I've posted on here before. Sorry it's so long, I wanted you to know everything.
I have this friend, we've been friends for almost a year. We've gotten closer to each other in the past few months, since about October. One of the reasons we have gotten so close is because he was one of the first people I've come out to as being bi, when i told him he was very curious about when I had first known and what feeling I had had after accepting it, and we've also messed around together a couple times. The first time we messed around would be in late September, he gave each other blow-jobs(my first sexual experience with anyone). After the experience he seemed distant from me for a couple days, he wasn't texting me as much and when we were together he wasn't talking to me as much. Finally one day I asked him about how he felt about what we had done and he said that he regretted it and that it would never happen again, and I said that i was fine with that. We agreed that we wouldn't put ourselves into a situation where it might happen again. For a couple weeks things were better.
The second time it happened was in his dorm room, we were watching baseball with his roommate. His roommate left the room and my friend kept asking me if I wanted to mess around again, I kept telling him no cause it really wasn't what he wanted and we didn't know when his roommate would come back but he kept insisting, nothing happened that day but it made me wonder why he was so persistent.
The third time it happened was in my dorm room, we were playing Xbox and one thing led to another and he started giving me a blow-job. Things weren't as weird this time after everything was done.
There were a couple more times where we tried to do something and either got interrupted by a roommate or succeeded. In all there were about 5 times that got interrupted and 4 times that it actually happened, and I will add that they were all started by him. We also had numerous conversations about him being confused about his sexuality and the repercussions of him being gay/bi in his strict christian family.
Just before Christmas break I ask him what he was expecting from our relationship because I felt I was ready to move onto the next level with him and tell people that we were dating and I was ready to do anything to make him feel comfortable in this relationship, I really felt that he could've been the one for me, we connected on so many different levels. He had told me that he was straight. So I asked him if he was still confused about the way he felt and he said he was never confused.
During Christmas break he starts this relationship with this girl he worked with, one of my other friends and him got into a heated argument over him leading me on. Him and I didn't speak for a few days.
Once break ends we come back to school and we talk about everything that has happened and agreed that we just weren't going to acknowledge it. Since then he told me that he told his girlfriend everything that has happened between us and she said she was ok with it as long as it doesn't happen again.
For the past couple of weeks he have been hanging out alot and things seem to be going back to the way they were before, we cuddle all the time, he tells our friends that we are dating, he kisses me on the cheek in public. And even through all this he still claims he's straight.
I'm just so confused by his actions and was wondering if anyone might know what I should do. We have recently decided to become roommates for next year, and the subject of him having his girlfriend has come up, I don't think that I am emotionally prepared to see him and his new girlfriend cuddling in bed and kissing each other. Is there a way that I can get over him faster?
Thank Guys, sorry again it's so long.
I have this friend, we've been friends for almost a year. We've gotten closer to each other in the past few months, since about October. One of the reasons we have gotten so close is because he was one of the first people I've come out to as being bi, when i told him he was very curious about when I had first known and what feeling I had had after accepting it, and we've also messed around together a couple times. The first time we messed around would be in late September, he gave each other blow-jobs(my first sexual experience with anyone). After the experience he seemed distant from me for a couple days, he wasn't texting me as much and when we were together he wasn't talking to me as much. Finally one day I asked him about how he felt about what we had done and he said that he regretted it and that it would never happen again, and I said that i was fine with that. We agreed that we wouldn't put ourselves into a situation where it might happen again. For a couple weeks things were better.
The second time it happened was in his dorm room, we were watching baseball with his roommate. His roommate left the room and my friend kept asking me if I wanted to mess around again, I kept telling him no cause it really wasn't what he wanted and we didn't know when his roommate would come back but he kept insisting, nothing happened that day but it made me wonder why he was so persistent.
The third time it happened was in my dorm room, we were playing Xbox and one thing led to another and he started giving me a blow-job. Things weren't as weird this time after everything was done.
There were a couple more times where we tried to do something and either got interrupted by a roommate or succeeded. In all there were about 5 times that got interrupted and 4 times that it actually happened, and I will add that they were all started by him. We also had numerous conversations about him being confused about his sexuality and the repercussions of him being gay/bi in his strict christian family.
Just before Christmas break I ask him what he was expecting from our relationship because I felt I was ready to move onto the next level with him and tell people that we were dating and I was ready to do anything to make him feel comfortable in this relationship, I really felt that he could've been the one for me, we connected on so many different levels. He had told me that he was straight. So I asked him if he was still confused about the way he felt and he said he was never confused.
During Christmas break he starts this relationship with this girl he worked with, one of my other friends and him got into a heated argument over him leading me on. Him and I didn't speak for a few days.
Once break ends we come back to school and we talk about everything that has happened and agreed that we just weren't going to acknowledge it. Since then he told me that he told his girlfriend everything that has happened between us and she said she was ok with it as long as it doesn't happen again.
For the past couple of weeks he have been hanging out alot and things seem to be going back to the way they were before, we cuddle all the time, he tells our friends that we are dating, he kisses me on the cheek in public. And even through all this he still claims he's straight.
I'm just so confused by his actions and was wondering if anyone might know what I should do. We have recently decided to become roommates for next year, and the subject of him having his girlfriend has come up, I don't think that I am emotionally prepared to see him and his new girlfriend cuddling in bed and kissing each other. Is there a way that I can get over him faster?
Thank Guys, sorry again it's so long.
