Hi guys. My name is Pat. I am 25 years old and am between school and a job. I am mostly heterosexual - you might call me curious, and I wouldn't object to bisexual either. I am definitely not a homosexual in denial (not that there's anything wrong with that). I am a great admirer of the female form and I have been in love several times with women.
But I must admit I find myself looking through gay sites and watching gay porn. It took me a while to come to peace with this fact, but now I just shrug my shoulders and carry on. I have never been with a man, although sometimes I feel like I would really like to. The problem is this desire only happens once in a while. Right now I am resolved that if I tried to find a male partner, it would surely end up bad for both parties.
So I thought I would just talk about this online as a sort of release. I have also been having trouble finding quality porn in the gay genre. The best I've seen is Sean Cody and similar websites. I like watching cum shots - especially in the mouth. I know this is controversial and against the practices of many studios. But still, I know what I like. I also like the genre where the men are supposedly straight. I know many instances this is just a gimmick, and that some gays find this popular category to be problematic for gay identity. But, in my case, I just find it easier to identify with a straight male who is trying something new. I like to see them somewhat nervous at first, but soon after the sex begins, I like to see them really enjoy it and lose themselves (although "converting" is a little overboard.)
I guess since I was an adolescent, I found myself attracted by penises. I remember seeing my friend's handsome one, and my heart began racing. I have often though about sucking since then. Later, one episode from HBO's Shock Video Turn-on TV featured a group of male british strippers going "full monty." It took me completely by surprise how turned-on I became. I videotaped it, and often used it to masturbate. I especially enjoyed how the dancers shook their cocks in a rhythmic pattern. I wanted to be at that event, shouting and cheering with the female fans.
Woo boy, I went on longer than I planned. Basically I'm doing this for myself as a sort of therapy. I would love to hear responses, any advice, or recommendations for adult videos based on my preferences above. Thanks!
But I must admit I find myself looking through gay sites and watching gay porn. It took me a while to come to peace with this fact, but now I just shrug my shoulders and carry on. I have never been with a man, although sometimes I feel like I would really like to. The problem is this desire only happens once in a while. Right now I am resolved that if I tried to find a male partner, it would surely end up bad for both parties.
So I thought I would just talk about this online as a sort of release. I have also been having trouble finding quality porn in the gay genre. The best I've seen is Sean Cody and similar websites. I like watching cum shots - especially in the mouth. I know this is controversial and against the practices of many studios. But still, I know what I like. I also like the genre where the men are supposedly straight. I know many instances this is just a gimmick, and that some gays find this popular category to be problematic for gay identity. But, in my case, I just find it easier to identify with a straight male who is trying something new. I like to see them somewhat nervous at first, but soon after the sex begins, I like to see them really enjoy it and lose themselves (although "converting" is a little overboard.)
I guess since I was an adolescent, I found myself attracted by penises. I remember seeing my friend's handsome one, and my heart began racing. I have often though about sucking since then. Later, one episode from HBO's Shock Video Turn-on TV featured a group of male british strippers going "full monty." It took me completely by surprise how turned-on I became. I videotaped it, and often used it to masturbate. I especially enjoyed how the dancers shook their cocks in a rhythmic pattern. I wanted to be at that event, shouting and cheering with the female fans.
Woo boy, I went on longer than I planned. Basically I'm doing this for myself as a sort of therapy. I would love to hear responses, any advice, or recommendations for adult videos based on my preferences above. Thanks!
