My hell!

[Swellegant]

Christ, honey! Now that's drama!

I don't mean to make light of your situation, I wouldn't wish such a string of horrors on my worst enemy, and my own trials are nothing in comparison. But I recommend that you do try to make light of it: if you can turn something into a good story, it doesn't hurt as much. Try writing it out as a short story or a screenplay or something, it will help you get those feelings worked out. And really, the bit about your parents ripping up the birth-certificate? That was worthy of the big screen! You can see it as a scene in a great film.

You've had a really shitty string of really shitty experiences. Let it make you stronger, let it inspire you to help people who are going through similar experiences. Don't let it get you down, because then the assholes win.

 

[rotary]

That's almost unbelievable. If you were here I'd give you a huge hug for having to go through all that bullshit.

Is your dad in jail? Did you live in a small conservative town? Your whole story is scary.

I'm glad things have started turning around for you. You've proven to be a very strong person. Hang in there buddy.

 

[treanir]

I don't know what to say, except for: Robert~Marlénè said it best.

Even though it may not seem like it right now, not everyone's a complete asshole. There are people around who accept you for who you are. I wish you the best of luck in your new town and I hope you'll find friends who are able to see beyond your sexuality and find the person behind it.

All the best (and more)

 

[JayHew]

All I can tell you is the grist mill of the universe grinds slowly but exceedingly fine and a balance will be achieved at some point, you needn't fret about that. Am so sorry to of heard of your experience and hope that it doesn't overwhelm you. Don't let it taint your total perception of the world, know there are fine, grand people out there that would never do anything akin to what you have experienced. That you have moved away from the scene of the hurt is good, don't move away from your connections to yourself and others. Do get counciling and talk out what you are feeling and thinking concerning all this, otherwise PTSD will come out in some other aspect of your life and be worse.

What ever you decide to do, just know there are many who will support and comfort you, no matter what.

 

[operafan]

Needless to say your story is horrifying on so many levels that any one of these incidents would be enough to grind a person down.

I've heard a lot of horrible stories but I've never heard of a father who tried to have his son killed.

Needless to say your family put the "dys" in dysfunctional families.

I hope you have found new friends and they will become your new family. There is a lot of love in the world - and it is definitely your turn.

 

[antdak]

My heart goes out to you! I can't even imagine what it was like for you. Just know that we here at JUB support you, and someone will allways be here! Glad to hear you are doing better. You know you don't need to tell anyone your gay! just be your self, and others will see you as you are, and will come to love you for you!

 

[puka-pride]

oh my god.... thats horrible... you should have moved to a gay friendly part of the world.. so you can be yourself.. but I understand the fear.. and don't blame u at all for going back in the closet...


you should totally write a book about it.. or have a ghost writer.. because if all that is true.. people should really know about the city your from.. but if u say your worried they'd find u.. just use a different name..

i know i would read your story.. and i don't read anything (other than whats on the screen obviously)

 

[eddielee]

That's story is horrible, almost unbelievable. Even in the very strict, religious area I live in, the reaction to someone being gay isn't as severe. The best thing you can do is to try and get as far away from there as possible. Until you can get away, be very careful in who trust and confide in.

Please don't feel guilty or allow others to make you feel that way. You don't owe your parents and friends anything. I doubt if you'll ever, nor should you try, to reconcile with your parents. You will, in the future, find people that love you unconditionally. You deserve a better life and are in every way worth it.

Love and peace to you.

 

[trawler69]

Well Maneater I wouldn't wish your experiences on my worst enemies but I would sugest that you update your profile to reflect them. You joined in August this year and said that nobody knows but your post suggests they did. I'm not being harsh here but i'm not sure where you are coming from, just too many contradictions

 

[Swellegant]

^It would still make a mighty fine screenplay.

Though next time you write fiction, you might want to do it in the Stories forum.

 

[eddielee]

This whole damn thing was made up!!!!! I might have known the story was too incredible. I'm not amused or none too happy that I spent time with a reply. Bad taste dude, very bad taste!

 

[RyzeAbove]

Pathetic way to get attention. I actually felt horrible for you. Oh well.

 

[trawler69]

I realised it was made up when I read your profile before posting, I hope that is what made you realise you had been rumbled. People put time and thought into their replies, please don't mock this with made up stories, whether they be attention seeking or whatever. You will just end up alienating yourself from them all, and they are the ones who could most help you when you do have a problem. I refer you the the tale below:

MATILDA told such Dreadful Lies,
It made one Gasp and Stretch one's Eyes;
Her Aunt, who, from her Earliest Youth,
Had kept a Strict Regard for Truth,
Attempted to Believe Matilda:
The effort very nearly killed her,
And would have done so, had not She
Discovered this Infirmity.
For once, towards the Close of Day,
Matilda, growing tired of play,
And finding she was left alone,
Went tiptoe to the Telephone
And summoned the Immediate Aid
Of London's Noble Fire-Brigade.
Within an hour the Gallant Band
Were pouring in on every hand,
From Putney, Hackney Downs, and Bow.
With Courage high and Hearts a-glow,
They galloped, roaring through the Town,
'Matilda's House is Burning Down!'
Inspired by British Cheers and Loud
Proceeding from the Frenzied Crowd,
They ran their ladders through a score
Of windows on the Ball Room Floor;
And took Peculiar Pains to Souse
The Pictures up and down the House,
Until Matilda's Aunt succeeded
In showing them they were not needed;
And even then she had to pay
To get the Men to go away!

It happened that a few Weeks later
Her Aunt was off to the Theatre
To see that Interesting Play
The Second Mrs. Tanqueray.
She had refused to take her Niece
To hear this Entertaining Piece:
A Deprivation Just and Wise
To Punish her for Telling Lies.
That Night a Fire did break out--
You should have heard Matilda Shout!
You should have heard her Scream and Bawl,
And throw the window up and call
To People passing in the Street--
(The rapidly increasing Heat
Encouraging her to obtain
Their confidence) -- but all in vain!
For every time she shouted 'Fire!'
They only answered 'Little Liar!'
And therefore when her Aunt returned,
Matilda, and the House, were Burned.

"Matilda" Cautionary Tales. Hilaire Belloc. 1907.

 

[cocktales]

Maneater!

I am so disappointed in you!!

Here I was just sitting here after reading your story wondering how in the world I could say anything to help you make you feel better about yourself!

Thank goodness I read through the entire thread; else, I would be really angry at you for lieing!

Remember the "Boy Who Cried Wolf"?

I suggest you google the title and re-read it to remind you what "might" happen to you the next time you lie about a serious situation like that!

Please, if you want attention so desperately, just ask and we will give it to you without the drama!

 

[treanir]

i made it up

Why? Why on earth would you do that?

Poor taste. Very poor taste.

 

[ozguy]

i made it up

Didn't believe it as soon as I read it.

 

[provenlogic]

i didn't either, i just wasn't going to post a "are you sure u're not a lieing S.O.B.?" post.

 

[Fastdavy]

Shame on you for putting a lot of good people through your sick idea of fun although I did not buy a lot of it espically the hit man