every possible interaction with a hot single guy (or a guy whose personality is my type) can lead to a blossoming romance complete with the whole "happily ever after" package.
What.is.happening.to.me?!