lyconthrope
Is The Alpha Female
I know she was old and had been ill for a while so it shouldn't have been a shock but it threw me completely when I got a text message from my mum to say she had passed away in the early hours of this morning.
I was sent home from work because I couldnt stop shakeing and crying.
And either I am dealing with it very badly or everyone else in my family is in denial, no one else seems to be as badly messed up as I am right now
I get it, she was in her 90's and had been ill for a while but it's not like she passed peacefully in her sleep, it was a struggle the last few hours and the members of my family who went with her to the hospital effectively watched her pass away.
so, how can it be that when I speak to them all I hear is "she had a good run and wasn't very well for a long time" how does that make it any less distressing?!
maybe its just me being over sensitive, my dad keeps telling me "everyone grieves in their own way"
Guess that just means my family will accept it and move on just fine and I am gonna be left as an emotional basket case for just little while longer.
feels a little better to write it down rather than say it out loud
not sure how I am gonna feel in the morning, just hope I can get through work tomorrow without breaking into floods of tears