TheHeraldMage
Sex God
I really dont know where to start.
A little over a year and a half ago, I came here to Toledo to be with my partner who I met online. For the most part, I'm pretty happy. Except for one thing:
I miss my mother.
For years, I was my mom's primary caregiver. Until a couple of years ago when she had her first stroke. That was really scary. I almost lost her. But mom's a fighter and she got better. After it happened, my family stepped in and decided that mom would be better of living with my brother in Palm Springs. They didnt think I could do it. It ripped my heart out. I never really got alont all that well with my family anyway, and I felt like they stabbed me in the back.
A few months after my mom went to live with my brother, I moved here to Toledo. The thing is, I feel so guilty for leaving my mom like that. She has come to visit me a couple times since I've been here. And I loved having her here. I dont think she will be able to make the trip again. Mom is 78 years old, and she recently had another stroke.
I talk to her on the phone as much as I can, but lately she hasnt been feeling well, and I am frantic with worry. I freak every time the phone rings, thinking my brother has bad news for me.
I am so worried about her. I want to go visit her, but I cant afford it. She wants to see me too. This is driving me nuts. When she is gone, I wonder what will happen to me. Will I be able to handle it? I'm afraid I will have a breakdwn. I know it will happen someday. But who will I turn to? Who will I talk to about it?
I usually dont like to talk about my private life online, but this is something that I need to talk about. I have thought about writing this entry for days now. So I finally decided that I should go ahead and write about this.
My mom is very important to me. We have always been very close. When my dad passed away a few years ago, we had each other to help us through it. But who is going to help me through it when mom's gone? WHO? I really dont have any friends here in Toledo. So I dont have anyone I can talk about this with.
I just want to cry with frustration. I just want to scream. I cant even afford to go to California to see her.
Thanks for listening everyone. Sorry if I'm being such a whiner about this.
Scott
A little over a year and a half ago, I came here to Toledo to be with my partner who I met online. For the most part, I'm pretty happy. Except for one thing:
I miss my mother.
For years, I was my mom's primary caregiver. Until a couple of years ago when she had her first stroke. That was really scary. I almost lost her. But mom's a fighter and she got better. After it happened, my family stepped in and decided that mom would be better of living with my brother in Palm Springs. They didnt think I could do it. It ripped my heart out. I never really got alont all that well with my family anyway, and I felt like they stabbed me in the back.
A few months after my mom went to live with my brother, I moved here to Toledo. The thing is, I feel so guilty for leaving my mom like that. She has come to visit me a couple times since I've been here. And I loved having her here. I dont think she will be able to make the trip again. Mom is 78 years old, and she recently had another stroke.
I talk to her on the phone as much as I can, but lately she hasnt been feeling well, and I am frantic with worry. I freak every time the phone rings, thinking my brother has bad news for me.
I am so worried about her. I want to go visit her, but I cant afford it. She wants to see me too. This is driving me nuts. When she is gone, I wonder what will happen to me. Will I be able to handle it? I'm afraid I will have a breakdwn. I know it will happen someday. But who will I turn to? Who will I talk to about it?
I usually dont like to talk about my private life online, but this is something that I need to talk about. I have thought about writing this entry for days now. So I finally decided that I should go ahead and write about this.
My mom is very important to me. We have always been very close. When my dad passed away a few years ago, we had each other to help us through it. But who is going to help me through it when mom's gone? WHO? I really dont have any friends here in Toledo. So I dont have anyone I can talk about this with.
I just want to cry with frustration. I just want to scream. I cant even afford to go to California to see her.
Thanks for listening everyone. Sorry if I'm being such a whiner about this.
Scott