No idea what to do

[christophevans22]

So I am coming to the terms with the fact that I am bisexual and or gay. I thought I was simply gay and came out to my parents and sister about a year ago, and it was one of the biggest disasters ive experienced in my life. My parents (especially my mother) were mortified, my sister didnt give a shit. Ever since then I have just told them I am straight and that was just a phase , it was so painful and bizarre I decided it was best they never know the truth. After my coming out and subsequent lies that it was a phase to my parents, i decided to act on my homosexual thoughts. I went on a date with a guy , had oral sex and thoroughly enjoyed it . Now i find myself here over a year later in a situation which is very odd. My dad constantly makes anti-gay remarks as well as my friends, and i dont think they would ever accept me for who I truly think I am. Now Im headed back for my last year at college and just want to try the whole gay thing. When i masturbate/fantasize it seems to be all about men, I feel like i cant really ignore this any longer.

I attend a school which is extremely accepting of gays/bi/lesbians . Should I go for it? I feel like i am missing out because I am too much of a coward. I know plenty have been in this situation. Thanks.

 

[evanrick]

seems pretty clear your parents are assholes.

 

[jft245]

Do what makes you happy.

 

[KaraBulut]

Now Im headed back for my last year at college and just want to try the whole gay thing. When i masturbate/fantasize it seems to be all about men, I feel like i cant really ignore this any longer.

I attend a school which is extremely accepting of gays/bi/lesbians . Should I go for it?

Yes. That is what college is for.

Just be safe when you do.

 

[medic1]

Firstly welcome to JUB , i am sorry that your parents were not supportive
in anyway at all , but i would say yep go for it you are who you are and
for your own happiness you gotta go where ever that takes you .
Am glad that your college seems to have a good rep for it will really help
you if and when you wanna chat with or meet someone .
Also the guys here on jub are great for advice and support or just to make new
friends from all over the world .
I have met some great guys here on the forums and have developed two very
close friendships with two of the lovliest guys that i would never have met
otherwise . Good Luck buddy.

 

[HunterM]

You now know who you are. Go explore your sexuality. You don't need your parents' permissions. Acceptance will eventually come only when you stand your ground.

As you're coming out, you will discover new friends that would accept you as a whole person. Some of these friends will become your "family".

Play safe & have fun!

 

[Seasoned]

Welcome. Be yourself and take advantage of being in college. I'm sorry your parents haven't been supportive.